A good impression
Of myself
Not much to conceal
I'm saying nothing
But I'm saying
Nothing with feel

I simply am not here
No way, I
Shut up, be happy
Stop whining please

Because of who we are
We react in mock surprise
The curse of "there must be more"
So don't breathe here
Don't leave your bags

I simply am not here
No way, I
Shut up, be happy
Stop whining please

The dust in my soul
Makes me feel the weight in my legs
My head in the clouds
And I'm zoning out

I'm watching TV
But I find it hard to stay conscious
I'm totally bored
But I can't switch off

Only apathy from the pills in me
It's all in me, all in you
Electricity from the pills in me
It's all in me, all in you
Only MTV, cod philosophy

We're lost in the mall
Shuffling through the stores like zombies
What is the point?
What can money buy?

My hand's on a gun
And I find the range, God, tempts me
What did you say?
Think I'm passing out

Only apathy from the pills in me
It's all in me, all in you
Electricity from the pills in me
It's all in me, all in you
Only MTV, cod philosophy

Only apathy from the pills in me
It's all in me, all in you
Electricity from the pills in me
It's all in me, all in you
Only MTV, cod philosophy

Water so warm that day (water so warm that day)
I counted out the waves (I counted out the waves)
As they broke into surf (as they broke into surf)
I smiled into the sun

The water so warm that day
I was counting out the waves
And I followed their short life
As they broke on the shoreline
I could see you
But I couldn't hear you

You were holding your hat in the breeze
Turning away from me
In this moment
You were stolen
And there's black across the sun

Water so warm that day (water so warm that day)
I counted out the waves (I counted out the waves)
As they broke into surf (as they broke into surf)
I smiled into the sun


Lyrics submitted by rocinante79, edited by misteree, Shirudo, Octavarium64, smoledman, CharMarRules, spacedye, cherrytcbp, Ravenh, ElBastard, Xlerb

Anesthetize Lyrics as written by Steven John Wilson

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  • +10
    General Comment

    Hello everyone! First off I'd like to point out that the PT section of songmeanings has one of the best groups of submitters and commenters and I am thankful to read your thoughts and opinions. I've been banging my head against a wall trying to figure out some of the words to this tune. Steven Wilson is doing this trick which I've heard Geddy Lee do a lot...where he'll pronounce words in such a way that they sound like they could be different words! You know what I mean? I love it, its ambiguous, and frustrating!

    So if you hear this differently please share your thoughts!! I can't wait for the album to come out. This song is one of their best.

    rocinante79on April 12, 2007   Link
  • +7
    General Comment

    You have the correct lyrics with the CD. Also, as always, the correct lyrics are on Porcupine Tree's Website. I wonder how you can discuss about the correct lyrics with all this possibilities. Definitely the best song of the new album, maybe the best song they ever wrote, too. As you may know the whole CD is a concept album about a kid/teenager who's unable to deal with the modern world. Starting with a description of the life, ending with suicide (or with love, though I think this is just an interpretation from some optimists, if you read the whole text of "Sleep Together"). Anyway, to say something about this song: In the first part the teenager describes the senselessness of his existence. In the chorus he first starts to fall into a depression with realising he is actually more a ghost than a human. Not really living in this world, just existing. Without any sense, without attention from anyone. But just as he starts with this thoughts, he stops himself by saying "Shut up, be happy, stop whining please.". He tries not to let this thoughts getting the upper hand. In part two we have a description of the life you have when you successfully stopped this thoughts. An empty, boring life as a consumer. With nothing you can really look forward to, your mind is switched off. I guess I don't have to explain that any longer. Part three...what a beautiful song... First it's just a picture he describes. How he looks to the sea and the waves. In combination with the music I guess he is there to have a distance from reality. To have some space to dream a bit. You can compare this short way of the waves with his own life as well, maybe this is why he is smiling into the sun. A little way to the shoreline and everything is over. No sign of pain. While he's doing this he sees his (first) love. He is just watching her and notices that she doesn't share this feeling with him as she is turning away from him. That's why "There's black across the sun".

    I hope it's understandable. The more I want to say, the more I notice the problems I have to express what I want to say in english...

