I'm not afraid of you now
I know so I climb down from the bunk bed this slow
I can talk back to you now
I know from a few things that I learned from this TV show
You can work late til midnight; we don't care
We can fix our own meals, we can wash our own hair
I go to school before sunrise in the cold
And I pulled the alarm and I kicked up the salad bowls

Since the time we meant to say much more
Unsaid things begin to take their toll
After school we shovel through the snow
Drive upstate in silence in the cold

You can remind me of it
That I was lazy and tired
You can work all your life
As I'm not afraid of you anymore

If I loved you oh a long time
I don't know if I can recall the last time you told me so
Here in this house in Pittsfield
The ghost of our grandmother works at the sewing machine post
Hiding the bills in the kitchen, on the floor,
And my sister lost her best friend in the Persian Gulf War.
There was a flood in the bathroom last May
And you kicked at the pipes when it rattled, oh the river it made

Stand there, tell me that I'm of no use
Things unspoken break us if we choose
There's still time to wash the kitchen floor
On your knees, the bath, the sink once more
You can remind me that I was tired
You can work late and do yourself honor
Now that I'm older, wiser and working less
I may regret having left the place a mess

You can remind me
That I was lazy and tired
You can work all your life
As I'm not afraid of you anymore



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    General Comment:“Pittsfield is probably the most personal song on The Avalanche. It’s based on a lot of my life growing up in a big family where there were a lot of chores and we were always being asked to contribute to the household. To do work and wash the dishes. Work was an important factor in our life, and now that I’ve grown up I have a different understanding of work. It’s not so much about physical exertion but about applying skills to particular tasks. It can be an abstract task…I don’t want to get too Marxist on you, but that song is kind of a rumination on work in the house, you know and chores - that was really important growing up. I wrote a series of verses for that song and then sort of transplanted them in this little town in Illinois that’s very similar to the small town where I grew up in Michigan, after we moved out of Detroit. It’s still very self-conscious because it’s a song about how much work we had to do and how much I rebelled against that. But then I realized that as an adult and as a songwriter, that I have somehow, in me, the inclination to overwork myself that my father had. And I’m just applying it differently. So he would spend five hours mopping the floor and I spend five hours on a vocal line in the studio.”
    -Sufjan Stevens
    Flag tamagotchitownon February 03, 2011   Link
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    General Comment:For me this song is about the transition from being a child, to being a teenager. The shift from childhood idealisation of parents to growing up and coming to see them as human beings with flaws, open to questioning. 'Pittsfield' plays to me as the sparks of teenage rebellion.
    Flag choggspacedon April 20, 2010   Link
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    General Comment:the crazy electric guitar scared me at first. it was like a beautiful, poignant song that made my heart melt, and then a random drabble of craziness. I almost skipped past it, but I heard the piano at the end and it made so much more sense. I see the guitar as a symbol to the relationship he had with this person all in memorable snippets, as if fast-forwarding a tape and the clutter of noise coming out of it. And the piano is like the end of the tape; everything is over, the chaos is gone, and he is able to stick up for himself and he is at peace with this person, and himself.

    as for me, this song speaks volumes. it takes a lot of strength to overcome the fear of another person, especially when that someone is so closely related to them. I think that sufjan was afraid of this person, yet he felt bad to just up and leave them, although he was deeply hurt by them and felt like he never good enough. The last line, "I don't regret having left the place a mess," it is so bittersweet. he has been hurt so often and bruised so badly that he just doesn't care, but at the same time, he has finally mustered up the courage not to care.

    Wonderful song. Makes me tear up every time.
    Flag amynameisalion April 04, 2010   Link
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    General Comment:It's about how the power and control that bad parents hold over their kids eventually wanes, though the damage remains. Sufjan's parents called him lazy and useless, and contrasted their own strong "work ethic" against his. When kids are told such things they believe them without question. "I am useless" probably still lives somewhere in him, though many (myself included) consider him an amazing and rare talent.

    But he grew up, became self-sufficient, wiser. He survived their abuse. And so the words here are a Fuck You that's a tangle of righteous indignation and ineffable loss.




    Flag Meurs1215on March 09, 2010   Link
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    General Comment:hated the guitar at first, but maybe your ment to , i think its used to symbolise the hurt/pain that was felt , the huge emotions / hate / etc etc that its not ment to be nice, almost like screaming at his mum! then calm, beautful calm like acceptance of it or even forgiveness.
    Flag evenfunnieron February 12, 2010   Link
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    General Comment:I think I can provide some answers: The parent who is working hard to pay the bills find their attention entirely on physical needs of a house. Thus, even though there is the shampoo and the full fridge for the kids to take care of themselves, the child has to do it alone. The parent focuses on the physical, ie. cleaning and washing and expects the kids to do the same (hence the part about leaving the place a mess, and hence the anger when something creates more work, ie. the pipes), and to the kid this makes them feel like they are worth less than the physicals of the "home". This is the unspoken thing that breaks the relationship.

    The grandma would be someone who could remind the parent the real value of a home or at least fill that role of a parent for the kid, but she is not here. The sister's boyfriend may come into the family and bring new changes, but he is lost too.

    The parent may think their work is the love they contribute to the family and expect the same, but the kid loves in a much deeper way. The kid thinks this is superficial and thus calls working do(ing) yourself honor. The kid thinks that maybe by just agreeing to this superficial love in cleaning up and contributing to the physicals of the home would've made the relationship better, but for now he just wants to sing this song for a last attempt in getting his parent into a real love.

    Freakish essay it sounds like, but I guess without putting it that way my emotions wouldn't even allow me to put it down.
    Flag ardeleon July 28, 2008   Link
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    General Comment:There are a lot of mistakes in these lyrics, according to the album jacket.
    I hate it when people just cut and paste from some crappy lyrics website.
    Flag the_fredinatoron November 23, 2007   Link
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    General Comment:My God. The sudden change from the guitar thrashing back to the calm piano. Absolutely beyond explanation.
    Flag taylorgillespieon November 05, 2007   Link
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    General Comment:My God. The sudden change from the guitar thrashing back to the calm piano. Absolutely beyond explanation.
    Flag taylorgillespieon November 05, 2007   Link
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    General Comment:Wow. So powerful.

    When he sings "anymore".

    Incredible.
    Flag taylorgillespieon November 05, 2007   Link

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