Fidelity

This song plays out what I've been dealing with for a while. To me, it's about juggling the thought of opening up to someone you like and want to see more with and closing yourself off for fear of heartbreak. But it's ironic because the heartbreak comes from barring yourself away from emotionally opening up.

"I never loved nobody fully always one foot on the ground and by protecting my heart truly I got lost in the sounds I hear in my mind all these voices I hear in my mind all these words I hear in mind all this music and it breaks my heart..."

I've never fully allowed myself to open up intimately. I've dispelled enough to be satisfied, but there's never been that full feeling of letting go and being totally vulnerable. To me, the voices are all the times someone has complimented me and tried to reach me intimately, but I knew that their attempts had no phase on the wall blocking them out (hence the heartbreak).

"suppose I never ever met you suppose we never fell in love suppose I never ever let you kiss me so sweet and so soft suppose I never ever saw you suppose you never ever called suppose I kept on singing love songs just to break my own fall"

This part is about juggling your options, mostly about completely shutting this person out intimately. What if we never met? Would I be better off? I can think of so many times where I've thought about this. And to me, the last part is about justifying how maybe things would be better.

"all my friends say that of course it's gonna get better... "

I think this is just reflection on what friends may have said in moments of past romantic fall-outs.

This is just my two cents on this, not that it's anything new I don't think. (: I just felt the need to post. I'm still waiting for my colorful ending like in the music video..