I Wish I was free of this

I see her in my dreams
Wish that she wasn't there

But she still haunts me and I

Still feel her breath on me
Still want to taste her skin

But I know that would kill me

No Damn her, still i choke on her lies
Still reeling from her last caress her goodbye

Oh how this sickens me
This wrteched fools affair

I can't erase this from me

And now it permeates
And every thought I feel
The anger writhes in my soul

No Damn her, still I feel my stomach turn
Choke back hold my head high I'm strong

No damn her still i choke on her lies
Not reeling I'm strong



Lyrics submitted by Doc Holiday

Track duration: 03:21


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    General Comment:I like the theory of it being about drugs. It would be incredibly smart of them to mask the subject of drugs with the metaphor of a woman and/or breakup. Also, the middle breakdown, even before I knew the lyrics, gave me the impression of someone going through withdrawal. For me personally, I take the song as being about some kind of vice. Alcoholism is mine and so this song has become very important to me.
    Flag xevildeadxon October 19, 2012   Link
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    My Interpretation:I feel as though this song is about someone that lied or cheated on him and it's hurting him because he still loves her after all that she's done to him and can't let her go, and it's frustrating him that she's haunting him even after all that. But it's not only the lyrics that tell the story of the song it's also the guitar, the clean interlude part sorta feels like he's finally released from the hold she had over him, like he's finally let go.
    Flagged allthatremains1on June 09, 2012   Link
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    General Comment:amazing song, im sure a lot of people can relate to this song, i know right now there's a girl that this song can directly apply to. haha anyway, fuckin awesome song
    Flag SyNGaTeSRuleson September 07, 2010   Link
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    General Comment:Right it seems pretty straight foreward and self explanatory, but what if the song is an extended metaphor of drugs.Therefore drugs are being personified by a woman, but you can interpret it any way you want! The name of the song though I find no relationship what so ever
    Flag chambita92on June 16, 2010   Link
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    General Comment:let me ask u all this---- IS THERE ANY GUY OUT THERE WHO CANNOT RELATE TO THIS SONG!?!??! lol bc can...
    Flag faithrealmon June 04, 2010   Link
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    General Comment:Six is because of the beats per measure. (some of the words' beats are combined because of how he sings it btw) And I love this song.
    Flag Pacalypsedon May 12, 2010   Link
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    Memory:It's ridiculous, this song hits on so many different levels: both as a person and musician. On the musician level, there's a lot going on here. Like how frenetic the tempo is coupled with Philip's growls and screams. It gives the overall feeling of betrayal - blind anger at having been wronged by someone you trusted in and gave so much to. On the flip side on lines like "but I know that would kill me..." where Labonte switches to singing, it gives the picture that the rage is not entirely blind - that doing something or following through with it could be disastrous. The break before the solo where it calms down is one of the most colorful parts of the song. Like when you've been dumped and your energy is all used up, and you almost find some sort of strange serenity in it just being over...and then relapse back into rage (possibly).

    On a personal level, it's like ATR read through a crystal ball and put so many people's feelings into one song. For me that's especially true after being recently dumped by a woman I cared for - care for almost *too* much according to people who know the story. I'm in the middle of a lot of transitions in life and at first I was just thrashing wildly emotionally. The thought of what she did to me utterly repulsed me - I still can't sleep well at night since I usually wake up after a few hours from a nightmare that includes her.

    But on a final note, people can often generalize on the perceived rage and hatred found in metal. Many instances are true, but you have to dig deep to find the artists who are producing art - art being that which can't be described well by most of us. Maybe it's hard for some people to convert what emotions would be like aurally, so they can't perceive music at a deeper level. My two cents. Peace.
    Flag HeavensCloudon April 09, 2010   Link
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    General Comment:I relate to this song so fucking well right now... The love of my life just told me she thinks shes pregnant with another guys fucking kid. Im so in love with her but it fucking KILLS me that she had sex with another guy and might be pregnant. Shes my everything. She saved my life. I used to be an addict but she helped me get clean... but now Im at a loss of what to do. I wanna marry her and spend the rest of my life with her but this kid just changes everything. This song hits me really hard right now... its always been one of my favorites but Ive never really been able to relate to it till now.
    Flag zero92425on February 14, 2010   Link
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    General Comment:i believe this song is about the singer or whatever going through bad problems with his girl, and doesn't give a crap about her anymore and gets sickened by her repulsive actions..thats my opinion i dont kno for sure but the guitar n shit epic
    Flag XxRaozerxXon January 02, 2010   Link
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    General Comment:this song is beautiful..... and to know exactly what he went through is awsome.... the lies are what murder
    Flag Ibanezbass89on December 25, 2009   Link

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