Evanescence – All That I'm Living For

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  My Interpretation:i think that this song explains what most people are going through when they are alone and when it gets dark..It's always the hours that you cant stop thinking about your life,what you haven't done and what should be done, people's unfair behaviors...You cant just ignore that thoughts and you get that feeling of drowning and helplessness,,That's why it says: My ghosts are gaining on me.. All people have its ghosts coming through that open door at nights... It gets more intense when someone you love, disappoints you and make feel unimportant...(Guess i thought i'd have to change the world to make you see me...) .She asks at the end: Should i lock the last open door? It's so hard to do this....

  Flag ria04on February 04, 2013   Link

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  General Comment:A few years ago at their show, Amy Lee introduced this song by saying that it was written with her fans in mind.

  Flag missalm75on February 01, 2013   Link

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  My Interpretation:This song, to me, talks a lot about Fear, specifically of the dark (Or night.)
  All that I'm living for
  All that I'm dying for
  All that I can't ignore alone at night - Fear, we want it, but we hate it. I personally am horribly afraid of the dark, childishly enough.
  
  I can feel the night beginning
  Separate me from the living
  Understanding me
  After all I've seen - Being afraid of the dark, but loving it, even though it brings chills and silence.
  
  Piecing every thought together
  Find the words to make me better
  If I only knew how to pull myself apart - Trying to collect ones' thoughts in the face of fear, and trying to find someone to help them with it.
  
  All that I'm living for
  All that I'm dying for
  All that I can't ignore alone at night
  All that I'm wanted for
  Although I wanted more
  Lock the last open door, my ghosts are gaining on me - Loving and hating fear. As for the ghosts, probably the feeling that one is being watched, and a simple command to close and lock everything to suppress the feeling.
  
  I believe that dreams are sacred
  Take my darkest fears and play them
  Like a lullaby
  Like a reason why - Trying to sleep and understand that fear is a generally self-forced thing.
  
  Like a play of my obsessions
  Make me understand the lesson
  So I'll find myself
  So I won't be lost again - Being so obsessed with a fear of the dark, wondering, but being warned that you'll lose yourself in it if you let it consume you.
  
  (The refrain again, see above.)
  
  Guess I thought I'd have to change the world
  To make you see me
  To be the one
  I could have run forever
  But how for would I have come
  Without mourning your love - Trying to run and hide from fear, but wanting it to see you that you aren't as afraid as you used to be, but then falling and realising you're its victim, and it nolonger loves, but only hates.
  
  (See above again for refrain)
  
  Should it hurt to love you
  Should I feel like I do
  Should I lock the last open door, my ghosts are gaining on me - Trying to say, "Is fear supposed to hurt me like it does, to where it breaks?, Should I be unable to do little things I could do well from this?" And with the door, more of that paranoia. Do you give in to it or not?
  
  
  That's my interpretation, I hope it makes sense.

  Flag FaerenRoseon October 27, 2012   Link

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  My Interpretation:This song makes me think about someone who is going through difficult and complicated situations (e.g. mourning a loved one, unrequited love, etc., speaking of wishes and regrets, and is trying not to, well, go insane. They're trying to find the strength in them to go on and survive the hell hole they are currently in.

  Flag evfreak13on April 18, 2012   Link

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  General Comment:This is the first song. Now im no lyric masterBut i think this song is for a few people and can have many stories behind it all depending on who is listening, like all songs but this is my idea of what it can really be about.
  
  
  All that I'm living for
  all that I'm dying for
  all that I can't ignore alone at night - I think this is about her song Hello which was for her sister's death.
  
  I can feel the night beginning
  separate me from the living
  understanding me
  after all I've seen
  piecing every thought together
  find the words to make me better
  if I only knew how to pull myself apart - I think this is about her Husband how he Understood her when no one else could, he was a a therapist and long-time friend before he married her.
  
  All that I'm living for
  all that I'm dying for
  all that I can't ignore alone at night
  all that I'm wanted for
  although I wanted more
  lock the last open door my ghosts are gaining on me - This bit is a bit confusing for me (Im dumb i know) but i think its about how she loved and broke up with Shawn from Seether how his drinking issues tore them apart and she wanted him to try harder but he didn't.
  
  I believe that dreams are sacred
  take my darkest fears and play them
  like a lullaby
  like a reason why
  like a play of my obsessions
  make me understand the lesson
  so I'll find myself
  so I wont be lost again - Ok i believe she may of had Extreame nightmares so to face them she wrote them into songs to stop herself fearing them as much.
  
  chorus i already explained so lets skip.
  
  Guess I thought I'd have to change the world
  to make you see me
  to be the one
  I could have run forever
  but how for would I have come
  without mourning your love? - Again about shawn and how his drinkiing tore them. He fell More in love with drinking than AMy so she had to fight for him and lost so they broke up. Then she found Josh and felt guilty that she loved him.
  
  should it hurt to love you?
  should I feel like I do?
  should I lock the last open door-
  my ghosts are gaining on me - Again feeling Guilty about loving Josh, maybe some feelings for Shawn still and shes wondering what to do about it.
  
  Im so sorry if i stuffed this up I'm just posting one of my thoughs on this AWESOME song. Amy must have ben a very sad person to write all of these songs.
  
  
  

  Flag Blackdragon99on April 11, 2011   Link

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  General Comment:It's about the band and how deep they must go to do what they do

  Flag TraRobinson December 26, 2009   Link

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  General Comment:SHES "THE ARTIST"

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  General Comment:QUOTE FROM AMY ON VH1:
  
  "I love that song. It feels really different for us. The lyrics are about my writing process-how I put the song together, why I do it, and how I'm trying to fix all the things that are wrong with me through music. The first line says, 'Save me from the night again/ I can feel the separation from the living.' It's always night time when I start writing, just as the dusk is setting."

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  General Comment:definitly one of my favorites

  Flag dead_girls_danceon April 06, 2008   Link

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  General Comment:This song is about us! The fans. :]

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