So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
I got enough on my mind
That when she pulls me by the hair
She hasn't much to hold onto
She keeping count on her hand
One, two, three days that I've been sleeping on my side
I finished kissing my death
So now I head back up the steps
Thinking about where I've been
I mean the sun was never like this
So I wanna feel with the seasons
I guess it makes sense 'cause my life's become as vapid as
A night out in Los Angeles
And I just wanna stay in bed
I hold you like I used to
You know that I am home
So darling if you love me
Would you let me know?
Or go on, go on, go on
If you were thinking that the worst is yet to come
Why am I the one always packing up my stuff?
For once, for once, for once
I get the feeling that I'm right where I belong
Why am I the one always packing all my stuff?
She got enough on her mind
That she feel no sorrow
I let my fate fill the air
So now she rollin' down the window
Never been one to hold on
But I need a last breath, so I ask if she remembers when
She used to come and visit me
We were fools to think that nothing could go wrong
Go on, go on, go on
If you were thinking that the worst is yet to come
Why am I the one always packing up my stuff?
For once, for once, for once
I get the feeling that I'm right where I belong
Why am I the one always packing all my stuff?
I think I kinda like it but I might of had too much
I'll move back down
To this western town
When they find me out, make no mistake about it
I'll move back down
To this western town
When they find me out, make no mistake about it
I'll move back down (Go on, go on, go on, if you were thinkin' that the worst is yet to come)
To this western town
Why am I the one always packin' up my stuff
Go on, go on, go on, if you were thinkin that the worst is yet to come
Why am I the one always packin' up my stuff?
For once, for once, for once, I get the feeling that I'm right where I belong
Why am I the one always packin' up my stuff?
I think I kinda like it, but I might of had too much
I'll move back down
That when she pulls me by the hair
She hasn't much to hold onto
She keeping count on her hand
One, two, three days that I've been sleeping on my side
I finished kissing my death
So now I head back up the steps
Thinking about where I've been
I mean the sun was never like this
So I wanna feel with the seasons
I guess it makes sense 'cause my life's become as vapid as
A night out in Los Angeles
And I just wanna stay in bed
I hold you like I used to
You know that I am home
So darling if you love me
Would you let me know?
Or go on, go on, go on
If you were thinking that the worst is yet to come
Why am I the one always packing up my stuff?
For once, for once, for once
I get the feeling that I'm right where I belong
Why am I the one always packing all my stuff?
She got enough on her mind
That she feel no sorrow
I let my fate fill the air
So now she rollin' down the window
Never been one to hold on
But I need a last breath, so I ask if she remembers when
She used to come and visit me
We were fools to think that nothing could go wrong
Go on, go on, go on
If you were thinking that the worst is yet to come
Why am I the one always packing up my stuff?
For once, for once, for once
I get the feeling that I'm right where I belong
Why am I the one always packing all my stuff?
I think I kinda like it but I might of had too much
I'll move back down
To this western town
When they find me out, make no mistake about it
I'll move back down
To this western town
When they find me out, make no mistake about it
I'll move back down (Go on, go on, go on, if you were thinkin' that the worst is yet to come)
To this western town
Why am I the one always packin' up my stuff
Go on, go on, go on, if you were thinkin that the worst is yet to come
Why am I the one always packin' up my stuff?
For once, for once, for once, I get the feeling that I'm right where I belong
Why am I the one always packin' up my stuff?
I think I kinda like it, but I might of had too much
I'll move back down
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i find it funny that "I Wanna Be The One" is on their first album and "Why Am I The One" is on their second.
They make enough references to their own songs (and Format songs) that I think they had to have done that on purpose.
i never knew that... thats hilarious 8D