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his one's of you taking your pill
Sometimes forget and that's okay I guess
This one's of me at my sisters wedding day
All my faces
They all were wasted
You're barely breathing I know
What if it's starting to show?
And I know it won't ever change but it hurts the same
This one's of me throwing up for you
And I'm paler still, and that's the way you wanted it
This one's of you, certain of cancer
And all my faces
They all were wasted on feeling small
You're barely breathing, I know
And now it's starting to show
And I know it won't ever change, but it hurts the same
Yeah
A fever broke somewhere behind July
And remember how I weighed 135
And we collide
All my faces
They all were wasted on feeling small
You're barely breathing, I know
And now it's starting to show
And I know it won't ever change, but it hurts the same
This one's of me, losing more weight
and feeling afraid
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There are more than one version but this is the one I heard...The spaces one also exist.
Sometimes forget and that's okay I guess
This one's of me at my sisters wedding day
All my faces
They all were wasted
You're barely breathing I know
What if it's starting to show?
And I know it won't ever change but it hurts the same
This one's of me throwing up for you
And I'm paler still, and that's the way you wanted it
This one's of you, certain of cancer
And all my faces
They all were wasted on feeling small
You're barely breathing, I know
And now it's starting to show
And I know it won't ever change, but it hurts the same
Yeah
A fever broke somewhere behind July
And remember how I weighed 135
And we collide
All my faces
They all were wasted on feeling small
You're barely breathing, I know
And now it's starting to show
And I know it won't ever change, but it hurts the same
This one's of me, losing more weight
and feeling afraid
___________________________
There are more than one version but this is the one I heard...The spaces one also exist.
Lyrics submitted by LuvMeTender, edited by LyricalSymphony
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Just listening to the EP for the first time O.o
"We collide"
I believe Josh is talking to his past, bulimic self during the song, and when he says we collide, he means that he begins to change. He starts to become better :)
Sometimes forget and that's okay I guess
This one's of me at my sisters wedding day"
This verse is about Josh looking at pictures of himself and reflecting. The sick self is showing him bad traits - such as forgetting to take his pills but the good self is showing happy memories like his sisters wedding day. Yet, he didn't think it was too happy because when he looks at it, all he can see is his weight.
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"All my faces
They all were wasted"
This part is about how he is showing the pictures to himself. When he says 'all my faces' he meant that all of his pictures were about him wanting to feel small. He may have faked a smiled, or just looked sick in the pictures so he wasted the memories in the pictures because of his disease.
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"You're barely breathing I know
What if it's starting to show?
And I know it won't ever change but it hurts the same"
This is about the past Josh telling the present self that he needs to get better because he is dying inside. Yet, the present Josh is resisting the advice and can't get better...the disease is too powerful.
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"This one's of me throwing up for you
And I'm paler still, and that's the way you wanted it
This one's of you, certain of cancer"
Sometimes in the eating disorder community, people refer to bulimia as a womans name of MIA. I think this is Josh talking to her, or even himself. He threw up because Mia wouldn't allow the thoughts to cease. She told him the more he threw up, the thinner he would be. As a consequence, he became pale because he was losing his nutrition and becoming sicker.
I think the cancer part refers to one of two things: either Josh began to lose his voice due to the acid and he thought he developed throat cancer -or- since there is no cure for cancer, he thoguht he had a death sentence and an incurable disease.
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"And all my faces
They all were wasted on feeling small
You're barely breathing, I know
And now it's starting to show
And I know it won't ever change, but it hurts the same"
This refers to the photos again. In all of the pictures he looks at, all he can see is himself. He criticizes himself on his weight instead of enjoying the memory. He is afraid that others will notice too, and he can't concentrate. He's barley breathing and about to die - maybe not even literally but emotionally.
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"A fever broke somewhere behind July
And remember how I weighed 135
And we collide"
A fever breaking is when someone begins to get better. At his lowest, he realized that if he didn't get better, he was going to die. The bulimic self and his sane self began to collide into one person and he was able to fight to save himself.
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"All my faces
They all were wasted on feeling small
You're barely breathing, I know
And now it's starting to show
And I know it won't ever change, but it hurts the same"
He realized that everyone else can notice and he's trying to get help now.
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"This one's of me, losing more weight
And feeling afraid"
Maybe he went into remission for a while but it came back with vengeance. He is afraid he is going to die.
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I'm sorry if my interpretation doesn't make any sense but every-time I listen to this song, this is the picture that is painted to me....
This one's of you taking your pill
Sometimes forget and that's okay I guess
[Trying to get better, but can't]
This one's of me at my sisters wedding day
[I think it's that he was at his sisters wedding, and threw up afterwards or during. Everyone was so happy, and all he could think of was getting the food out of him]
All the spaces
They all were wasted
You're barely breathing I know
[You're getting sicker]
What if it's starting to show
[People could find out. You don't want that]
And I know it won't ever change but it hurts the same
[You know you won't stop, and that hurts]
This one's of me throwing up for you
[literally throwing up]
And I'm paler still, but that's the way you wanted it
[When you lose a lot of weight, you get pale]
This one's of you
Certain of cancer
[It's a disease]
In all the spaces
They all were wasted on feeling small
[You only care about being small]
You're barely breathing, I know
What now it's starting to show
[Explained before]
And I know it won't ever change, but it hurts the same
A fever broke somewhere behind July
[Sometime during a July, he got the sickest yet]
And remember how I weighed 135
[His lowest weight]
and we collide...
All the spaces
It all got wasted on feeling small
You're barely breathing, I know
And now it's starting to show
And I know it won't ever change, but it hurst the same
This one's of me losing my weight
I'm feeling afraid
[I cry every time I hear this. He's loseing more weight, and being even more scared that things could end badly]
My second favourite song behind Skin and Bones. They saved me from my bulimia.
all my faces, they all were wasted on feeling small
-time wasted hiding behind a mask to hide pain.
this ones of me throwing up for you
-bulimia.
and im paler still, but thats the way you wanted it
-being pale from loss of weight or insomnia
what if its starting to show
-weight loss showing, badly.
i know it wont ever change but it hurts the same
-its VERY hard to rid of bulimia or insomnia
and remember how i weighed 135
-speaks for itself.
this ones of me losing my weight
-bulimia.
im feeling afraid
-again, speaks for itself.
thats all i can 'decode' at the moment.
He gives the bulimia a personality. Like in Skin and Bones, the bulimia is demanding and robs him.
Gahh, this song is just so great. "This one's of me, losing more weight, feeling afraid..."
One that says "between these spaces/in these spaces" and one that says "all my faces"
I've listened to both and the faces one is SOOOOO much better. The synth-ish thing during "all my faces, they all were wasted" just makes it that much better, so if you don't have that version, GET IT. Believe me its definitely worth it...