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Hey, hey, hey. (x3)
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.
I've been sitting in the suicide lane on Highway 99,
looking for a sign in the headlights.
Well, I've been to war with my mind,
but things will be different this time.
I won't be putting up a fight.
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.
Give me your poison pills
'cause I'm
digging my star-crossed grave tonight.
No longer living a lie,
No longer living,
No longer living a lie,
No longer living. (x2)
Hey, hey, hey.
I've been sitting by the train tracks near the backdoor of my mind (of my mind),
waiting for the planets to align.
Well, I've got a pretty good reason
to make this open season.
Hang my head above the mantle piece tonight.
Hey hey, hey hey hey.
Give me your poison pills
'cause I'm
digging my star-crossed grave tonight.
No longer living a lie,
No longer living,
No longer living a lie,
No longer living.
Give me your poison pills
'cause I'm
digging my star-crossed grave tonight.
No longer living a lie,
No longer living,
No longer living a lie.
Hey, hey hey.
Gravedigging! (x3)
We're digging our own graves!
Give me your poison pills
'cause I'm
digging my star-crossed grave tonight.
No longer living a lie,
No longer living,
No longer living a lie,
No longer living.
Give me your poison pills
'cause I'm
digging my star-crossed grave tonight.
No longer living a lie,
No longer living,
No longer living a lie.
Hey, hey hey. (x2)
Gravedigging! (x3)
We're digging our own grave!
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.
I've been sitting in the suicide lane on Highway 99,
looking for a sign in the headlights.
Well, I've been to war with my mind,
but things will be different this time.
I won't be putting up a fight.
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.
Give me your poison pills
'cause I'm
digging my star-crossed grave tonight.
No longer living a lie,
No longer living,
No longer living a lie,
No longer living. (x2)
Hey, hey, hey.
I've been sitting by the train tracks near the backdoor of my mind (of my mind),
waiting for the planets to align.
Well, I've got a pretty good reason
to make this open season.
Hang my head above the mantle piece tonight.
Hey hey, hey hey hey.
Give me your poison pills
'cause I'm
digging my star-crossed grave tonight.
No longer living a lie,
No longer living,
No longer living a lie,
No longer living.
Give me your poison pills
'cause I'm
digging my star-crossed grave tonight.
No longer living a lie,
No longer living,
No longer living a lie.
Hey, hey hey.
Gravedigging! (x3)
We're digging our own graves!
Give me your poison pills
'cause I'm
digging my star-crossed grave tonight.
No longer living a lie,
No longer living,
No longer living a lie,
No longer living.
Give me your poison pills
'cause I'm
digging my star-crossed grave tonight.
No longer living a lie,
No longer living,
No longer living a lie.
Hey, hey hey. (x2)
Gravedigging! (x3)
We're digging our own grave!
Lyrics submitted by hockey2skate
Track duration: 03:45
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"I've been sitting...headlights": A suicide lane is a lane inbetween two other lanes that allows vehicles in those two outside lanes to turn left without blocking traffic. You're not supposed to drive in them for any length of time, as they are just for turning left. So, it sounds like he wants to turn away from something. He is waiting for someone to give him a signal that he can (or should?) turn (when a car flashes its lights, the person is saying you can go).
In the next stanza, it sounds like he has been struggling with whether or not to turn and make that change in his life. He has finally reached the moment where he is ready to do it though.
In the third stanza, he is saying that he is ready to lay to rest his old ways. Star-crossed is indeed from Shakespeare's "Romeo and Juliet", and means that something was destined to happen. So I think the speaker is saying that turning from his old ways was meant to be.
So overall, I think the song is about making the decision to change one's life in some way.
I know a man, he once was
a friend, and he would feel
the exact same way you do.
I think he is trying to "kill"
all that is sick, twisted and
wrong about himself and he
wants to start over.
It's not about physical suicide, though, because needless to say, Matt MacDonald is still alive and this song is full of a passion that is not by any means staged. This song is a continuation of the first two Silver Cord songs, "The End" and "Just a Man" in which he talks about having lived a lie as a religious icon. But now he's ready to let that icon die, to start a new life. Such a process is painful and dark, like real suicide, but it is infinitely more worthwhile. Those who commit physical suicide are really looking for this spiritual form of suicide, although they may not know it.
TCC is not a Christian band, but Matt is a Christian and he sings and writes all the songs, and it shows. So I don't hink I'm out of line by saying that we can compare this to the idea of baptism. That is, dying with Christ and putting our old selves behind, then being raised from the water in order to live a new life for God. As Christians we make it a kind of a trivial ceremony, but Matt puts forth the real spirit of what I think it is intended to be. It's a kind of dark reality to have died to yourself and determined to start over.
I took
"I've been sitting by the train tracks near the backdoor of my mind (of my mind),
waiting for the planets to align."
to mean that he's sick of the way his mind works, and wants his old way of doing things to just die....
"Well, I've been to war with my mind,
but things will be different this time.
I won't be putting up a fight."
and that this time around he isn't going to fight back against a change.
just my thoughts :)
But Matt has already said what the lyrics are about. and they have nothin to do with God or Satanic stuff.
But yeah, any time I hear "star-crossed" I immediately think "Romeo and Juliet", and since it's probably the most popular play in the English language, they may have expected people to pick up on the reference. Just a thought.
(As a side note, there is actually a LOT of religious imagery used in the balcony scene of Romeo and Juliet "new baptized", etc. If you read the scene with the idea of Juliet as the Christ figure It's really amazing. I don't even really like the play--I had to read it for school--but after reading that scene in this way, it made me appreciate it a bit more.)
Personally, I think this song is about letting himself and his way of thinking die...
"no longer living a lie"
I don't think that's saying that he wants to physically die, but that he wants his lifestyle, and his way of living to die... letting die the part of him that is a lie, so that a true, meaningful life can be born.