A brain that never stops ticking
Sometimes an on-off switch would sure come in handy
A mind that's constantly cutting up
And dissecting
Looking for answers
Committing murders along the way

Is it the red wire or the blue wire
Just pick one and cut
It just doesn't matter anymore
Or did it ever
Cause I could never control when the bomb would explode
Oh god I love you
I mean forever
I left my body behind to break the news
Looks like it's over
Please remember all of the things I never got a chance to say
Like you look smashing
In your fourth grade picture
The one that we hung by the door
In our house that was so beautiful
There in our little home

If this medication upsets your stomach
Take it with crackers bread or a small meal
We understand it won't do shit towards the cure
But if you buy this I promise
You're gonna like the way it makes you feel

Is it the red wire or the blue wire
Just pick one and cut it just doesn't matter anymore
Or did it ever
Cause I could never control when the bomb would explode
Oh god I love you
I mean forever
I left my body behind to break the news
Looks like it's over
Please remember all of the things I never got a chance to say
Like you look smashing
In your fourth grade picture
The one that we hung by the door
In our house that was so beautiful
There in our little home



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Track duration: 02:55

"Suicide Medicine" as written by Rocky Votolato

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    Song Meaning:This is what this song means

    A brain that never stops ticking
    Sometimes an on-off switch would sure come in handy
    A mind that's constantly cutting up and dissecting
    Looking for answers, committing murders along the way

    (This person cannot stop thinking about what has happened, and he wishes he could have a break from it. He constantly breaks down the situation in his mind to try and find an answer to why it has all gone so bad and he would do anything to find the answer. Only then can he be at pease.)

    Is it the red wire or the blue wire?
    Just pick one and cut
    It just doesn't matter anymore
    Or did it ever?
    'Cause I could never control when the bomb would explode

    (He wants to do the right thing to stop from fighting, but he is at the point where he feals like no matter what he did he can and never could stop it. It was never in his control.)

    Oh god I love you
    I mean forever
    I left my body behind to break the news
    Looks like it's over

    (He loves her and he means it. Real love is never ending and so is his for her. He could not stop loving her. Insted of trying to move on from her, he killed himself as the only way to stop loving her.)

    Please remember all of the things I never got a chance to say
    Like you look smashing in your fourth grade picture
    The one that we hung by the door
    In our house that was so beautiful
    Yeah, here in our little home

    (He knows he made mistacks, that he did not say or do everything he should have or wanted to. He even gives an example. He wants her to know that he intened for things to be better like how perfect their little home was or seemed.)

    If this medication upsets your stomach
    Take it with crackers, bread, or a small meal
    We understand it won't do shit towards a cure
    But if you buy this, I promise you're gonna like the way it makes you feel

    (This is him expressing frustration in the fact that nothing the doctors gave him could ever fix the problem, only mask it. Even then it still had side effects)

    Our little home
    Nobody knows
    Our little home
    Nobody knows what goes on
    Our little home

    (They hid how bad things were and he still did even after the fact. They made it seem so nice from the outside, but on the inside their relationship was dieing. Now she is gone he is left dead hidden inside the same walls that hid their bad relationship.)
    Flag twanicusson June 21, 2011   Link
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    General Comment:it could be about someome getting cancer. my friends mom just died from cancer. and the words kinda remind me of that. and

    If this medication upsets your stomach
    Take it with crackers, bread, or a small meal
    We understand it won't do shit towards a cure
    But if you buy this, I promise you're gonna like the way it makes you feel

    it sounds like it could be saying "your going to die, but we're going to do all we can to make you comfortable".
    Flag JaclynWeitzelon August 17, 2010   Link
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    General Comment:this songs sounds like its about drugs and suicide, but it sounds happy all at once! He's like oh god i love you i mean forever. like how could that be a song about suicide!!!!! its so cute. i love it. <3
    Flag JaclynWeitzelon August 17, 2010   Link
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    General Comment:"When I saw Rocky in NYC back in November, before playing this song, he said it was written about his father-in-law's suicide. It makes sense."

