Steven, I love you, I can't grow past you,
I'm, homesick in spite of the place
that I fostered and styled to raise this child
who keeps me in pitch and in pace

But I miss reaching for the lasers,
the sound of the beat as it clicks away,
classes, school behavior.
sweating the night out of the sky,
learning to laugh and not ask why.

Steven, I missed you,
the whole world kissed you.
You shot up in bloom like a fern
that was spotted and black,
with the leaves swirled backwards,
as same trick too easy to turn.

Should I change my name and move to the country?
A life full of children and animals,
white fences, landed gentry.
Maybe I want to be myself,
but I am somebody else.

Nine months later, I'm the lonely one,
with all the fruit of labor and half of the fun.
(just like) crisp and cozy in the rising sun,
we've got a heart of gold, man, it beats like a drum.

It shakes, the pebbles are cracking and break,
(the kid logic) dissolves and it all starts to give away,
then nothing is ever the same,
I can't stand it.
I want to be myself,
but I am somebody else

Steven, I'm watching the world get boring,
there's too much restraint in the mix.
I'd be overly flattered to feel so shattered to,
have something broken and fixed.

But i know the world outside is knocking
the dream, the drive or the pedigree.
The forces interlocking,
well, maybe I want to be myself,
but I am somebody else.

Nine months later, I'm the lonely one,
with all the fruit of labor and half of the fun.
Just like crisp and cozy in the rising sun,
he's got a heart of gold, man, it beats like a drum.

It shakes, the pebbles are cracking and break,
(the kid logic) dissolves and it all starts to give away,
and nothing is ever the same,
I can't stand it.
I want to be myself,
but I am somebody else

And you'll never harbor someone like me,
if you'll never leave then you'll never see.
I swear that I will pull you from the wreckage
of this sunday, monday routine.
I will pull you from the wreckage.
oh, don't you need me on my own.

Cos you and me,
we're two of a kind.
We're two of a kind.

Steven, I love you, I can't grow past you,
I got nothing left to give to you.


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    Steven is the personification of the speaker’s childhood. He has named himself as a child (Steven) and is speaking to his childhood self throughout the song. The speaker has grown up and is unhappy in his adult life. He is homesick for the way he experienced life as a child. He is even has a child of his own now and worries about him growing up and becoming unhappy in life. He sees his child and Steven (himself as a child) as one in the same, being two of a kind. He wants to protect Steven and his child from becoming a boring adult, like he is now. See lyric breakdown below.\n\n“Steven, I love you I can\'t grow passed you,\nI\'m homesick in spite of the place,”\n\nHe’s homesick in spite of living in the same place where he grew up. He’s homesick for his experience living there as a child.\n\n“That I fostered and styled and raised this child, who\nKeeps me in pitch and in pace”\n\nHe’s grown up now and has a kid of his own. \n\n“But I miss reaching for the lasers,\nThe sound of the beat as it clicks away,\nClasses, school behavior,\nSpending the night out of the sky,\nLearning to laugh and not ask why”\n\nBut he misses childhood as these are all descriptions of childhood.\n\n“Steven, I missed you,\nThe whole world kissed you,\nYou shot up in bloom like a fern,\nThat was spotted and black,\nWith the leaves rolled back,\nAs a same trick to easy to turn”\n\nSteven grew up (the speaker grew up) and the world loved him and kissed him goodbye as he matured and became an adult. The fruitful leaves of the fern is a metaphor for Steven. The leaves are dark and withered and are no longer growing bright. This symbolizes he, the speaker’s unhappiness with his life now. This “trick” of growing up quickly cannot be “turned” meaning it cannot be undone. The fern is dying = being unfulfilled as an adult.\n\n“Should I change my name and move to the country,\nA life full of children and animals,\nWhite fences and landed gentry”\n\nHe, as an adult, is thinking about how to change his life now to perhaps more align with who he was or who he thought he would become as an adult.\n\n“Baby, i want to be myself,\nBut i am somebody else”\n\nHe wants to be myself who is Steven, who he was as a child, but now he’s grown up into someone else.\n\n“Nine months later i\'m the lonely one,\nWith all the fruit of labor and half of the fun,”\n\nHe’s has a child and doesn’t can’t experience the fun part of childhood.\n\n“Crisp and cozy in the rising sun,\nHe\'s got a heart of gold,\nAnd it beats like a drum,\nAnd it shakes,\nThe pebbles that crack and then break,\nThe kid logic,\nDissolves and it all starts to give away,\nThat nothing is ever the same”\n\nThis is a description of himself as a child (Steven) becoming an adult. “The kid logic dissolves and starts to fade away”\n\n“I can\'t stand it,\nI want to be myself,\nBut I am somebody else,”\n\nI want to be who I was as Steven, but now I am someone new.\n\n“Steven, I\'m watching the world get boring,\nThere\'s too much restraint in the mix,\nI\'d be overly flattered to feel so shattered,\nTo have something broken and fixed\nBut I know the world outside is knocking,\nThe dream and the drive with the pedigree,”\n\nHe talking to himself as a child and perhaps to his own child, saying that life is getting boring and rigid. He wishes there was something that was actually broken so he could fix it and become happy with his life again, happy as he was when he was Steven (a child). \nBut the world is knocking and he has to grow up to face the changing world around him. He has to become driven with a career and even go to college.\n\n“The voices interlocking,\nOh maybe I want to be myself,\nBut I am somebody else”\n\nThe voice of who he was and who he is/is becoming are speaking at the same time. He has to ignore Steven (ignore “myself”) and be who he now which is “somebody else”\n\n…\n\n“And you\'ll never harbor someone like me,”\n\nYou’ll never be like who I am now\n\n“If you never leave then you\'ll never see,”\n\nYou, Steven, will never leave this city or change and grow into who I am now. My child must leave to not become/harbor feeling like I have now as an adult.\n \n“I swear that i will pull you from the wreckage,\nOf this sunday-monday routine”\n\nI will protect you from adulthood, from the mundane sameness of life as an adult.\n\nI will pull you from the wreckage,\nDon\'t you leave on my own,\n\'Cause you and me,\nWe\'re two of a kind,\nWe\'re two of a kind\n\nI will save you from who I’ve become. Never leave me completely because I need you to get me through the Sunday-Monday routine. We are kindred spirits, there is no one else like us.\n\nSteven, i love you\nI can\'t grow past you\nI have nothing left to give to you

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