    XCrusherXon April 18, 2007   Link
  • +4
    General Comment

    Hmm. I agree with Suspense for parts one and two.

    For part three, though?

    I believe the third part is actually set at a point before the depression kicked in - I believe it takes place before part one. If you look at the tense throughout the first two parts, it's all present tense - "I'm saying nothing", "We're lost in the mall", etc... In the third part, however, it's all past tense. The mood seems dreamy, slightly reminiscent, and the multiple voices seems to add to this. It seems like the narrator is trying to remember something: "The water so warm that day."

    Perhaps part three is actually about what caused the narrator's depression. My personal take on this part is that the person 'holding their hat' is someone the narrator loved and lost. The inclusion of the word 'stolen' indicates that the woman was suddenly taken away from the narrator. This could mean she left for someone else, but personally I believe it means she died at some point, hence the inclusion of black in the final line, as this colour is normally used to represent death and mourning. The line "there's black across the sun" could also indicate that the woman leaving or dying was what set on the narrator's depression, which lead to the events in parts one and two.

    There's my two cents.

    wilemion May 09, 2010   Link
  • +2
    General Comment

    I went to repurchase NIN's "The Fragile" and I was wearing A Tool T shirt at the time. That is when the guy behind the counter suggested I may like this album. I had never even heard of them so FOBP was my first taste of PT, and this is high quality music for sure. I'm even more amazed at their discography. Another 90s band survived! Does anyone know where I can get there other albums? I live in Sydney.

    -ReNeGaDe-NiNjA-on November 21, 2007   Link
  • +2
    General Comment

    One more thing

    i realized that the end of this song bears a strong resemblance to these Pink Floyd lyrics. "There Is No Pain, You Are Receeding. Distant Ship's Smoke on the Horizon. You Are Only Coming through in Waves. Your Lips Move but I Can't Hear What You're Sayin'."

    dhgrossman92on November 30, 2009   Link
  • +2
    General Comment

    I have to agree with you wilemi on the part that this is a memory due to the fact that Wilson states "that day."

    But, I see that the lyrics in the 3rd part of the song (along with the music) are meant to convey a sense of distance and loss...maybe due to the last time the protagonist saw someone significant (a lover or a parent, etc.). Also to note, the song never specifies a gender for the main character or the hatted person. I feel like this was done on purpose (also in 1st person) so that we would insert our own life into the plot line. Thus, it is Wilson's interpretation of growing up in the 21st century.

    I always took "There's black across the sun" to mean a black silhouette surrounded by sunlight. Something similar to this: worldofstock.com/slides/PRE5651.jpg

    Also, the term "black" could be equated to as something bad, a scar in the main character's life.

    So, all in all, I feel like it is a memory of the protagonist being depressed on the shore line. He see's someone significant in his life who is either talking at him or to someone else...but the sounds of the waves keep him from hearing this person. The person then turns and leaves.

    Since it is a memory, the protagonist equates this moment as an example of the distance he feels between him and humanity...that all he hears is "the waves" and crap from those around him and that he feels no real connection with anyone. Everyone just seems distant and unrecognizable. So, it just furthers his depression.

    USCMMon September 15, 2010   Link
  • +1
    General Comment

    Wow. I love the line "So don't breathe here..." Haunting. Moving. In my opinion, the best song on the album. One of their best songs since the Delerium years.

    Shine On

    Unsoundon June 14, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General Comment

    This is a really epic song. Not many songs can last 17 minutes and keep interest through out. Impressive.

    Lateral.Uson June 26, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General Comment

    An amasing song, Ive heared many people comment that it was too long... YOU SUCK The song is amasing, its 3 different parts of the same story seamlessly joined in beautiful harmony Kudos to PT for this achievement, great song

    Blernon November 04, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General Comment

    For anyone who didn't know, I'm pretty sure Fear of a Blank Planet was based on the novel Lunar Park by Bret Easton Ellis, which I'm currently reading. And I noticed that the first line of the book is "You do an awfully good impression of yourself." And the first line of this song is "A good impression of myself."

    I know in the book the first line is meant as an insult based on a Hallowe'en costume, but I'm not sure what it means in this song.

    If I find more similarities I will post them.

    Outrageously good song, by the way.

    Tarquin77on May 09, 2008   Link

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