I screamed out your name
even my voice will probably never reach you
but you know, now I'm ok with that.
some day in my heart you'll be...

I'll dream tonight, dreams of you.
because of that letter I put under my pillow
my dreams are too cruel, my breath is cut off
i always painfully awaken at four in the morning

time is too long
time is too painful
the dreams don't stop
love freezes to death
on a cold night
on this long night

my consciousness splintered and powdered
memories scattered about
holding your ring so tightly that my tears wet the pillow

so i couldn't hear it, i blocked my ears to your voice
one more scar added to my wrist
melting into the wound... you

i am breaking burning the letter its reduced to ash
i am breaking destroy my heart its reduced to ash
i am breaking losing you i love you.



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    General Comment:This song is so heartbreaking, especially at live shows, to see him like that..
    I think he actually collapsed at one show because he was crying so hard that his
    knees were shaking. He doesn't deserve how rough life has been to him.
    Such a powerful performance, non-the-less, you can't help but cry when you see it.
    Flag AMidwintersDeathon June 05, 2009   Link
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    General Comment:This sadly ties in with my definition of 'wake'. (It may not be accurate, but this is what I pull from all of this.)

    "I screamed out your name
    even my voice will probably never reach you
    but you know, now I'm ok with that.
    some day in my heart you'll be..."

    He's finnaly dealing with the loss of his love, and he screams out in the pain that he feels. Knowing for now it will hurt, but later it'll be okay.


    "I'll dream tonight, dreams of you.
    because of that letter I put under my pillow
    my dreams are too cruel, my breath is cut off
    i always painfully awaken at four in the morning"

    Dreaming of the happier times with her, feeling like that's the only way he can actually be happy. But, when he wakes up before the dawn of a new day, He realises that he is only torturing himself.

    "time is too long
    time is too painful
    the dreams don't stop
    love freezes to death
    on a cold night
    on this long night"

    He feels as though he cannot love again, it's the date on when he had lost her. And his subconcious won't stop playing the good times that they had.


    "my consciousness splintered and powdered
    memories scattered about
    holding your ring so tightly that my tears wet the pillow"

    The only memento that he has after he lost her. He's starting to realise that she is dissapeering from his memory, and he cannot stand it.

    "so i couldn't hear it, i blocked my ears to your voice
    one more scar added to my wrist
    melting into the wound... you"

    He cannot hear her voice any longer, and it drives him to the point of hurting himself. As he does this, he only thinks of her, and if he does die that night, the happier place he'll be put in. He thinks that if he dies, then he'll be able to see her again.


    "i am breaking burning the letter its reduced to ash
    i am breaking destroy my heart its reduced to ash
    i am breaking losing you i love you."

    He's burning the letter his love gave to him so long ago. While doing that, he feels his heart being ripped out of his chest. And he swears that he loves her.

    It can also be turned around to where its about a fiancee. But that's the type of feeling I got from it. And, I'm sticking with it. Kyo-san, we all have been there some point in our lives, from being left by the 'love of our lives', or from having someone that close to us being taken away.
    Flag SaiSaion February 02, 2009   Link
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    General Comment:I would agree, you need to watch the blitz performance of this. Its amazing.
    Flag Barbarian-666-on July 08, 2008   Link
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    General Comment:I started sobbing when I saw the "Blitz" performance of it, too... actually all your comments on here made me go check it out for myself. I almost wish I didn't :( I can't unsee~

    Either way, this song deserves a shit-ton more recognition than it's getting on here and that makes me sad. For everyone who speculates about how Kyo's songs referring to heartache/betrayal have to deal with that business of his past, look no further than this song: one only needs to see the Blitz performance to be lead to that conclusion.

    Goddammit, Kyo :(
    Flag alrauneon March 10, 2008   Link
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    General Comment:It sounds like it's about someone that died or left and now all that's left is the memories.
    Flag Ryuk88on February 17, 2008   Link
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    General Comment:This song is so amazing. Kyo knows how to show pain. On the Blitz dvd, I can barely watch. I bust into tears when he starts screaming "aishiteru".
    Flag NamidaWoKoroshiteon December 30, 2007   Link
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    General Comment:this song always made me cry when i was in love with guy, who were far away from me... oh that was really hard time.
    "time is too long
    time is too painful
    the dreams don't stop"
    jeez, I remember, how I used to count days and weeks and months... and sweet dreams what almost killed me that time...

    i'm happy it was 2 years ago.
    Flag playmyfavouritesongon November 09, 2007   Link
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    General Comment:I want this song played at my funeral...
    I love it that much.
    Flag [.Zakuro.]on July 03, 2007   Link
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    General Comment:why is it that Kyo can find a way to make me cry.....T_T i love you Kyo
    Flag RainBow_Envyon July 01, 2007   Link
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    General Comment:Whew, this song is so pretty... the lyrics, although sad, are really pretty. I printed off these lyrics and gave them to my exgirlfriend once, because sometimes Kyo just always says what's needed to be said without a word extra in between. The guitar solo halfway through this song is one of my favourite guitar solos EVER. It sounds really simple, but it's very pretty. I love this song.
    Flag Valentine Svetlanaon June 07, 2007   Link

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