I'm so tired of the stupid games you play
If I sat outside would you come watch me wait?
If I had a gun and shot it at your face?
Would you promise not to get out of the way?
If you happen to be able to avoid
My first attack I'll put a knife against your throat
And cut an inch for every time I lost my self-control
When you made me do the things I did at night when I got home

But I thought you'd change, and realize that today(Today)
(Evelyn) (I know you lied) I'd tell you that I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin you to leave here now, beggin you to stay away from me,
(I know you lied) I'd tell you that I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin you to leave me now, beggin you to die painfully(to die painfully)

This brings us to the backup of my plan,
Maybe I'll just have to strangle you with my bare hands,
Then you'll have to adhere to my demands,
And occupy a shallow grave, as shallow as you are

But I thought they'd change, and things just stay the same,
(Evelyn) (I know you lied) I'd tell you that I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin you to leave here now, beggin you to stay away from me,
(I know you lied) I'd tell you that I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin you to leave me now, beggin you to die

Sometimes intent leads, leads to stagnance,
And stagnance, leads to contempt, contempt leads to,
The present

Sometimes intent leads, leads to stagnance,
And stagnance, leads to contempt, contempt leads to,
The present

But I thought you'd change, and realize that today(Today)
(Evelyn) (I know you lied) I'd tell you that I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin you to leave here now, beggin you to stay away from me,
(I know you lied) I'd tell you that I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin you to leave me now, beggin you to die painfully

(Evelyn) (I know you lied) I'd tell you that I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin you to leave here now, beggin you to stay away from me

(Evelyn) (I know you lied) I'd tell you that I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin you to leave here now, beggin you to stay away from me


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Existing in a Crisis (Evelyn) Lyrics as written by Jack A O'shea Anthony S Raneri

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    im pretty sure this song is about the end of a relationship in which the girl got famous for being "the girl that bayside wrote all thier songs about"

    i am parker lewison August 24, 2005   Link
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    This could be one of their greatest songs. No, wait, it is one of their best

    nytemunkeyon December 05, 2005   Link
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    These guys write some incredible songs, this being one of them. They always put a really dark spiteful spin on things which is what I really love about them.

    insomnatic_meaton January 02, 2006   Link
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    i totally agree with insomnatic meat. everything they sing is simply depressing but desiring.

    madde2333on May 07, 2006   Link
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    i love this song only thing is my name is evelyn so its also kinda sad :( but still a great song :)

    takingoverme248on May 31, 2006   Link
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    I'll use the same line twice... I wouldn't know the guy from Bayside if he kicked me in the balls, let alone recognize his girlfriend. How do you get fame from becoming the guy from Bayside's girlfriend!?!

    Foundation4lifeon October 27, 2006   Link
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    i think this song is about getting back at someone who used you for sex

    idk, but its one of my favs by them. i love the first verse the most, too

    yallRstupidon December 03, 2006   Link
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    Foundation4life, he's not saying this girl is like a world famous celebrity, he's just saying he gave her a name in their circle. Her relationship with him "put her on the map".

    "And occupy a shallow grave, as shallow as you are" Best line in this song. There's also something about the way his voice sounds in this verse, that's just so full of emotion.

    isaculton January 08, 2007   Link
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    If I had a gun and shot it at your face Would you promise not to get out of the way? If you happen to be able to avoid My first attack I'll put a knife against your throat and cut an inch for every time I lost my self-control

    my favorite part of the song, my favorite bayside song

    lovesongs666on January 15, 2007   Link
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    personally, i think this song is about a girl that cheated on a guy, and it kills him. he wants absoluley nothign to do with her. "(Evelyn) (I know you lied) I'll tell you that I'm alive for the first time and I'm beggin you to leave here now, beggin you to stay away from me " i think the part where he is talking about being he means that how he feels now that he knows the truth and he doenst have to worry about her. Thats what i believe personally.

    dadrummer3007on January 18, 2007   Link

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