In a nightmare, I am falling from the ceiling into bed beside you
You're asleep, I'm screaming, shoving you to try to wake you up
And like before, you've got no interest in the life you live when you're awake
Your dreams still follow storylines, like fictions you would make

So I lie down against your back, until we're both back in the hospital
But now it's not a cancer ward, we're sleeping in the morgue
Men and women in blue and white, they are singing all around you
With heavy shovels holding earth, you're being buried to you neck
In that hospital bed, being buried quite alive now
I'm trying to dig you out but all you want is to be buried there together

You're screaming
And cursing
And angry
And hurting me
And then smiling
And crying
Apologizing

I've woken up, I'm in our bed, but there's no breathing body there beside me
Someone must have taken you while I was stuck asleep
But I know better as my eyes adjust
You've been gone for quite a while now, and I don't work there in the hospital
(They had to let me go)

When I try to move my arms sometimes, they weigh too much to lift
I think you buried me awake (my one and only parting gift)
But you return to me at night just when I think I may have fallen asleep
Your face is up against mine, and I'm too terrified to speak

You're screaming
And cursing
And angry
And hurting me
And then smiling
And crying
Apologizing



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Track duration: 05:29

"Epilogue" as written by Peter Sullivan

Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group

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    General Comment:Lyrics for the album, although intended to be metaphorical, rather than literal, still beautifully describe the relationship of a caregiver and patient, their mental condition and actions. I worked in the hospital for 5 years, so I'm a little bit familiar with all this. Epilogue is the best song from the album in my opinion. I was never driven to tears by a song before. Thank you, Peter Silberman.
    Flag ShanghaiWaon January 17, 2013   Link
  • +2
    Lyric Correction:This song was written by Peter Silberman not Peter Sullivan
    Flag marynotmariaon September 23, 2011   Link
  • +1
    General Comment:You guys realise that the album isn't literally about a bone cancer patient and a careworker who fall in love, right? The entire thing is a big, well-executed, emotional metaphor about the cancerous relationship between an emotionally unstable woman, perhaps a Borderline Personality Disorder (the cancer patient), and the man who tries to love her unconditionally and look after her. In many of the songs on the album he talks about how she grows abusive to him as her sickness worsens. The cancer is metaphorical for her emotional problems, whatever they may be. As she grows more paranoid, crazy and emotional, she turns on him.

    That's why, in this song, he talks of them being "buried alive together" and "sleeping in the morgue". He talks about how "You've been gone for quite a while now" because their relationship has finished, this is the epilogue to it, but says that "my arms sometimes, they weight too much to lift" and "I think you buried me awake". he's saying that, when their relationship died, it took so much life out of him trying to look after her that a little piece of him died too.

    It's a beautiful album that hasn't yet got the plaudits it deserves, but in the future I have a feeling more and more will discover it until it becomes a classic.
    Flag poshboyon September 11, 2011   Link
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    General Comment:if anyone's lived with an emotionally unstable person, or have been that person themselves, they'll understand this. this made me cry so hard
    Flag Aquarius121on June 14, 2011   Link
  • +1
    General Comment:I've never listened to an album that I can barely relate to and yet feel so emotionally attached to it. What the fuck is this. I almost wish I never listened to this album at all, I'm just not ready.
    Flag JustThinkOfUson January 07, 2011   Link
  • 0
    General Comment:This album, and this song in particular, is so hauntingly beautiful. Listening through the the whole album really puts you in a weird place, for better or worse. Also, it's interesting to note that this was the first song he wrote for the album.
    Flag pbd1331on December 03, 2010   Link
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    General Comment:the imagery conjured up by these lyrics is outstanding. I can really see the entire scene unfolding...really I can see it throughout all the album, but it's especially strong here.
    Flag drkpssngr11on June 03, 2010   Link
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    My Interpretation:i think everyone has the song meaning right but they failed to notice the ending lyrics or at least take them into consideration or my idea of what i think it means. so the last part witch is:
    You're screaming
    And cursing
    And angry
    And hurting me
    i think is saying that she hurting him and mad at him like she always is in the whole album but the last coupple of lines:
    And then smiling
    And crying
    Apologizing
    is saying that she is still happy to see him and sorry for all she has done to him and she feels bad and hopes he can forgive her (even though its all a dream) but idk those are just my thoughts
    Flag wonka1323on April 15, 2010   Link
  • +2
    General Comment:Just listened to the album from beginning to end. I feel like I just finished watching a very sad movie.
    Flag warmcerealon March 24, 2010   Link
  • 0
    General Comment:my theory here: silenskit.wordpress.com/
    Flag SKsilenskiton March 04, 2010   Link

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