So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
She seems dressed in all of me
Stretched across my shame
All the torment and the pain
Leaked through and covered me
I'd do anything to have her to myself
Just to have her for myself
Now I don't know what to do
I don't know what to do
When she makes me sad
She is everything to me
The unrequited dream
A song that no one sings
The unattainable
She's a myth that I have to believe in
All I need to make it real is one more reason
I don't know what to do
I don't know what to do
When she makes me sad
But I won't let this build up inside of me
But I won't let this build up inside of me
But I won't let this build up inside of me
But I won't let this build up inside of me
I catch in my throat
Choke
Torn into pieces
I won't, no
I don't want to be this
But I won't let this build up inside of me
(Won't let this build up inside of me)
I won't let this build up inside of me
(Won't let this build up inside of me)
I won't let this build up inside of me
(Won't let this build up inside of me)
I won't let this build up inside of me
(Won't let this build up inside of me, won't let this build up inside of me)
She isn't real
(Won't let this build up inside of me)
I can't make her real
(Won't let this build up inside of me)
She isn't real
(Won't let this build up inside of me)
I can't make her real
(Won't let this build up inside of me)
Stretched across my shame
All the torment and the pain
Leaked through and covered me
I'd do anything to have her to myself
Just to have her for myself
Now I don't know what to do
I don't know what to do
When she makes me sad
She is everything to me
The unrequited dream
A song that no one sings
The unattainable
She's a myth that I have to believe in
All I need to make it real is one more reason
I don't know what to do
I don't know what to do
When she makes me sad
But I won't let this build up inside of me
But I won't let this build up inside of me
But I won't let this build up inside of me
But I won't let this build up inside of me
I catch in my throat
Choke
Torn into pieces
I won't, no
I don't want to be this
But I won't let this build up inside of me
(Won't let this build up inside of me)
I won't let this build up inside of me
(Won't let this build up inside of me)
I won't let this build up inside of me
(Won't let this build up inside of me)
I won't let this build up inside of me
(Won't let this build up inside of me, won't let this build up inside of me)
She isn't real
(Won't let this build up inside of me)
I can't make her real
(Won't let this build up inside of me)
She isn't real
(Won't let this build up inside of me)
I can't make her real
(Won't let this build up inside of me)
Lyrics submitted by Incarnate, edited by satanisme40
Vermilion, Pt. 2 Lyrics as written by Christopher Fehn Chris Fehn
Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
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i love how this music video doesn't have some ten year old girl in it as that's clearly what its about I mean who ever sings about wanting to fuck a child when they could literally get any women on this planet except celebrities i always thought it was and she makes me sing but sin yeah i do that allot