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Blind me, erased what was
Stillborn I have become
The feelings I once felt are now dead and gone
I've waited here for you for so very long
So empty, just a shell of a man
Stillborn, this I understand
The feelings I once felt are now dead and gone
I've waited here for you for so very long
Stillborn I have become
The feelings I once felt are now dead and gone
I've waited here for you for so very long
So empty, just a shell of a man
Stillborn, this I understand
The feelings I once felt are now dead and gone
I've waited here for you for so very long
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Even so, however, it behooves me to point out the somewhat surreptitious points with regard to a central figure in Christianity made in the lyrical content of this gem.
Cherubim are the angels who guard the throne of God in the Judeo-Christian tradition. There were at one point — prior to the creation of earth — five of them. One of them rebelled, and took a third of the rest of the angels in the heavens with him. Bet you can guess his illuminating name. (It means "light bearer.")
At any rate, there are now generally accepted to be four Cherubim guarding the throne of God, and it is generally accepted to be the case in the Judeo-Christian sense that the four take on the shapes of an ox, an eagle, a lion and a man. The fifth who once stood guarding the throne of God resembled a serpent, or a dragon. (He no longer has legs now, btw.) These five Cherubim made up the points of the pentacle in the center of which rests the Divine, and which, when turned upside down, form the symbol of Baphomet, another name for the fallen "light bearing" Cherubim.
You can read a more in-depth description about these angelic spirits in the first chapter of the book of the Old Testament Major Prophet Ezekiel.
But let's look at the lyrics of this song and see how they also relate to the 28th chapter of that same Old Testament book.
In addition to appearing as the aforementioned creatures, see, Cherubim have also in the Roman Catholic Church been described as having the faces of infant men. (Think of Van Halen's 1984 LP cover.) They are beautiful, yet strangely horrific creatures.
Regarding the Cherubim who fell from grace, the Prophet Ezekiel says of him in 28:14-15 that:
"Thou art the anointed cherub that covereth, and I have set thee so thou wast upon the holy mountain of God, thou hast walked up and down in the midst of the stones of fire.
Thou wast perfect in all thy ways from the day that thou wast created, till iniquity was found in thee."
Now think about this "light-bearing" Cherubim who is now spiritually dead, or blinded to the divinity of the grace of the only one he ever truly loved — or STILLBORN — as he is mentioned by Zakk in this song:
"Blind me, erased what was
Stillborn I have become
The feelings I once felt are now dead and gone
I've waited here for you for so very long
So empty, just a shell of a man
Stillborn, this I understand
The feelings I once felt are now dead and gone
I've waited here for you for so very long"
This passage also reflects the line of primogeniture and history of the relationship between the spirits and man found in the Qu'ran, which tells us the name of the fallen Cherubim is Iblis.
In the Islamic tradition, Iblis was given charge over the earth (where he was, as is illustrated in the song, waiting here for God "... for so very long"). But when God (Allah) told this "light-bearing" Cherubim to bow before His new cretin of a spirit called man, the light-bearer would not do it, as he loved only God and as such, could bow to none other than Him.
He is now and has long since been a blinded, spiritually-dead being.
"So empty just a shell of a man.
Stillborn, this I understand.
The feelings I once felt are now dead and gone.
I've waited here for you for so very long."
But just because he is spiritually-dead does not mean he no longer exists, this "light-bearing" spirit, as it is said of him in the Book of Revelation 17:8 that:
"The beast that ... was, and is not, and yet is."
What does this mean?
When Moses saw God in the story of the burning bush (Exodus ch. 3), God revealed His name to Moses as "I Am That I Am."
If this "light-bearing" fallen Cherubim who once (in the Judeo-Christian tradition) exalted himself above the throne of God as it's told to us in Isaiah 14:12-23 is spiritually dead, IS he, or WAS he?!?
The fallen "light-bearing" Cherubim WAS: he once was alive in the presence of God, his only true love.
He IS NOT: he has been in the eyes of his Creator a zombified, dead spirit since having been kicked out of heaven millenia ago.
And he YET IS: spiritually dead though he may be, this Divinely-anointed, horrifically-beautiful fallen Cherubim, he yet does have charge over this earthly plane.
How else to explain all the pain, sorrow, hunger, death and destruction manifest in our world every waking second?
I'm certainly not Zakk Wylde, so I can't say this interpretation is what he meant. But I love the guy. And I'm reasonably sure that he is in fact a Christian. A very astute Christian who is keenly aware of demonology more than many other professed ones are, as this song stands as an evidentiary exemplification. A testament.
So let me be tersely precise here: this song is not praising Lucifer (the "light-bearing" fallen Cherubim); it is merely a personna imagining how the beast might think — dangerous be that as it may.
Anyway, that's how I interpret what Zakk's trying to tell us here. God bless.
they were in the recording studio when Zakk decided he wanted to add another song to the list so that night he left and he and the drummer sat around and "threw some shit that sounded good, together" he said it took them 20 minutes to put the wholeguitar and drum part together. then they just sdded some lyrics.
there was no REAL meaning to this song.
all this came from an interview saw on a dvd form guitar world.
so thats the real meaning to the song.
a guy (or girl) who has waited "so very long" for that special person that he becomes empty and without any feeling related to love...
sounds corny, but thats how i feel the song.........
they were in the recording studio when Zakk decided he wanted to add another song to the list so that night he left and he and the drummer sat around and "threw some shit that sounded good, together" he said it took them 20 minutes to put the wholeguitar and drum part together. then they just sdded some lyrics.
there was no REAL meaning to this song.
all this came from an interview saw on a dvd form guitar world.
so thats the real meaning to the song.
Giving up, no longer having the patience to wait it out, for what eve, love...anything really, and in the process feeling as if you have died or at least a piece of you.