The Little Things Give You Away

I know this song is most likely about Katrina. But for me it has a very different and personal meaning. I am an only child. Or so I thought, until I became pregnant myself. My mother was trying to explain to me I had "options." I told her I knew I just couldn't live with myself if I had an abortion. She told me it wasn't that bad. I asked how does she know? She looked at me and I instantly knew the answer. Come to find out when I was only a few years old, as my parents were splitting up my mom slept with someone else and became pregnant. I can't explain how much it hurts to know after all these years of feeling alone in this fucked up family, I wasn't an only child, I am a big sister. Even though I was robbed the chance to meet them here on earth I know I will one day. I did not make the same choice as my mother. My son is seven years old now. I remember the first time I heard this song I immediately felt connected to it. Let me elaborate a little.

"Water gray, through the windows of the stairs, Chilling me, like an ocean everywhere, Don't want to reach for me do you? I mean nothing to you. The little things give you away."

To me it speaks of the womb. In won't get graphic, but if you know the different ways abortions are performed you may see what I mean. The lines "Don't won't to reach for me, do you? I mean nothing to you. The little things give you away." especially are fitting.

"All you've ever wanted, Was someone to truly love come to you. And six feet underwater I do."

My mom did what she did because she was more worried about how she would look, having another baby by a different man out of wedlock. All she wants is someone to truly look up to her. And six feet under her lost child forever will.

"Hope decays, generations disappear, Washes away, as a nation simply stares. Don't want to reach for me do you? I mean nothing to you. The little things give you away."

This verse really hits me hard. "Hope decays, generations disappear." Because I often wonder what life would be like if she had not made that choice. Would I be an Aunt? A sister in law? How many lives really are lost by taking that one?

The next line "Washed away as nation simply stares.Don't want to reach for me do you? I mean nothing to you. The little things give you away" Speaks of how millions and millions of children are killed by abortion each year in this country, while the rest of the nation does nothing. 26 children were killed in a Kindergarten class and are whole country mourned, but millions are killed by abortion and there is silence.

And mostly the title of the song sums it all up. The LITTLE things give you away.

I know this is not what the song was wrote about. But this is what it means to me.