Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable like nothing could go wrong

Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

[Chorus]
Here I am
Once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it
Can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright for once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together but so broken up inside

'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

[Chorus]

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Just seeing you, it kills me now
Now I don't cry
On the outside, anymore!

[Chorus: x2]



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"Behind These Hazel Eyes" as written by Kelly/gottwald Clarkson

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    General Comment:This is a true song about Clarkson's ex boyfriend, who broke up with her and got married a month later. The song is about being hurt by someone you were once close to.
    Flag musicrocks13on November 10, 2012   Link
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    My Opinion:I know this is a love song, but it sounds like my relationship with my mother. >_<
    The first part - My mommy was everything to me. My best friend, an ally, essentially the only one nearby I could really talk to. We'd have a little while where we'd just cuddle and speak, maybe write a poem together, and I hoped this would be it forever. But it's not at the moment. <_>
    The chorus - After a bit of our fighting, we tried again, it just... Didn't work. I can't stand to be in the same space as her, and I think she feels it, too. I have no dad, so.. I really have nobody at the moment. and I do cry on the inside and wish we could make it better..Trying isn't working.
    The next - I did tell her EVERYTHING. "This happened today, and..yada yada yada.." and of all the other things, it was pretty nice just being able to Talk. But now I just.. Act like I'm okay around her, be strong about it, but I'm broken.
    Next - We used to fight a TON. Every minute, just a Raaage. And I really do blame myself for hating her, and for our little mess of a situation. >_<
    So that's my little bit of this song. If anyone wonders, I'm in fact a growing teenage girl (So above seems less creepy.)
    Flag FaerenRoseon August 30, 2012   Link
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    Song Meaning:This song is amazing... I can definitely relate to it...

    The first part says that she was in love with this guy, and that she thought they were going to last forever until he broke her heart even though she was confident with the relationship.
    I love the chorus... it's so deep, it's just kind of put out there that she can't deny that she was taken by surprise and that she's taking it badly because she thought he was "the one"; and that he won't get to see the tears she cries because of how he hurt her. The next stanza says that she told this guy everything, she was open-minded and felt good with him. On the outside she's smiling but on the inside she is a mess. The next part, "swallow me then spit me out" is kind of odd. I look at it as kind of an idiom, meaning he made her think that he loved her and brought her into this relationship, then just hurt her and left her there, and that next part, "for hating you I blame myself" suggests that she is still in love and isn't over him. So yeah, that's what I think.

    Great song :)
    Flag katzilla315on February 20, 2012   Link
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    General Comment:P.S. I wish I had hazel eyes, but my blue eyes are my favorite thing about me.
    Flag oceanheart13on July 26, 2010   Link
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    General Comment:I think that Kelley is singing about how her bf betrayed her, and she is "torn into peices" but some part of her still loves him. Has anyone thought about the eyes part? I've heard that a person's soul is in their eyes, and maybe shes referring to how he shook her right down to her soul. her whole being crys out with longing, hate, and sorrow. all of these feelings mixed together are pretty powerful, and that is expressed in how she sings the song.
    Flag oceanheart13on July 25, 2010   Link
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    General Comment:I wish people would stop trying to categorise artists like this. A pop singer can do a dark, heavy song and a rock band can do a mellow, slow song.

    To me, it sounds like she changed herself to satisfy this boy she really admired. Then at some point it fell apart - maybe he abused her, maybe he cheated on her, we don't know for sure. But at some point she's had a revelation - that she's the one who was giving everything to be with him, and he obviously did not hold her in the same regard. She "blames herself" for hating him, because she was blinded by love, letting him get away with however he was treating her. But she's holding on to her dignity - she won't let him see how he's devastated her.
    Flag davydaveon February 08, 2010   Link
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    General Comment:The person in the song isn't getting over some guy. She's still deeply in love with him and hates herself for it.
    Flag TashaFlint12on June 17, 2009   Link
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    General Comment:This song sort of makes me think of my first boy friend. We started off as best friends and I had this massive crush on him. I remember I use to make friends with all the girls he dated because I was jealous and wanted to be closer to him. Anyway I was so happy when we started dating even though it was for a short time and he messed up with me so bad. He ended it in the most shallow way, even if that wasn't what he intended. That was almost two years ago and I still have trouble getting over the month long relationship. It was so short and meaningless and when I think about it enough I get mad at him but in the end I'm really just mad at myself. I wanted him so bad and once I finally got him that was all taken away in one second. He made me happy, he still does make me happy. But even now I still cry when I think about the night he broke up with me. I never let on that it hurt me, I always smiled and said "No, it's fine. I'm not mad, it's all okay." It wasn't okay, at first I laughed it off because he sent it to me over a myspace comment and my cousin was right there, she knew how much I liked him. I pretended that I was even happy about it but when night came and all the lights went out, I began to cry. I cried so hard and I wanted to crawl into my cousin's bed and let her comfort me but she was asleep, everyone was asleep but me, I've never felt so alone in my life then I did that whole night I stayed up. And so now I can't let myself get close to guys like that and I can't like them that way either because I just don't trust not only them but myself. I'm still hurting because of that first relationship and I don't want to go through that again. Which is weak but w/e that is what this song makes me think of especially since I have hazel eyes.
    Flag MusicJunkie94on May 10, 2009   Link
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    General Comment:Exactly how I feel---besides that my eyes aren't hazel :P
    Flag BrokenHeartedVampon April 24, 2009   Link
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    General Comment:Kelly Clarkson has been since she came out, is now, and probably always will be the best female vocalist EVER. Nobody compares...not even close. The only good thing to ever come out of American Idol other than Carrie Underwood and Josh Gracin. Still, Kelly beats the hell out of them as well as anyone else out there, vocally.
    Flag sgninaemgnoson February 20, 2009   Link

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