Snuff

it reminds me of my ex boyfriend who was a control freak and a bully, and of how i felt when we first broke up. for ages i felt like i couldnt be myself or do what i wanted cuz i still felt controlled somehow. and for ages he kept begging me to take him back and i really did feel like if he really loved me he had to go away for my sake, not that i cared at the time cuz id got to such a dark place with regards to our relationship, and i did feel like there was nothing left to tear apart when i left him and i felt like at least without him i wouldnt hate him anymore. but then there was that small part of me that still loved him and held on to his love letters and felt like he deserved better than me, like it was my fault. and his way of "refusing to fight" was he wouldnt change for me, get less controlling. and i stayed wityh him for so long, my hope for our relationship did literally die before i let him go. i felt like he sold me out cuz he wouldnt take responsibility for his actions and in order to protect himself and i felt betrayed. and the ironic thing was he was meant to be like my angel at the time, he rescued me from a really dark time in my life, but he was controlling. and for a long time after we split, i knew he still cared, but i didnt want to know

it all sounds very corny but true. i feel every single word of this song in my heart and with every bone in my body. i love it.