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Nihilists with good imaginations
I am satisfied hiding in our friend's apartment
Only leaving once a day to buy some groceries
Daylight, I'm so absent minded, nighttime meeting new anxieties
So am I erasing myself? Hope I'm not erasing myself
I guess it would be nice to give my heart to a God
But which one, which one do I choose?
All the churches filled with losers, psycho or confused
I just want to hold the divine in mine
And forget, all of the beauty's wasted
Let's fall back to earth and do something pleasant, say it
We fell back to earth like gravity's bitches, bitches
Physics makes us all its bitches
I guess it would be nice to help in your escape
From patterns your parents designed
All the party people dancing for the indie star
But he's the worst faker by far in the set
I forget, all of the beauty's wasted
I guess it would be nice
Show me that things can be nice
I guess it would be nice
Show me that things can be nice
You've got my back in the city
You've got my back 'cause I don't want to panic
You've got my back in the city
You've got my back 'cause I don't want to panic
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this is very important, because it seems to indicate that he's struggling in his artistic endeavors to find some sort of value/quality/beauty.
Daylight, I'm so absent minded
Nighttime meeting new anxieties
~~Reference to doing psychedelics (shrooms/LSD).
So am I erasing myself?
Hope I'm not erasing myself
~~Reference to "ego death." (a common effect of psychedelics)
I guess it would be nice to give my heart to a god
But which one, which one do I choose?
All the churches fill with losers, psycho or confused
I just want to hold the divine in mind
And forget all of the beauty's wasted
~~Reference to the entheogenic aspect of psychedelics (feelings of god or the divine/infinite).
Let's fall back to earth and do something pleasant
We fell back to earth like gravity's bitches
(Physics makes us all its bitches)
~~The author was high, now he must come back to reality.
I guess it would be nice to help in your escape
From patterns your parents designed
~~Reference to the social influence of psychedelics. They make people look past social conventions that "your parents designed."
All the party people dancing for the indie star
But he's the worst faker by far
But in the set, I forget all of the beauty's wasted
~~Suggestion of being happy/blissful on stage just as much as when he is on psychedelics.
" I guess it would be nice to help in your escape
From patterns your parents designed
All the party people dancing for the indie star
But he's the worst faker by far "
it's as if he's saying it would be nice to help the kiddies rebel from their parents, but their all looking up to the " worst faker by far ".
Isn't that a capella song part a Beach Boys melody? Or the Who? I can't place it and it's driving me nuts.
Drowning in thoughts of over-analysation - which usually accompanies depression as one attempts to rationalise the meaning of their existance when they are irrationally unhappy.
Interesting a few mentioned antidepressants because around this time Barnes's was
medicated for his depression and wrote another song about it - "Heimdalsgate Like a Promethean Curse."
Physics makes us all its bitches!
"(The surrealists were just)
Nihilists with good imaginations"
Great way to start off the song. AWESOME quote. Basically, a nihilist is someone that thinks that values don't exist, but, rather, are falsely invented. Surrealism is an art movement and philosophy, usually associated with the element of surprise, unexpected juxtapositions and non sequitur. Basically, he's saying that the surrealists are smart enough to be nihilists, just that they have good imaginations.
"I am satisfied
Hiding in our friend's apartment
Only leaving once a day
To buy some groceries"
I think that this part is self-explanatory. The character (who could possibly be or be a personification of Kevin Barnes) rarely leaves his home unless necessity calls for it. He's content with doing that and isn't very interested in leaving. This could be a faux contentment, however, as he's probably really depressed but, in terms of keeping his mood stable, he's content with not leaving home that often.
"Daylight, I'm so absent minded
Nighttime meeting new anxieties
So am I erasing myself?
Hope I'm not erasing myself"
I think that here he's talking about his sleeping schedule being messed up. During the daytime, he's asleep or (in the off chance that he's awake) he's really "absent-minded". Because of his isolation, he's developing all these phobias, or anxieties. He questions whether or not he's erasing himself because of his lack of contact with the outside world. Will anyone remember him if he keeps going at this rate?
"I guess it would be nice to give my heart to a god
But which one, which one do I choose?
All the churches fill with losers, psycho or confused
I just want to hold the divine in mind
And forget all of the beauty's wasted"
This part may be about a revelation he had as he was depressed. He may have realized that religion is bullshit. He says that he'd give his heart to a God, but has no idea which one he would choose. Everyone who attends the churches he sees as losers who are either crazy or just confused. He expresses his desires to think of a God-like figure, and not forget the beauty that has gone into religion.
"Let's fall back to earth and do something pleasant
We fell back to earth like gravity's bitches
(Physics makes us all its bitches)"
I think that this portion is talking about trying to make a return to life as it used to be, returning to the outside world, reconnecting with old friends, doing something good instead of sitting alone cooped up in the aforementioned friend's house. However, he "fell back to earth", which I interpret as this backfiring on him. This could mean that his newfound anxieties or phobias may have reared their ugly heads and forced him to return to isolation, or it could mean that he just simply is not in the mood for social interaction. I think this is a major theme of the album, actually.
"I guess it would be nice to help in your escape
From patterns your parents designed"
I see this line as talking to someone, possibly a friend, saying that he wants to help them escape the ideas that parents ingrain into children's minds from birth. Topics like religion, ways to properly act, anything can be interpreted in this.
"All the party people dancing for the indie star
But he's the worst faker by far
But in the set, I forget all of the beauty's wasted"
This is DEFINITELY about Kevin Barnes. This may be referring to him looking all happy as he's playing, but really he's depressed.
"I guess it would be nice
Show me that things can be nice
I guess it would be nice
Show me that things can be nice"
At this point in the song, the character has placed his trust in a friend to "show" him the outside world and, I guess you could say, help him get back into the groove of things.
"You've got my back in the city
You've got my back, because I don't want to panic
You've got my back in the city
You've got my back, because I don't want to panic"
Still talking to the friend, here he says that the friend has his "back" in social environments. He doesn't want to panic as he was earlier, so he's placing his trust in his friend to help him out. And that's what friends are for. :)