This is one of my favorite songs. https://fnfgo.io
You've been living a while in the front of my skull, making orders
You've been writing me rules, shrinking maps and redrawing borders
I've been repeating your speeches, but the audience just doesn't follow
Because I'm leaving out words, punctuations, and it sounds pretty hollow
I've been living in bed because now you tell me to sleep
I've been hiding my voice and my face and you decide when I eat
In your dreams I'm a criminal, horrible, sleeping around
While you're awake I'm impossible, constantly letting you down
Little porcelain figurines, glass bullets you shoot at the wall
Threats of castration for crimes you imagine when I miss your call
With the bite of the teeth of that ring on my finger, I'm bound to your bedside, your eulogy singer
I'd happily take all those bullets inside you and put them inside of myself
"Someone, oh anyone, tell me how to stop this
She's screaming, expiring, and I'm her only witness
I'm freezing, infected, and rigid in that room inside her
No one's going to come as long as I lay still in bed beside her"
You've been writing me rules, shrinking maps and redrawing borders
I've been repeating your speeches, but the audience just doesn't follow
Because I'm leaving out words, punctuations, and it sounds pretty hollow
I've been living in bed because now you tell me to sleep
I've been hiding my voice and my face and you decide when I eat
In your dreams I'm a criminal, horrible, sleeping around
While you're awake I'm impossible, constantly letting you down
Little porcelain figurines, glass bullets you shoot at the wall
Threats of castration for crimes you imagine when I miss your call
With the bite of the teeth of that ring on my finger, I'm bound to your bedside, your eulogy singer
I'd happily take all those bullets inside you and put them inside of myself
"Someone, oh anyone, tell me how to stop this
She's screaming, expiring, and I'm her only witness
I'm freezing, infected, and rigid in that room inside her
No one's going to come as long as I lay still in bed beside her"
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his wife, the woman of this song, literally just abuses him over and over again but he stays with her because he's in love with her and he knows that if he leaves her she will be alone because her friends and family don't like her. i think she's been sick her entire life and when he met her he knew immediately she was special so he took care of her, and married her, and knew that no matter how cruel he was "bound to her bedside, her eulogy singer" because of the vowels he made and the "ring on his finger".
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my favorite line is "i'd happily take all of those bullets inside of you and put them inside of myself"
That pretty much sum up how I interpret this album. Damn, this is good music!
stunningly vivid imagery. The relationship between the Narrator and the Patient really takes off with Atrophy, and Silberman describes the scenario impeccably.
What's most interesting to me is the music during the coda. "Someone oh anyone tell me how to stop this," is played to the exact same melody as "Wake". (In the same vein as Bear to Epilogue.)
Personally I would say that
"I've been repeating your speeches, but the audience just doesn't follow Because I'm leaving out words, punctuations, and it sounds pretty hollow"
Is another reference to her control over him. The narrator is telling friends and family the things she says to him to manipulate him, Apologising after an abusive moment for example, he is explaining why he doesn't just leave. Clearly still in love he believes that it is his inability to tell her side of the story than her who is at fault.
This seems to fit with Silberman's own interpretation of the album which is the narrator's escape from an abusive relationship as much as a story of a cancer patient.
This is a particularly powerful song on the album.
The 'atrophy' the title refers to belongs to the narrator; his inability to act for his own well-being due to his overwhelming sense of commitment to the patient. The atrophy of his self-esteem and self-interest.
"I'm freezing, infected, and rigid in that room inside her"
This song goes by so quickly for nearly eight minutes.
So good D:
I think that this the the patient's body singing to the patient himself. It is the body apologizing for letting the Patient down due to atrophy. The patient is a prisoner in his own body.
No, the patient is the wife of the singer. If you listen to the entire album (Hospice) you'll notice the story line. Hence the songs named Prologue and Epilogue.
Strong stuff. I would say the husband (or whoever the singer is) suffers from somekind of ATROPHY.... probably walks with on a wheelchair. He see's his love-one laying in a the hospital bed from a certain height.... "You've been living awhile in the front of my skull". <br /> <br /> Odd couple... lots of suffering!
no yanksfan, you fool. <br /> <br /> The narrator is longing to take away the pain and the sickness of his partner, the patient, and feels helpless. As well as this, she is abusive and irrational ("Threats of castration for crimes you imagine when I miss your call"), but he will stay with her until she goes, even though it's painful and traumatic.
yanksfan, you just blew my mind.<br /> <br /> everyone saying that he is wrong, read the lyrics again.
i'm team yanksfan, that totally adds up.
