In regards to the meaning of this song:
Before a live performance on the EP Five Stories Falling, Geoff states “It’s about the last time I went to visit my grandmother in Columbus, and I saw that she was dying and it was the last time I was going to see her. It is about realizing how young you are, but how quickly you can go.”
That’s the thing about Geoff and his sublime poetry, you think it’s about one thing, but really it’s about something entirely different. But the lyrics are still universal and omnipresent, ubiquitous, even. So relatable. That’s one thing I love about this band. I also love their live performances, raw energy and Geoff’s beautiful, imperfectly perfect vocals. His voice soothes my aching soul.
I'm not myself when you're around
I'm not myself standing in a crowd
I'm not myself and I dont know how
I'm not myself, myself right now
Jesus Christ, will you look at me
Don't know who I'm supposed to be
Don't really know if I should give a damn
When you're around
I dont know who I am
I'm not myself when you go quiet
I'm not myself all alone at night
I'm not myself, don't know who to call
I'm not myself at all
Jesus Christ will you look at me
Don't know who I'm supposed to be
Don't really know if I should give a damn
When you're around
I dont know who I am
I always wished that I could find
Someone as beautiful as you
but in the process I forgot
that I was special too
I'm not myself when you're around
I'm not myself standing in a crowd
I'm not myself and I dont know how
I'm not myself, myself right now
Jesus Christ will you look at me
Don't know who I'm supposed to be
Someone say if I should give a damn
When you're around
I dont know who I am
I always wished that I could find
Someone as beautiful as you
but in the process I forgot
that I was special too
I always wished that I could find
Someone as talented as you
but in the process I forgot
that I was just as good
as you
I'm not myself standing in a crowd
I'm not myself and I dont know how
I'm not myself, myself right now
Jesus Christ, will you look at me
Don't know who I'm supposed to be
Don't really know if I should give a damn
When you're around
I dont know who I am
I'm not myself when you go quiet
I'm not myself all alone at night
I'm not myself, don't know who to call
I'm not myself at all
Jesus Christ will you look at me
Don't know who I'm supposed to be
Don't really know if I should give a damn
When you're around
I dont know who I am
I always wished that I could find
Someone as beautiful as you
but in the process I forgot
that I was special too
I'm not myself when you're around
I'm not myself standing in a crowd
I'm not myself and I dont know how
I'm not myself, myself right now
Jesus Christ will you look at me
Don't know who I'm supposed to be
Someone say if I should give a damn
When you're around
I dont know who I am
I always wished that I could find
Someone as beautiful as you
but in the process I forgot
that I was special too
I always wished that I could find
Someone as talented as you
but in the process I forgot
that I was just as good
as you
Lyrics submitted by Adihsar
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I think the use of "Jesus Christ" isn't meant in any kind of religious context, I think it's meant to be sarcastic, like "Jesus, look at me, what the fuck is going on"
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i couldnt agree more, ur comment describes it all....
i couldnt agree more, ur comment describes it all....