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My shadow's
Shedding skin and
I've been picking
Scabs again.
I'm down
Digging through
My old muscles
Looking for a clue.
I've been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could've been.
I've been wallowing in my own confused
And insecure delusions
For a piece to cross me over
Or a word to guide me in.
I wanna feel the changes coming down.
I wanna know what I've been hiding in
My shadow.
Change is coming through my shadow.
My shadow's shedding skin
I've been picking
My scabs again.
I've been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could've been.
I've been wallowing in my own chaotic
And insecure delusions.
I wanna feel the change consume me,
Feel the outside turning in.
I wanna feel the metamorphosis and
Cleansing I've endured within
My shadow
Change is coming.
Now is my time.
Listen to my muscle memory.
Contemplate what I've been clinging to.
Forty-six and two ahead of me.
I choose to live and to
Grow, take and give and to
Move, learn and love and to
Cry, kill and die and to
Be paranoid and to
Lie, hate and fear and to
Do what it takes to move through.
I choose to live and to
Lie, kill and give and to
Die, learn and love and to
Do what it takes to step through.
See my shadow changing,
Stretching up and over me.
Soften this old armor.
Hoping I can clear the way
By stepping through my shadow,
Coming out the other side.
Step into the shadow.
Forty six and two are just ahead of me.
Shedding skin and
I've been picking
Scabs again.
I'm down
Digging through
My old muscles
Looking for a clue.
I've been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could've been.
I've been wallowing in my own confused
And insecure delusions
For a piece to cross me over
Or a word to guide me in.
I wanna feel the changes coming down.
I wanna know what I've been hiding in
My shadow.
Change is coming through my shadow.
My shadow's shedding skin
I've been picking
My scabs again.
I've been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could've been.
I've been wallowing in my own chaotic
And insecure delusions.
I wanna feel the change consume me,
Feel the outside turning in.
I wanna feel the metamorphosis and
Cleansing I've endured within
My shadow
Change is coming.
Now is my time.
Listen to my muscle memory.
Contemplate what I've been clinging to.
Forty-six and two ahead of me.
I choose to live and to
Grow, take and give and to
Move, learn and love and to
Cry, kill and die and to
Be paranoid and to
Lie, hate and fear and to
Do what it takes to move through.
I choose to live and to
Lie, kill and give and to
Die, learn and love and to
Do what it takes to step through.
See my shadow changing,
Stretching up and over me.
Soften this old armor.
Hoping I can clear the way
By stepping through my shadow,
Coming out the other side.
Step into the shadow.
Forty six and two are just ahead of me.
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(Look up spirit science on youtube for more info on 46 & 2)
My shadow's
Shedding skin and [he sees himself as frayed and in a state of loss]
I've been picking
Scabs again. [He knows he has been the cause of it- doing it to himself]
I'm down [he is deeply..]
Digging through [searching his inner self]
My old muscles [of his fundamental makeup (habits/interest/hates)]
Looking for a clue. [of what is causing this]
I've been crawling on my belly [he has left nothing unexamined]
Clearing out what could've been. [busily discarding haunting what-ifs]
I've been wallowing in my own confused [everywhere he digs he finds ]
And insecure delusions [the what-ifs and lies to self that are -------------------------------------------------------------[truly not needed]
For a piece to cross me over [he hopes for an easy fix]
Or a word to guide me in. [or the guidance to fix himself]
I wanna feel the changes coming down. [he truly wants to get better]
I wanna know what I've been hiding in [and identify the hidden source of his -------------------------------------------------------------[problems]
My shadow. [he identifies his Shadow as the inner self- his ------------------------------------------------[core being, or Soul]
Change is coming through my shadow. [he knows that to fix himself he must mend his Soul.
My shadow's shedding skin [he sees that his soul is suffering]
I've been picking
My scabs again. [and that he was the cause of it all]
I've been crawling on my belly [he continues to examine himself, knowing
Clearing out what could've been. [now what he has learned]
I've been wallowing in my own chaotic
And insecure delusions.
I wanna feel the change consume me, [he knows to truly change will devour all ----------------------------------------------------------[that he was- and get rid of it]
Feel the outside turning in. [he wants his outer self to change along with ---------------------------------------------------[his inner self]
I wanna feel the metamorphosis and [he wants the change all through him]
Cleansing I've endured within [that he has started to repair in His -----------------------------------------------------------------Shadow]
My shadow
Change is coming. [its working!]