Uh huh. Well, be team yanksfan if you want, but it doesn't make sense. Despite the storyline leading up to this song (i.e. seen through the eyes of the patient's lover), it would make some sense if the narrator in this is the patient's body. Still, for every bit that makes sense for this being the patient's body, it makes just as much sense for being the patient's lover. Furthermore, there are bits that don't make sense for this being the patient's body, e.g. "I'd happily take all those bullets inside you and put them inside of myself." Now, why would the patient's body gladly take the sickness from the patient... to put it back in the patient? Hmm...
I love the back and forth of the dialogue from what I assume are the patient and doctor/nurse. The part that interests me the most is
"With the bite of the teeth of that ring on my finger, I'm bound to your bedside, your eulogy singer. I'd happily take all those bullets inside you and put them inside of myself."
It seems like this is from the perspective of a loved one of the patient who may in fact be their care-taker in the hospital as well. Foreshadowing not only the fact that that they will be there by their side in the hospital as long as it takes for them to pass on, but also that they will be the one to recount the life of the soon-to-be-deceased is quite a disturbing thought. You can really envision their thought process and the site of this inner-dialogue.
This is pretty spot on I think. The "ring" is literal, the narrator and the patient are married, hence he feels it is not only his role to take on her pain, but also that it will be up to him to carry on her memory. He's bound to her. <br /> And he met her in the hospital, where he was her caretaker (not sure if it was as an orderly, a nurse or even a doctor.)
I think this is just off the mark. The whole album has to be taken as one whole story, and at this point in the narrative they are just starting their relationship. They do not get married until "Two," as a desperate act before she dies ("two silver rings on our fingers in a hurry"). This song shows their destructive abandon in their relationship, and this line illustrates that he in fact was married when they met and left his wife to care for her. She takes off his wedding ring with her teeth when he climbs into bed with her .<br /> <br /> He is a caretaker in a Hospice, she is a bipolar late stage bone cancer patient with little hope for survival who can not get a bone marrow transplant due to past suicide attempts. It is really all there, fantastic in its subtlety. This song is just a part of it.
This entire album has me tranced, its beauty is so capturing, but at the same time it is unbearable to listen to only because of its depressing lyrics. I just wonder what inspired the Antlers to base an entire album on the hospice and the dying cancer patient, what was their muse? If they were going for impact... it made a tremendous one.
I think this song has to do with the atrophy of marriage. A controlling, paranoid wife or significant other.
"You've been writing me rules, shrinking maps and redrawing borders."
"I've been hiding my voice and my face and you decide when I eat."
"Threats of castration for crimes you imagine when I miss your call."
This sounds like a disastrous relationship, one I feel like I was in before. I don't think this has anything to do with any kind of doctor/patient relationship, it seems many people look way too much into the lyrics on songmeanings.net. I think it's clearly about a relationship.
"In your dreams I'm a criminal, horrible, sleeping around. When you're awake I'm impossible constantly letting you down."
I felt those exact words in my last relationship.
This song is definitely about a patient doctor relationship. That's the theme of the whole album.
From what I got out of it The caretaker that is in love with the dying is showing his depression:
Because I'm leaving out words, punctuations, and it sounds pretty hollow- Feels helpless
I've been living in bed because now you tell me to sleep - Sleeping to much b/c of the depression I've been hiding my voice and my face and you decide when I eat - Keeping himself consolidated from everyone else, his eating habits are destroyed.
In your dreams I'm a criminal, horrible, sleeping around. When you're awake I'm impossible constantly letting you down- Feelings of helplessness
I'd happily take all those bullets inside you and put them inside of myself- Wishes the roles were reversed, wishes he was dead.
Someone, oh anyone, tell me how to stop this She's screaming, expiring, and I'm her only witness I'm freezing, infected, and rigid in that room inside her - Is helpless
The song is about the depression stage of the hospice caretaker(helplessness, sleep disorder, eating disorder, suicidal thoughts-would feel better if he was dead)