This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Since March of last year, everytime I go to sleep,
You're always right here next to me
Whether I stay up late or I go to bed early,
you're in my life until I wake up in the morning.
And I don't know if I love it or I hate it,
but it's more painful than I'd ever like to admit.
It's masochistic but it's almost really worth it
to be able to be with you for even one more moment.
And everytime I have to wake,
I come to terms with my actual fate
That the only thing lying next to me is
a couple books and a pile of CD's.
I open my eyes and begin to return from
either the past or a future that could have been.
Even though it's been almost a year now,
It's like you've left me all over again.
And just last week, and also last September,
We were sitting in a crowded vintage theatre.
I can't remember what was up on the screen when
You moved your body in closer to me, and said,
"I think it's time that we stopped pretending
that you weren't born to be sitting here next to me,
that we're not in love with each other.
I think it's time that we got back together."
And everytime I have to wake,
I come to terms with my actual fate
That the only thing lying next to me is
a couple books and a pile of CD's.
I open my eyes and begin to return from
either the past or a future that might have been.
And even though it's been almost a year now,
It's like you've left me all over again.
It's like you've left me all over again.
La, la, la, la, la, la, la.
La, la, la, la, la, la, la.
La, la, la, la, la, la, la.
You're always right here next to me
Whether I stay up late or I go to bed early,
you're in my life until I wake up in the morning.
And I don't know if I love it or I hate it,
but it's more painful than I'd ever like to admit.
It's masochistic but it's almost really worth it
to be able to be with you for even one more moment.
And everytime I have to wake,
I come to terms with my actual fate
That the only thing lying next to me is
a couple books and a pile of CD's.
I open my eyes and begin to return from
either the past or a future that could have been.
Even though it's been almost a year now,
It's like you've left me all over again.
And just last week, and also last September,
We were sitting in a crowded vintage theatre.
I can't remember what was up on the screen when
You moved your body in closer to me, and said,
"I think it's time that we stopped pretending
that you weren't born to be sitting here next to me,
that we're not in love with each other.
I think it's time that we got back together."
And everytime I have to wake,
I come to terms with my actual fate
That the only thing lying next to me is
a couple books and a pile of CD's.
I open my eyes and begin to return from
either the past or a future that might have been.
And even though it's been almost a year now,
It's like you've left me all over again.
It's like you've left me all over again.
La, la, la, la, la, la, la.
La, la, la, la, la, la, la.
La, la, la, la, la, la, la.
Lyrics submitted by cheesycheese01, edited by Simdustries
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The lyrics are a bit off on this song, it should be:
"It's more painful than I'd ever like to admit. It's masochistic but it's almost really worth it..."
I can't figure out what this song is about, however. What are some other people's ideas?
GOD, I love this song so much. Adam Dubberly is a beast.
First off, "bad to kiss you" is actually "masochistic," which means "A willingness or tendency to subject oneself to unpleasant or trying experiences." Also, "but it's more painful than I'd ever like to have it" is "but it's more painful than I'd like to admit."
Let's take it verse by verse...(some of these are going to sound obvious, sorry)
"Since March of last year, everytime I go to sleep, You're always right here next to me, Whether I stay up late or I go to bed early, you're in my life until I wake up in the morning."
"And I don't know if I love it or I hate it, It's more painful than I'd ever like to have it. It's -masochistic- but it's almost really worth it to be able to be with you for even one more moment. "
He's in love with this girl to the point of imagining her next to him while he sleeps. She's left him, and it hurts him so much that even the things he does to console himself (the imagining) aren't all that consoling (almost really worth it). He doesn't know how to feel about what he's doing to himself.
"And everytime I have to wake, I come to terms with my actual fate. That the only thing lying next to me is a couple books and a pile of cd's. I open my eyes and begin to return from either the past or a future that could have been. Even though it's been almost a year now, It's like you've left me all over again."
The fact that he had her (and/or COULD have had her in the future if things had gone differently) haunts him. He's alone (books and CD's next to him instead of a different girl). It's been "almost a year" but the wounds are still fresh.
"And just last week, and also last September, We were sitting in a crowded vintage theatre. I can't remember what was up on the screen, when You moved your body in closer to me, and said, 'I think it's time that we stopped pretending that you were born to be sitting here next to me, that we're not in love with each other.' I think it's time that we got back together."
It sounds like they were married, and she divorced him. She flat out tells him that she doesn't love him, that they aren't meant to be, and they should stop acting as if they are. That last line, however, him saying that he thinks they should get back together - he isn't over her. "Just last week and also last September, could either mean that they broke up and then got back together OR reiterate the fact that it's still incredibly fresh on his mind.
And then the chorus, and the la la la's.
And...that's my lengthy interpretation of an AMAZING Adam Dubberly song. :)
Thanks for the corrections. I adore this song. There's so much emotion in the lyrics, and in his voice. I just wish I could find the chords so I could attempt to make a cover a quarter as good as the original.
I completely know what you mean. I bow down to Adam's musical glory. Someone should definitely put some of the lyrics for some of his Muggle songs up here, because they're excellent too. Me, maybe? I don't know.
Hey. This is a late-ass comment but the chords are pretty easy: <br /> <br /> Verse: <br /> <br /> (Em) Since March of last year, every (C) time I go to sleep, <br /> (G) You're always right here (D) next to me, whether... <br /> <br /> Chorus: <br /> (C9) And every time I have to wake, I <br /> (G) Come to terms with my actual fate, that <br /> (D) The only thing lying next to me is<br /> (Em) A couple books and a pile of CDs....<br /> <br /> And that's it! Although he likes to keep his pinky finger on G on the high E string basically the whole time, except when he first strikes the D chord.<br /> <br /> :)
Also it occurs to me that what I'm calling a C9 chord might not actually be a C9 chord so just ignore that and play this: <br /> <br /> __3__<br /> __3__<br /> __0__<br /> __2__<br /> __3_<br /> __x_
This song is absolutely so beautiful.
As far as what the song is about... I'm not 100% sure, but to me, it's about his decision to stop writing Wizard Rock.
I could be way off base, maybe it's meant to be taken at face-value, but that's what I get from the lyrics when I hear them.
Either way, it's a beautiful song.
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