So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
I finally found myself
I tried to erase all this hate from my body
I tried to end all the lies, all the pain that I caused everyone
But it all seemed so fucking useless
I can’t forgive
And I can’t forget
Don’t you know who the fuck I am
I’m the enemy
I’ve lived a life of regret
I’ve had this burden of guilt suffocating
It’s time to shed this disguise
And it’s time to rise and destroy
Everyone in my fucking path
I can’t forgive
And I can’t forget
Don’t you know who the fuck I am
I’m the enemy
Take a good look at me
I’m your enemy
Don’t try to make amends
There’s just no need to pretend it will all be ok
You can try to run and you can try to hide
But it’s all fucking pointless
I can’t forgive
And I can’t forget
Don’t you know who the fuck I am
I’m the enemy
I tried to erase all this hate from my body
I tried to end all the lies, all the pain that I caused everyone
But it all seemed so fucking useless
I can’t forgive
And I can’t forget
Don’t you know who the fuck I am
I’m the enemy
I’ve lived a life of regret
I’ve had this burden of guilt suffocating
It’s time to shed this disguise
And it’s time to rise and destroy
Everyone in my fucking path
I can’t forgive
And I can’t forget
Don’t you know who the fuck I am
I’m the enemy
Take a good look at me
I’m your enemy
Don’t try to make amends
There’s just no need to pretend it will all be ok
You can try to run and you can try to hide
But it’s all fucking pointless
I can’t forgive
And I can’t forget
Don’t you know who the fuck I am
I’m the enemy
Lyrics submitted by thienosaurus
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I think this is about a criminal (probably murderer) that has been regretting all the crimes he has committed, and has now decided that he's just going to live with it, and isn't going to repress the feelings anymore. Aside from that, this is the best song off Roadrunner United, IMO. Coz it's got Mark Hunter on vox.