Now is my time.
Listen to my muscle memory. [in his new self construction, he looks -------------------------------------------------------------back with hindsight]
Contemplate what I've been clinging to. [on his foolish beliefs/delusions]
Forty-six and two ahead of me. [there were 46 cycles of refining the list ------------------------------------------------------------of what to keep, and 2 left to do]
I choose to live and to
Grow, take and give and to
Move, learn and love and to
Cry, kill and die and to [This is self correction #45- the aspects he has chosen to hold onto]
Be paranoid and to [There are 14 at this point]
Lie, hate and fear and to
Do what it takes to move through. [do it again (divide the list in half)]
I choose to live and to
Lie, kill and give and to [This is correction #46- the refined list of what
Die, learn and love and to [he chooses to retain in his core being. 7 left]
Do what it takes to step through. [do it again (divide the list in half)]
See my shadow changing, [see how it works?]
Stretching up and over me. [the Shadow is more whole than it has been]
Soften this old armor. [his old defenses really arent needed anymore]
Hoping I can clear the way [to finish he must FINISH]
By stepping through my shadow,[each pass through his shadow is another turn]
Coming out the other side. [what emerges is the new self/list]
Step into the shadow. [do it again-]
Forty six and two are just ahead of me.
[he has done it 46 times, and 2 more remain]
So, he has learned how to improve himself, and we are hearing if his process between the 46th and 47th repeat
He lists his previous "insecure delusions" of 14, and whittles it down to 7, keeping only those he wishes to. He must do it 2 more times, leaving him with 1.7 aspects (1 fully, another just mostly) he wishes to hold onto at the end- that which he holds MOST important in his being.
So its not anything bad, nor violent. Its just ruthless self examination and improvement, performed whenever he notices his shadow looking a little rough.
This song is about personal evolution. 46, and two to go...dude c'mon.
The song is about Jung's Psychological theory of the "Shadow."
And yes, it does have something to do with Chromosomes- Jung said that it is "One's link to more primitive animal instincts.." Humans have 46 chromosomes. Apes have 48.
46 + 2 = 48
2 Therefore will not we fear, though the earth be removed, and though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea.
My shadow's=all his feelings that cause him suffering
Shedding skin and
I've been picking
Scabs again
I'm down
Digging through
My old muscles
Looking for a clue=is trying to find out the thought prosseses from long ago that origionally caused these mental soarse.
I've been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could've been=regret,which is shame,that causes rage inside,which again,cause suffering
I've been wallowing in my own confused
And insecure delusions=he is confused cause all his life he has never been totally aware of why he is the way he is and has delusions that cause him suffering
For a piece to cross me over
Or a word to guide me in
I wanna feel the changes coming down
I wanna know what I've been hiding in=he wants to find out what he is hiding in his subconscious,that led him to this burden by using the word of buddha for a piece of mind
I wanna feel the change consume me,
Feel the outside turning in
I wanna feel the metamorphosis and
Cleansing I've endured within=when you mediditate(the right way)you discover mindfullness.which is total awareness,of everything and everone and mostly yourself.when you do this ,you will literally change who you are completely,by changing your thought prosseses.
My shadow
Change is coming
Now is my time
Listen to my muscle memory
Contemplate what I've been clinging to
Forty six and two ahead of me=ok after a certian time in your life,everone should do this,clinging is metion in buddism philosiphy a 1000 times,as to clinging to things that make him blind to the real answers to enlightenment.
I choose to live and to
Grow, take and give and to
Move, learn and love and to
Cry, kill and die and to
Be paranoid and to
Lie, hate and fear and to
Do what it takes to move through=he chooses to live and let his concious grow by taking only if he needs to and giving only when people need to be given too.all these things love,killing,crying,diing,hating,fear,are all result of feelings which are different than thoughts.he needs to seperate the 2 so he can logically think his way through life ,rather than feeling through life and letting feeling through life,which never works.
