Relient K – Who I Am Hates Who I've Been

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  My Opinion:I have been in love with a girl for over a year now, but I never had the courage to tell her.
  This song perfectly illustrates how I feel right now about that.

  Flag jerodevon December 10, 2011   Link

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  General Comment:I am a former drug addict and to me, that's what this song is about. I used crystal meth for 2yrs and I listen to this song when I want to relapse because it makes me realize it's not worth it.
  
  Let me break it down and describe what each part means to me specifically.
  
  The very beginning I'm not sure about but...
  
  "You might think I'm losing my mind, but I will shy away from the specifics":
  I met a guy while I was trying to quit for whom I had strong feelings. I was scared to be specific about my drug use. I didn't want to scare him off.
  
  "'Cause I don't want you to know where I am, 'cause then you'll see my heart in the saddest state it's ever been.":
  I was in a very bad place and I didn't want him to see how bad I was.
  
  "Prechorus":
  He was doing adderall at the time, and I was so afraid he would get into crystal.
  
  "Chorus":
  An apology to everyone I hurt with my drug use.
  
  "I talked to absolutely no one. Couldn't keep to myself enough. And the things bottled inside had finally begun to create so much pressure that I'd soon blow up.":
  A lot of people keep their drug use a secret. Like I did. It just kept building up to the point where I felt I was going to explode if I didn't quit what I was doing and let people know why I had been the way I was.
  
  "I heard the reverberating footsteps synching up to the beating of my heart. And I was positive that unless I got myself together I would watch me fall apart.":
  When you do crystal, your heart beats very fast. This literally happened to me at one point. My heartbeat would synch up to things such as footsteps. And it scared me so badly that I knew if I dind't quit, I would fall apart.
  
  
  I hope this helped some people, and I urge anyone struggling with what I struggled with to get help, if not from a professional, at least from a friend. =]

  Flag ILoveMyGiraffeon August 29, 2011   Link

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    She could very well be on K. I've never even seen the video. That interpretations is just what it means to me specifically. Not necessarily what it meant to the person who wrote it.

    Flag ILoveMyGiraffeon August 29, 2011  
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  General Comment:i've never heard the actual song but the lyrics are nice

  Flag veronica_roseon November 06, 2009   Link

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  General Comment:Wow I love how you all are debating over all the meanings of this song!!! I love this song and ReliantK!!! I also like Sadie Hawkins Dance, it has no spiritual significance but i love it anyway!!!!!

  Flag BJgirlon April 17, 2009   Link

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  General Comment:this song is about mistakes the person made and realizing how stupid it was for them to act like that.
  i can relate to it right now. i was being stupid with this guy last night and i'm surprised he's giving me the time of day to still talk to me.
  really, it's just like someone taking over you and losing complete control over the real you. it's kinda like being paranoid about something.
  and when you are too busy thinking about "what if's" and acting out on them, you don't get to realize what you really did have in the first place and how much people care about you.
  i believe this song has a bit of that into it too.
  

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  General Comment:"I talked to absolutely no one. Couldn't keep to myself enough and the things bottled inside have finally begun to create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up and I heard the reverberating footsteps synching up to the beating of my heart. And I was positive that unless I got myself together I would watch me fall apart."
  
  This song is the tragedy of finding out that you hate yourself.
  
  I was always the lone wolf and I was absolutely fine with it. I talked to absolutely no one and I didn't care. I kept it all bottled in, but then it made me suicidal and dangerous. Following that I went away and finally broke out of my cage and lived for the first time. I found home. I returned a semi-changed man and continued to slightly change along the way. My cousin dying was the final push, I looked back on my life and found out that I hated myself and it was a really tragic and depressing discovery. I mean, it's not something easy to find out that you really truly hate yourself and you're not just saying it - you actually mean it. I'm starting to put myself back together to the way I used to be because I used to be the lone wolf, trying to repair my heart over years of tragedy. I also pushed some of my friends away or pushed people away unconsciously due to being in a constant down funk. Who I am hates who I've been. I realized if I didn't change, and I'm changing, that I would explode. Being the loner got me on the edge of suicide. Then I was freed. That song is really what it sounds like it is: a lone wolf who finds out how that he made a mistake and is going to finally go out amongst the world of the living.

  Flag ajMinn5339on March 07, 2009   Link

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    It is not about that! It's about when you do something u shouldnt have. Take me for instance! This is my THEME song! I had a stealing streak a few years ago. I told my parents, one of the people that i stole from (i didnt know the rest), and God.
    
    "I'm sorry for the person I became..." and you can read the rest.
    
    It's about screwing up, and feeling sorry for that screw up. Who I am (a changed man/woman) hates who ive been (a screw up ((lol)))

    Flag relientkaylaon October 15, 2009  
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  General Comment:This song is seriously got some GREAT GAWD DAMN MEANING!
  means alot to my life i wish i listened to it ages go! =D

  Flag Daughter.of.Darknesson January 25, 2009   Link

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  General Comment:This song is seriously got some GREAT GAWD DAMN MEANING!
  means alot to my life i wish i listened to it ages go! =D

  Flag Daughter.of.Darknesson January 25, 2009   Link

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  General Comment:i absulutely love this song!!!!!!!!!! i listen to it every morning :) its tiggerific :))

  Flag davidlover95on January 19, 2009   Link

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  General Comment:this song has so much to it. So mush interpretation its crazy!
  but, i have known every word to this song for about 3 years now and i just came upon this:
  
  This song, to me, addresses the issue with the fact that we try hide our sin from each other and from God.
  
  "I will shy away from the specifics"
  "Cause I don't want you to know where I am"
  "I talked to absolutely no one
  Couldn't keep to myself enough"
  
  But more than anything we have to be accountable towards each other and be able to seek help with a struggle instead of hiding. Also, we can't hide our sin from God.
  And this song implies that some.
  
  

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