So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
Broken broken broken heart
When will you just go away
You just hurt hurt hurt inside of me
Every minute of the nite and day
And all I do is try try not to think
Not to think of anything at all
If I can keep myself from thinking for the rest of my life
Maybe I'll survive this fall
Oh this fall fall fall
See how low I fell
From where I was when I had you
Now I'm falling in a hole and it's dark and cold
And the only thing that I can do
Is try try try try not to think
Not think of anything all nite and day
Broken broken broken heart
When will you just go away
But it breaks breaks breaks and it never stops
Though I know that somehow it has to
And every time I feel that I just can't feel worse
I find out that it isn't true
Broken broken broken glass
Rattling inside my chest
What am I to do with every empty day?
I can't eat and I can't rest
And why why why does yr phone keep ringing?
And how how how does this hurt keep coming?
Every nite and every day
Oh, I was so careless
Oh, I was so stupid
To think I'd never feel this way
This way
But now all that I can say is
Broken broken broken heart
When will you just be gone?
You just hurt hurt hurt inside of me
And everything just feels so wrong
But thank you, thank you, thank you pain
For teaching me
Thanks but it's been more than enough
You can stop now pain
I'll never throw away
That project that two people built called love
Because we built it and we built it but I was so cruel
I wanted to know how it ran
I kicked it just to see what it would do
I was such an awful man
I wondered what would happen if I tested it
Then what if I tested again
How strong is it really?
Can I step on it?
Can I leave it standing in the rain?
Can I tell it that I don't care if it lives or dies?
Can I hate it and just wait and see?
Can I send it to the arms of another man less cruel and curious than me?
Well, just as you're thinking I tried and tried
To make it go away and break the chain
I said I'd trade it for freedom
I'd trade it for adventure
But the only thing I got was pain
Broken broken broken heart
When will you just go away
You just hurt hurt hurt inside of me
Every minute of the nite and day
And all I do is try try not to think
Not to think of anything at all
If I can keep myself from thinking for the rest of my life
Maybe I'll survive this fall
When will you just go away
You just hurt hurt hurt inside of me
Every minute of the nite and day
And all I do is try try not to think
Not to think of anything at all
If I can keep myself from thinking for the rest of my life
Maybe I'll survive this fall
Oh this fall fall fall
See how low I fell
From where I was when I had you
Now I'm falling in a hole and it's dark and cold
And the only thing that I can do
Is try try try try not to think
Not think of anything all nite and day
Broken broken broken heart
When will you just go away
But it breaks breaks breaks and it never stops
Though I know that somehow it has to
And every time I feel that I just can't feel worse
I find out that it isn't true
Broken broken broken glass
Rattling inside my chest
What am I to do with every empty day?
I can't eat and I can't rest
And why why why does yr phone keep ringing?
And how how how does this hurt keep coming?
Every nite and every day
Oh, I was so careless
Oh, I was so stupid
To think I'd never feel this way
This way
But now all that I can say is
Broken broken broken heart
When will you just be gone?
You just hurt hurt hurt inside of me
And everything just feels so wrong
But thank you, thank you, thank you pain
For teaching me
Thanks but it's been more than enough
You can stop now pain
I'll never throw away
That project that two people built called love
Because we built it and we built it but I was so cruel
I wanted to know how it ran
I kicked it just to see what it would do
I was such an awful man
I wondered what would happen if I tested it
Then what if I tested again
How strong is it really?
Can I step on it?
Can I leave it standing in the rain?
Can I tell it that I don't care if it lives or dies?
Can I hate it and just wait and see?
Can I send it to the arms of another man less cruel and curious than me?
Well, just as you're thinking I tried and tried
To make it go away and break the chain
I said I'd trade it for freedom
I'd trade it for adventure
But the only thing I got was pain
Broken broken broken heart
When will you just go away
You just hurt hurt hurt inside of me
Every minute of the nite and day
And all I do is try try not to think
Not to think of anything at all
If I can keep myself from thinking for the rest of my life
Maybe I'll survive this fall
Lyrics submitted by rayn147
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The anthem for those of us who push our partners to their limits and then are shocked and sad when they leave. Amen!