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This could be the very minute
I'm aware I'm alive
All these places feel like home
With a name I'd never chosen
I can make my first steps
As a child of 25
This is the straw, final straw
In the roof of my mouth as I lie to you
Just because I'm sorry doesn't mean
I didn't enjoy it at the time
You're the only thing that I love
It scares me more every day
On my knees I think clearer
Goodness knows I saw it coming
Or at least I'll claim I did
But in truth I'm lost for words
What have I done? It's too late for that
What have I become? Truth is nothing yet
A simple mistake starts the hardest time
I promise I'll do anything you ask this time
I'm aware I'm alive
All these places feel like home
With a name I'd never chosen
I can make my first steps
As a child of 25
This is the straw, final straw
In the roof of my mouth as I lie to you
Just because I'm sorry doesn't mean
I didn't enjoy it at the time
You're the only thing that I love
It scares me more every day
On my knees I think clearer
Goodness knows I saw it coming
Or at least I'll claim I did
But in truth I'm lost for words
What have I done? It's too late for that
What have I become? Truth is nothing yet
A simple mistake starts the hardest time
I promise I'll do anything you ask this time
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"This could be the very minute
I'm aware I'm alive
All these places feel like home"
This sounds like the author is approaching his enlightenment. In my reading and limited experience, it is a feeling of great awareness and at-home-ness.
"With a name I'd never chosen
I can make my first steps
As a child of 25"
Many spiritual traditions talk about some phenomenon of rebirth -- a new beginning -- upon the moment of spiritual blossoming. Old patterns are cut asunder and an new personality, influenced by past experience but never bound by it -- emerges. Many people are given a new name by their Guru at this time.
"This is the straw, final straw
In the roof of my mouth as I lie to you
Just because I'm sorry doesn't mean
I didn't enjoy it at the time"
The last two lines of this stanza describe a general type of sin to me. There are some mistakes we make that we already know are really wrong -- these types of sins can even feel bad at the time. But then there's certain sins that we make which are at the cusp of our existential realization -- such sins we don't honestly understand at the moment, but only truly regret later once they come back to bite us. I feel, anyway.
"You're the only thing that I love
It scares me more every day
On my knees I think clearer"
I believe that that the first line here describes God or the spiritual Master. Once we advance on the path, I feel we begin to see Him/Her in everything. Love and fear are both emotions emanating from the heart chakra. That would explain why love can be so scary sometimes -- when we pursue love, life forces us to confront all our fears. It's not that we're scared of the warm, fuzzy feeling itself -- that would make no sense -- we're just scared of where it will lead us. The last line, I think, is pretty clear. Praying lets him transcend the intellect and access a wiser, bigger consciousness.
"Goodness knows I saw it coming
Or at least I'll claim I did
But in truth I'm lost for words"
Again the sages and my own limited experience tells me that words aren't sufficient to describe enlightenment. No matter how beautifully someone who knows speaks to one about it, one is totally awestruck when one gets a taste of it. We may have some intuitions about it beforehand, but the phenomenon hits us like a ton of bricks anyway.
"What have I done? It's too late for that"
This sounds to me like the speaker has erred, but the situation has changed to where that error is no longer easily rectifiable.
"What have I become? Truth is nothing yet"
One perspective is that you're either fully enlightened and safe from a spiritual fall or you're not. As long as one hasn't reached the goal, there's always a chance of suffering again.
"A simple mistake starts the hardest time"
The way I see it, it's not that the mistake is simple. It's just that at the time, we don't feel it's a big deal -- like one drink leads to two, leads to five, leads to a car wreck and serious health problems or injuring other people. Every action, positive or negative, brings consequences -- like Newton's laws applied to spirituality. Even then the Divine is very forgiving -- it usually gives us plenty of chances to repent and change on our own. But when we don't, it gives us the stick (punishment) so that we have to grow.
"I promise I'll do anything you ask this time"
It sounds to me like this experience has brought some sincerity in the speaker. Now that his window for righteous action has closed, he is counting the seconds until he gets his chance to redeem himself.
I'm aware I'm alive
All these places feel like home
With a name I'd never chosen
I can make my first steps
As a child of 25
This is the straw, final straw in the
Roof of my mouth as I lie to you
Just because I'm sorry doesn't mean
I didn't enjoy it at the time
You're the only thing that I love
It scares me more every day
On my knees I think clearer
Goodness knows I saw it coming
Or at least I'll claim I did
But in truth I'm lost for words
What have I done it's too late for that
What have I become truth is nothing yet
A simple mistake starts the hardest time
I promise I'll do anything you ask...this time
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Here's to you, Brazil ! Sure hope it was worth it.
he compares the need to act against what a person knows is right to the temptation of chocolate.
just because someone feels guilt after a deed doesn't mean they regret it, because it doesn't mean they didn't "enjoy it at the time"
lying is like chocolate, you know you'll feel bad for doing it (or eating too much of it) after but you still do it.
Next verse is about how he is regretting all the dumb things he did as a kid, but he can't help but remember how fun it was at the time.
The final verse is him accepting his Punishments for those dumb things, but he still wants something, so he's promising whoever is punishing him that he'll do anything they ask if they do this for him.
Not one of my deeper interpretations, but it's the best I got
"Often, his lyrics criticize himself. He has cited "Chocolate" as an example, which he wrote after cheating on his girlfriend. He also considers writing a sort of "therapy" for himself.[14]"