I wake up in a room and realize I'm insane again
This is the fifth time straight in a year I've ended up in here
Eating p.b.j's and watching the church channel nightly
I didn't mind what I did
I fell behind on my nightly four-course meal of rainbow pills
And now I'm wondering what is fake and what is real

But who's that ghost who keeps walking by my door
I've never seen a girl look so good in thick-rimmed glasses before
And I feel her gaze on me during sleeping hours and when I shower

They let us play with markers but I keep trying to draw infinity
And I read the bible to pass the time
But one day out of nowhere, she sits down and looks over my shoulder
I'm shaking harder then I've ever shook before

She sings
"Oh, do you remember me? is your mind that worn?
We both were born to be one with that which the public scorned
Though you were forlorn in despair
With your drugs and your hardcore porn
Trust me, those days won't be mourned"
So lay your head on me
So lay your head onto me


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The Church Channel Lyrics as written by Max Bemis

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    I don't think this is to be taken on a literal level. I think it's a metaphor for when he was in the hospital (his breakdowns and such) that he lost his music and when he found it (or it found him) it was what saved him. Check it:

    “oh, don’t you remember me? is your mind that worn? (Right there, if this were a girl why would she ask Max if he remembers her? He says earlier he doesn't know the 'girl')

    we both were born to be one with that which the public scorned (Emo, hence the 'genre', is looked down upon by the general public)

    though you were forlorn in despair with your drugs and your hardcore porn (He was so into drugs and jacking it he lost his artistic drive)

    trust me, those days won’t be mourned. so lay your head on me.” (Those days are behind us, don't worry, put your faith in me.)

    I also have a different interpretation for the last line, that he could use his past experiences for songs, see the "won't be mourned". They won't be, because Max used them for inspiration.

    Jules9on January 14, 2009   Link
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    hayley's voice just fits so nicely into this.

    kissedonfilmon October 18, 2007   Link
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    I am nearly positive that the woman he is singing about is a nurse... Considering the lines about her watching him sleep and shower. I also feel as though "never seen a girl look so good in thick rimmed glasses before" is a significant line, because I know that the attire of all employees and patients within mental institutions are monitered for safety reasons. That's all I have to say about this, incredible song though

    miserl0uon March 04, 2010   Link
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    This is a wonderful song and I relate to it. P.B.J's and PBS nightly. Oh, what a memory. You're the best Max.

    JadeAxelon May 26, 2015   Link
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    Darn, beat me to posting these! How did you get them? Has anyone heard these songs?

    stallionduckon October 14, 2007   Link
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    Hayley Williams is in this song.

    kookycookieon October 15, 2007   Link
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    gah i wanna hear this song so bad it's only on absolutepunk.com but it won't let me listen to it for some reason so i'm still waiting..... probably for october 23rd when the cd comes out. anyway, i'm sure it's a really good song. hayley is amazing: “oh, don’t you remember me? is your mind that worn? we both were born to be one with that which the public scorned though you were forlorn in despair with your drugs and your hardcore porn trust me, those days won’t be mourned. so lay your head on me.”

    thrwmyhrtawy.on October 15, 2007   Link
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    KAY. I HEARD IT hahaha and i have the mp3. so whoever wants itttt can IM me on aim.

    thrwmyhrtawy.on October 15, 2007   Link
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    and i feel her watching me during sleeping hours

    i'm not sure about that line...

    thrwmyhrtawy.on October 16, 2007   Link
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    i freaking love this song. it's so wonderful, the lyrics are amazing and hayley does great too. the new album is epic.

    kaityangston October 18, 2007   Link

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