I am a happy nihilist
No absolute truth does exist
When I decide to shake my fist
I only got myself to blame
Cause we're all players
and life's the game

I only take what I need,
I am so light on my feet,
I will not stop or concede,
I am not driven by greed,
No moral compass for me,
It's all just natural feelings,
Existence has no meaning,
There's no such thing as happy.

But late at night when I sleep,
I dream of more than I see
There's something burning in me
A drive, a need to be free.

Why do I sit here and think
about the things that I need?
There's nothing left to believe
Oh, is it all just a dream?

I've taught this to myself
Pile books up on the shelf
But it still hurts like hell
To trust nobody else but me

I used to read everything
I used to need nothing
I put my money on me
I used to be something

Now I can't sleep
Cause I'm not happy

Why am I haunted by the metaphysical?
Is it a cosmic lie or is it literal?
The books I read that used to free my mind
Have made me more blind but the truth I'll find it

I was a happy nihilist
Now I'm wondering why I exist

I've taught this to myself
Pile books up on the shelf
But it still hurts like hell
To trust nobody else but me


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    The narrator was content for a time to be free of values, weighed down by nothing and unconcerned with morality. It's easy to not have to worry about doing the right thing. But he doesn't seem to truly believe what he's saying. It seems more like he tried to dismiss his aimlessness and unhappiness by convincing himself those things he lacks are meaningless or simply don't exist. He starts to recognize that denying his needs doesn't make them go away. No matter how educated and well-read you are, you can't just talk yourself out of feeling empty and alone. In the end, he accepts that believing in nothing didn't make him happy. He wants something to believe in, so he's searching for meaning again.

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