This song is def a twin to "Unfair" (a song she has been quoted as saying is about falling in love with someone who is already in a relationship) so it is presumably about the same person. Given the references to buying an apartment and not being able to see her love interest "after tonight," it's most likely that she's moving away and she'll "wait a day to break the bad news" (i.e. notifying him that she's leaving once she's already gone).
And, of course, the fact that she sees in him a fellow "idealist" and "dreamer" (terms commonly given to people with the INFP personality on the Myers–Briggs Type Indicator (MBTI)) portends that she'll always be left wondering if they would've been perfect together.
I wrote a song, a journal gave it to the world
Told the story of when I was just a girl
I sought understanding, clarity in truth
By baring all the wounds inflicted on my youth
You criticised my choice to stand up to my past
To give the pain a voice, so that it too could pass
But I felt brave and filled with pride as I let go
Of bitterness that wouldn't leave or let me grow
And I will spend a lifetime trying to understand
Why someone sharing my bloodline would not lend me their hand
Am I supposed to apologise?
Am I supposed to apologise?
I loved her more than myself, but she made me choose
Between her and my father and so I refused
I fled her house and wrath, eleven years of age
Followed the crooked path that led me to a stage
The curtains opened up, my heart followed the lead
The music wouldn't stop and I could finally breathe
But I will spend a lifetime trying to understand
Why someone sharing my bloodline would not lend me their hand
Am I supposed to apologise?
Am I supposed to apologise?
Told the story of when I was just a girl
I sought understanding, clarity in truth
By baring all the wounds inflicted on my youth
You criticised my choice to stand up to my past
To give the pain a voice, so that it too could pass
But I felt brave and filled with pride as I let go
Of bitterness that wouldn't leave or let me grow
And I will spend a lifetime trying to understand
Why someone sharing my bloodline would not lend me their hand
Am I supposed to apologise?
Am I supposed to apologise?
I loved her more than myself, but she made me choose
Between her and my father and so I refused
I fled her house and wrath, eleven years of age
Followed the crooked path that led me to a stage
The curtains opened up, my heart followed the lead
The music wouldn't stop and I could finally breathe
But I will spend a lifetime trying to understand
Why someone sharing my bloodline would not lend me their hand
Am I supposed to apologise?
Am I supposed to apologise?
Lyrics submitted by capricordestin, edited by amy589
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