Flyleaf – Something I Can never Have

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  General Comment:I agree with all the comments about what this song means to them; but all I know is I stumbled across this song in the middle of something in my life and it spoke to me. I just ended a relationship with my boyfriend a few weeks ago. He was married, but getting a divorce I had spoken to his ex everything was legitimate just so no one thinks I was crossing any lines here. Well I felt God was leading me to end the relationship and we both started drawing farther away from each other emotionally and in the end it was a mutual decision. He immediately went back to his wife... don't get me wrong I am no longer with him so he can be with whomever he pleases but still... personally I am very happy to see them working it out to see any marriage make it is admirable to me. But recently I have started to miss him since he really was a good guy which is something I haven't personally experienced too much in the past; and so since I am missing him all of the sudden I have this fear that I may be coveting a woman's husband (which is the technical situation I am now faced with). Either way I have started wanting something I cannot have (not him exactly but that closeness love and intimacy) and God is the only one who can make this all go away... just saying. So it's a prayer it's a hard place to be, but it's a prayer none the less "Tell me you'll make it all go away because I don't want to want what I can't have I want to move on" amen

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  General Comment:We used this as part of a skit we did in our last retreat ( the second part when the person found god was " Savior,please") and it gave me a new out look on this song
  
  I think it could be someone who strayed away from God, who is searching for love, or some strong emotion( gray would be the color if i had a heart. like your having trouble feeling something) but itsnot there. In things like parties sex self-har,But they're starting to find you can't get something from any of that. They're getting desperate, God's calling out to them and their beginning to realize it, but they're still having trouble finding it, that love, or emotion ( I just want something I can never have)They think they can't have it.
  
  If any of that makes sense

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  General Comment:Personally, I think the song is about death and missing the person so badly that it wrecks your life with grief. You know you can never get them back and you think that if you could everything would be perfect again. I don't think this song has anything to do with religion.

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  General Comment:I guess it's about wanting someone very badly. Sort of like the person wants you too but is wayyyy out of your league. So that's why the one you love doesn't want to love you, but does. And yet they don't show it most of the time, when people are around. I guess????? Ok, people. I ain't in my senses right now. Frgt the interpretation!

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  General Comment:This is my opinion on the song. I posted it below, including the lyrics...ya, I'm a Christian, and I believe Flyleaf is a Christian band, but I don't think this song is about God. I think it's about self-harm. Anyway, here you go...

  Flag xXLaceyHelpsSaveLivesXxon November 04, 2009   Link

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  Song Meaning:I still recall the taste of your tears (not literal tears, but the cut's bleeding)
  Echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears (it's voice is in the pain, the blade's sound rings)
  My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore (she enjoys dreams about the pain, relief, cut)
  Scraping through my head til I don't want to sleep anymore (she doesn't want to sleep for thinking about self harm)
  
  You make this all go away (cutting makes all the pain in her life go away)
  I just want something I can never have (she wants relief, and you cant get it from cutting)
  
  You always were the one to show me how (show her how to cope)
  Back then I couldn't do the things that I can do now (she couldn't cope the way she can now)
  This thing is slowly taking me apart (of course, cutting is taking her physically, emotionally apart)
  Grey would be the color if I had a heart (she feels empty, grey)
  
  And I'm starting to scare myself! (she's scaring herself with this awful addiction)
  
  In this place it seems like such a shame (the harm looks like a shame her, maybe in a church or among other people)
  Though it all looks different now
  I know it's still the same (even though it looks different in this place, it is the same to her eventually, and she'll do it again.)
  Everywhere I look you're all I see (she sees pain and bleeding and harm everywhere)
  Just a fading reminder of who I used to be (the scars might be fading, but she was still a cutter,though for now she may have stoped)
  

  Flag xXLaceyHelpsSaveLivesXxon November 02, 2009   Link

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    but this is just my opinion.
    

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    I feel that in the original, when he goes 'fadin fuckin reminder', it puts more feeling into the line. LOVE the Flyleaf version anyway though!

    Flag Rockrox4everon May 21, 2010  
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  General Comment:and another thing, any song can be seen as christian or unchristian. it all depends on how the listener translates it in his or her head. so just because you may understand that its unchristian doesnt make the song unchristian for the rest of the world.
  and people please be more opened minded! i mean it this song is about whatever you make it be about.
  "something i cant have" can be (a girl or boy or an addiction to go away or just to be free or to be clean or innocent or wanting money or whatever it is you want!)
  and "you" can be god, your best friend, your addiction, your drugs, it doesnt have to be a person only!
  plz just say what you think its about but dont try to PROVE THAT YOIUR OPINION IS A FACT! unless youre the author of this song, dont say you kno what its about. cuz you dont !

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  General Comment:its suppposed to be youll make this all go away.
  and this song is exactly what i feel when im going through my addiction to something (no not drugs, but something just as bad.)
  
  i always feel like im gonna lose control and just go crazy and the only hope i have is asking god to please ''make this all go away". thats the only thing i have that makes me stay sane. god.
  
  AND for those who dont think that they are christian, maybe you just relate to the song in a totally differemnt way, but that doesnt mean its not about god. like this song, it wouldnt make any sense to me if it wasnt about: asking god to make all the bad things in life go away. i mean who else would be able to make it all go away?

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    well, what's your addiction? this song reminds me of when I used to cut myself

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    well, what's your addiction? this song reminds me of when I used to cut myself

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  My Opinion:wow...thanks flyleaf for taking a big shit on one of my all time favorite songs.

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  General Comment:this song is amazing. both versions! what i got from it: someone wanting their ex back.
  "still recall the taste of your tears
  Echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears
  My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore
  Scraping through my head til I don't want to sleep anymore"
  they remember everthing about that person and it hurts them so much to think of them. they know that they can never have that person back and would do anything and everything for another chance. their heart is grey because it is broken beyond repair. their ex is the only person who made everything okay.
  "I'm down to just one thing
  And I'm starting to scare myself"
  i think this line is about contemplating suicide. being in so much pain you are scared of what you could do to yourself.
  lacey's vocals are amazing in this song!
  

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