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i conquered my own childhood silence and now the world is my lit confessional marquee,
but it'd take a busload of high school soccer girls to wash those hospitals off me
oh, am i clean?
nineteen.
they said sex will keep you young and make you older at the same time,
they said sex will have left you aged normally,
and so i guess it's sorta like smoking and walking at the same time
in that it will have left you aged normally
oh, am i clean?
lord, please, why me?
i wish i could feel close to somebody but i don't feel nothing.
now they say i need to quit doing all this random ffff-
now i think my upstairs neighbor hears me masturbating,
and there's other one's peeping through the slits in my curtains
and i never got a name for my shady compulsion
'cause i messed up and kissed my shrink in a jersey city hotel room..
and i know saying all this in public should make me feel funny,
but ya gotta yell something out you'd never tell nobody.
we found the dead fox, and a dozen matchbox cars, when we cut back the hedges on cortelyou place,
how many got lost left so long they grew moss 'cause they recoiled into the shadows of my embrace?
we found the dead fox, and a dozen matchbox cars, when we cut back the hedges on cortelyou place,
how many got lost left so long they grew moss 'cause they recoiled into the shadows of my embrace?
oh, am i clean?
lord, please, why me?
but it'd take a busload of high school soccer girls to wash those hospitals off me
oh, am i clean?
nineteen.
they said sex will keep you young and make you older at the same time,
they said sex will have left you aged normally,
and so i guess it's sorta like smoking and walking at the same time
in that it will have left you aged normally
oh, am i clean?
lord, please, why me?
i wish i could feel close to somebody but i don't feel nothing.
now they say i need to quit doing all this random ffff-
now i think my upstairs neighbor hears me masturbating,
and there's other one's peeping through the slits in my curtains
and i never got a name for my shady compulsion
'cause i messed up and kissed my shrink in a jersey city hotel room..
and i know saying all this in public should make me feel funny,
but ya gotta yell something out you'd never tell nobody.
we found the dead fox, and a dozen matchbox cars, when we cut back the hedges on cortelyou place,
how many got lost left so long they grew moss 'cause they recoiled into the shadows of my embrace?
we found the dead fox, and a dozen matchbox cars, when we cut back the hedges on cortelyou place,
how many got lost left so long they grew moss 'cause they recoiled into the shadows of my embrace?
oh, am i clean?
lord, please, why me?
Lyrics submitted by shitscold
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Brilliant song. Seems a bit like he's fascinated by the contrast between his nobody days and his new position on the podium... especially when he still feels like the old guy. When people try to get close to him, they can be sucked into the shadow of his being... like a fox in a bush that gets discovered after the fact. I'm 5% confident in all this.
I think you pretty much got it. I read the verses <br /> <br /> "we found the dead fox, and a dozen matchbox cars, when we cut back the hedges on cortelyou place,<br /> how many got lost left so long they grew moss 'cause they recoiled into the shadows of my embrace?"<br /> <br /> a bit more literally. Given the earlier parts of the song, where he talks about his promiscuity so explicitly, I read "how many got lost" as referring to women he bonded with emotionally and actually slept with (as opposed to what your reading seems to be: people of both sexes who he bonded with emotionally) and then left behind. <br /> <br /> Either way, he's concerned that he's been too reckless with his affection, that he'd unintentionally led people to believe that they could have a deeper and more lasting relationship with him.