So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
I'm so sick of this repenting for the sins that I've made
Thinking of an afterlife counting down the days 'til I die
Or have I made another mistake
As mankind's creation we suffer 'til we're saved
Can you save me now (I'm falling in deeper)
Given one way out (there's nowhere to run)
I'm worrying, I'm worrying this time I'll never heal
I'm worrying, I'm worrying this world's standing still
And I'm on my own with the days merging as one
And I'm on my own this time, this time I'll never heal
Wash away the fear that I can't seem to get out my mind
Everyday another fight I'm in the dark I'm begging for light
As time goes on I feel more afraid
Another reminder I cannot change this fate
Everything that I have done I've done for us and now I'm suffering and paying for it
Rotting this torment I can't seem to get away
Everything that I have done I've done for us and now I'm suffering and paying for it
Hoping to God in this life there's another way
Can you save me now (I'm falling in deeper)
Given one way out (there's nowhere to run)
I'm worrying, I'm worrying this time I'll never heal
I'm worrying, I'm worrying this world's standing still
And I'm on my own with the days merging as one
And I'm on my own this time, this time I'll never heal
I'm worrying, I'm worrying this time I'll never heal
I'm worrying, I'm worrying this world's standing still
And I'm on my own with the days merging as one
And I'm on my own this time, this time I'll never heal
Thinking of an afterlife counting down the days 'til I die
Or have I made another mistake
As mankind's creation we suffer 'til we're saved
Can you save me now (I'm falling in deeper)
Given one way out (there's nowhere to run)
I'm worrying, I'm worrying this time I'll never heal
I'm worrying, I'm worrying this world's standing still
And I'm on my own with the days merging as one
And I'm on my own this time, this time I'll never heal
Wash away the fear that I can't seem to get out my mind
Everyday another fight I'm in the dark I'm begging for light
As time goes on I feel more afraid
Another reminder I cannot change this fate
Everything that I have done I've done for us and now I'm suffering and paying for it
Rotting this torment I can't seem to get away
Everything that I have done I've done for us and now I'm suffering and paying for it
Hoping to God in this life there's another way
Can you save me now (I'm falling in deeper)
Given one way out (there's nowhere to run)
I'm worrying, I'm worrying this time I'll never heal
I'm worrying, I'm worrying this world's standing still
And I'm on my own with the days merging as one
And I'm on my own this time, this time I'll never heal
I'm worrying, I'm worrying this time I'll never heal
I'm worrying, I'm worrying this world's standing still
And I'm on my own with the days merging as one
And I'm on my own this time, this time I'll never heal
Lyrics submitted by EternalTearsOfSorrow
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The track reflects on some of the personal challenges the members of THE RAVEN AGE face during their relentless life on the road and how the passion for what they do helps to overcome these inner battles.
"It was written whilst on tour," says guitarist Tony Maue. "It's about being in a constant battle with your own mind, delving into dark places you didn't know you had. Simple things like sleep become a challenge when your mind's working on overdrive and it seems there's no light at the end of the tunnel. The fact that I was able to turn this into something positive and create music out of it was the escape I needed at the time to get me through it."