    if you take it as in his father in law's perspective it makes a lot of sense. like a father's love for his daughter. i see it like a suicide note
    Flag shannonsays31on November 27, 2009   Link
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    General Comment:god this song has a lot of memories attached to it
    Flag maozedongon May 08, 2009   Link
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    General Comment:I think we all take away a different meaning in songs given our own experiences... With that said, to me, this song is about the failure of a relationship. I say this for a couple reasons:

    I believe the character in the song spends their days contemplating what he or she is doing wrong in the relationship and/or why the relationship is ultimately failing thus the opening line "A brain that never stops ticking, Sometimes an on-off switch would sure come in handy. A mind that's constantly cutting up and dissecting, Looking for answers..." By constantly analyzing the situation, he/she is essentially killing themselves with trying to figure out why things have turned so terribly when they once were so great... Now I don't mean the character is killing themselves in a literal sense, but in a figurtive one. So when he says "is it the red wire, or the blue wire? just pick one - cut, it just doesn't matter anymore" - the character is saying, there could be a number of reasons as to why the relationship that was once so wonderful has now fallen from grace. Moreover, at this point the character in the song is saying, it doesn't matter what the reasons are, all that matters is if they stay in the realtionship, they are only going to hurt more than if they were to just end it.

    The character however knows that this decision to end it all (the relationship) is going to hurt so badly but knows it must be done. The character seems to be deeply, deeply in love with the other person, but knows that that's not enough anymore. Thus why the song then says "I left my body behind to break the news" - it's like the character couldn't confront the person face to face because of how bad it would hurt in doing so, so they have basically shut themselves off and are trying their best to numb themselves to the whole situation in order to move on.

    Furthermore, the second verse is basically saying that one can temporarily make themselves feel better, but that feeling won't last. The character is basically saying: 'sure, the relationship may have it's good days here and there, but ultimately, there is nothing left.' So when Rocky says "take it with crackers, bread, or a small meal" - he's mainly saying, try and cover it up with the thoughts of when the relationship was better, when things worked, or on the off-days when things are all right... However, despite it all, those days don't last forever anymore, and eventually you'll end up falling right back into the pattern of hurt and sadness all over.
    Flag Reano85on January 22, 2009   Link
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    General Comment:i believe that the character in the song (or maybe rocky, himself)is bi-polar.
    couple things that give me that thought:

    "Is it the red wire or the blue wire?
    Just pick one and cut
    It just doesn't matter anymore
    Or did it ever?
    'Cause I could never control when the bomb would explode"

    i hear that part and think that it doesn't matter what he does to try and fix this problem he has, because he can't tell when he is going to become depressed (or explode) and if you are bi-polar, you cannot tell when your mood is going to change.

    secondly:
    "If this medication upsets your stomach
    Take it with crackers, bread, or a small meal
    We understand it won't do shit towards a cure
    But if you buy this, I promise you're gonna like the way it makes you feel"

    someone who is bi-polar is usually given lithium as a medication. but it has been proven that although it can stabilize your mood, it doesn't cure you of the disorder. and thus, it doesn't do shit for your overall problem, but it makes you feel good for a bit.


    i don't know if it's about suicide or not, but i do believe bi-polar disorder is a huge aspect of this song.


    Flag Wester13on December 13, 2008   Link
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    General Comment:im really suprised that no one put too much emphasis on the "nobody knows what goes on in our little home" i think thats what the entire song is based on.

    basically its two crazy people wanted to die, but still be together to be happy, or atleast thats what i interpret it. i think its true actual love.

    and i would say the guy commits suicide first, and then he "gives instructions" to his girlfriend, wife whatever to kill herself as well

    and the bomb is not an actual bomb. its like devastation. of him dying.

    but i looove the part "oh god i love, i mean forever" my heart melts when i hear that(:
    Flag raechel1309on December 23, 2007   Link
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    General Comment:this song makes me really sad, but its so beautiful at the same time..i love his voice when he says: 'oh god i love you, i mean forever..'
    Flag ella_wiskion November 17, 2007   Link
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    General Comment:anyone? riley?
    Flag fuckurhatemail2on November 14, 2007   Link

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