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So, so cold
So tired...
I hate myself more than I ever let on
I'm burnt out at 22
I have lived too fast
And I loved too much
And I'll die too young
But I chose this cup that I drank from
Knew what I was getting into
But I couldn't let out what I had to keep in
I'm ashamed of myself
And unspeakable sins that I committed and...
I've made mistakes
But I'll find my way
There's no explaination for
The things I've failed at before
They can't hold my hand
It just hurts to be a man
Through the tortures of the damned
Of the damned...
If I only had an axe
I'd sever the ties I've made with the world
Maybe I could be a stranger in a strange place
If I start now maybe I can be saved
If I only had a mask
I'd cover these bleeding eyes
They're bloodshot now, but they'll be black by dawn
If I wake up now I can be pure again
I've made mistakes
But I'll find my way
No explaination for
The things I failed at before
They can't hold my hand
It just hurts to be a man
Though the tortures of the damned
Look at me now I'm on the tracks with my back
Towards the last train leaving town (x4)
I've made mistake
But I'll find my way
There's no explaination for
The things I've failed at before
They can't hold my hand
It just hurts to be a man
Through the tortures of the damned(x2)
So tired...
I hate myself more than I ever let on
I'm burnt out at 22
I have lived too fast
And I loved too much
And I'll die too young
But I chose this cup that I drank from
Knew what I was getting into
But I couldn't let out what I had to keep in
I'm ashamed of myself
And unspeakable sins that I committed and...
I've made mistakes
But I'll find my way
There's no explaination for
The things I've failed at before
They can't hold my hand
It just hurts to be a man
Through the tortures of the damned
Of the damned...
If I only had an axe
I'd sever the ties I've made with the world
Maybe I could be a stranger in a strange place
If I start now maybe I can be saved
If I only had a mask
I'd cover these bleeding eyes
They're bloodshot now, but they'll be black by dawn
If I wake up now I can be pure again
I've made mistakes
But I'll find my way
No explaination for
The things I failed at before
They can't hold my hand
It just hurts to be a man
Though the tortures of the damned
Look at me now I'm on the tracks with my back
Towards the last train leaving town (x4)
I've made mistake
But I'll find my way
There's no explaination for
The things I've failed at before
They can't hold my hand
It just hurts to be a man
Through the tortures of the damned(x2)
Lyrics submitted by MySensesHavFailed35
Track duration: 03:29
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"They're bloodshot now but they'll be black by dawn if I wake up i can be pure again"-he was drunk all night and he will be hungover in the morning and if only he could wake up and realize that he is not alone and people care about him then he could start over and be the man that he used to be.
He's pretty much just beating himself up for the decisions he made and the cup is a figure of speech for his decisions.
"Knew what I was getting into, but I couldn't let out what I had to keep in I'm ashamed of myself and unspeakable sins that I've committed and..."
He was aware of the things he was doing. It's rather self-explanatory.
"I've made mistakes, but I'll find my way. No explanation for the things I've failed at before. They can't hold my hand."
He has no excuses. Also, he feels like even though the people that care about him are trying to point him in the right direction, but even when you lead a horse to water you can't force them to drink.
"It just hurts to be a man, through the tortures of the damned."
It's hard to man-up to the things and people he's wronged.
"If I only had an axe, I'd sever the ties I've made with the world. Maybe, I could be a stranger in a strange place. If I start now, maybe I can be saved."
Cutting tie with all the people/places that have given him a bad reputation and maybe if he acts quickly enough he can be forgiven.
"If I only had a mask, I'd cover these bleeding eyes. They're bloodshot now, but they'll be black by dawn. If I wake up now I can be pure again."
I don't know what the whole reference to bleeding eyes is about, but by waking up he means coming back to reality.
"Look at me now, I'm on the track with my back toward the last train leaving town."
Refusing to run away from his problems.
thats all i have to say. x
But I'll find my way"
I could've sworn that he said "but I'll find my wings".
I'd cover these bleeding eyes"
That part is so beautiful!!!!!!
I agree with what everyone else about the song. Definetly about fucking up and drinking and seeing your life fall to pieces.
"Look at me now I'm on the tracks with my back
Towards the last train leaving town "
Love It!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Woo! go Bayside!
"I hate myself more than I ever let on
I'm burnt out at 22
I have lived too fast
And I loved too much
And I'll die too young
But I chose this cup that I drank from
Knew what I was getting into
But I couldn't let out what I had to keep in
I'm ashamed of myself
And unspeakable sins that I committed and..."
In the movie, the main character commits horrible acts of evil, but eventually is tricked into feeling guilty about the things he did. There is a scene in the movie where he drinks a cup, even though he felt "...that any second something terrible is going to happen to..." him.
"I've made mistakes
But I'll find my way
There's no explaination for
The things I've failed at before
They can't hold my hand"
He feels lost and hopeless, nauseated and confused. People try to control him and gang up on him, and in a way, he deserves it. Underneath that evil exterior lies a naive boy who does not understand that he is being manipulated to be good. The goodness does not come from within him.
"It just hurts to be a man
Through the tortures of the damned
Of the damned..."
He is hurting because of the way he is forced into feeling about his actions. In one of the hospital scenes he says, "I've suffered the tortures of the damned, sir."
"If I only had an axe
I'd sever the ties I've made with the world
Maybe I could be a stranger in a strange place
If I start now maybe I can be saved
If I only had a mask
I'd cover these bleeding eyes
They're bloodshot now, but they'll be black by dawn
If I wake up now I can be pure again"
When he is in "a concentration camp," they force him to watch the things he did in the form of a movie. His eyes held open by tools so they cannot close. When watching his crimes, he becomes violently sick because of the drugs being injected into him. He does not want to see them anymore, nor does he enjoy the song he once loved to hear so much.
"Look at me now I'm on the tracks with my back
Towards the last train leaving town "
I think this might symbolize the moment when he wants to leave the world. The moment when he jumps out the window, because in that moment, he feels so helpless, so hopeless.
Bayside is an awesome band!
My favorite band!
Rock on Bayside!