See my shadow changing,
Stretching up and over me
Soften this old armor
Hoping I can clear the way
By stepping through my shadow,
Coming out the other side
Step into the shadow
Forty six and two are just ahead of me=ok this is where he finnally accomplishes what he wants,seperating his feeling from his thoughts,which seperates his old self to his new self,46 chromosomes,which is his body,and 2 which is feeling and thought.old self and new self.
i mean really? Jungian Psychology? are you fuckin kidding me? that has to do with dreams.he isnt dreaming,he is meditating.notice that tools music changes in this album completely,into a bongo,kinda chanting,like you would here at a buddhist colony.most of this cd is about this,not all the songs,but stinkfist,46 and 2,push it,eleven and 3rd eye are all about this stuff.like i said read buddism and get back with me.or maybe a meditation book.
“The goal in psychotherapy is exactly the same as in Buddhism.” (C. G. Jung)
And read this quote from here: cco.cambridge.org/…
"C. G. Jung was the first psychoanalyst to pay close and serious attention to Buddhism and to write commentary on his own careful readings of Buddhist texts. In 1992, Meckel and Moore published a comprehensive collection of the English translations of Jung's commentaries - beginning with Jung's 1939 “Foreword” to Suzuki's Introduction to Zen Buddhism (Meckel and Moore, 1992, pp. 11-30). Jung wrote about and commented on writings from Japanese, Tibetan, and Chinese sources. Bringing in both original insights and important questions, Jung's essays formed an early backdrop for various conversations to develop between Western psychology and Buddhist practices. My own training to become a Jungian psychoanalyst began in 1979, eight years after I had formally become a student of Zen Buddhism."
Jung was arguably the most sophisticated and holistic psychoanalyst and to reduce Jungian psychoanalysis to only about dreams is an insult to Jung's powerful insight into the mind that helped Western culture integrate and adopt Eastern teachings such as Buddhism. Without Jung our Western culture likely wouldn't have moved as quickly towards current trends in eastern spirituality, Buddhism, Feng Shui, vegeterianism, homeopathy, acupuncture, yoga and meditation that began in the 60s. Jung proposed the "collective unconscious", a sort of Buddhist concept of anatman (no-self), where there is no differentiated self but instead a collecive sea of archetypes, ideas that permeated all of our subconsciousness, transcending culture.
These archetypes include the ego, the anima/animus, and the shadow (notice the Jungian connection to 46 & 2 on the album Ænima) The album name Ænima means "Soul Cleanser" as Ænima is a portmanteau of "enema", an anal cleanser and "anima" which is latin for soul/spirit/psyche (the animating principle) and is also the root for Jung's similar archetypes. The anima archetype is the female spirit within males that allow us to connect with the opposite sex. The animus archetype, is the corresponding masculine spirit within females. Anima Enema - Ænima Ænema (the song name Ænema uses similar ironic juxtaposition as the album name Ænima, instead emphasizing Enema more than Anima, emphasizing the more negative meaning of "Soul Flusher", as LA is described in soulless and spirit crushing descriptions, LA will flush your soul out like an enema and the only way to fix LA is to flush it all away along the fault line, leaving BIll Hicks fictional Arizona Bay along the coast.
There are many links to Jung on this album, most importantly, the concept of the Shadow archetype in 46 & 2. The Shadow is the opposite of your Self archetype, it is everything you don't want to associate with your idealized self, the negative part of your whole being. Jung taught that in order to attain true spiritual/mental development one must accept and recognize their true self, including the shadow. By confronting all we fear about ourselves we can move on to the next stage of evolution/enlightenment. This is why not only must "I choose to live and to grow and to take and give and to move, learn and love and to cry" which are the idealized values attributed to the Self archetype but also "Kill and die and to be paranoid and to lie, hate and fear and to do what it takes to move through" which are the Shadow attributes we must accept to move through to the next step of evolution. Once you confront your shadow you can shed your insecurities, accept yourself, change according to your insight and move to the next stage of evolution/enlightenment the ``46 and 2, just ahead of me``. 46 and 2 is a theory of evolution proposed by Drunvalo Melchizedek who wrote "The Ancient Secret of the Flower of Life" and suggested a theoretical method of evolution by progressing from our 44 and 2 chromosomes stage with 46 chromosomes to the next stage of 46 and 2 chromosomes. This is used in the song metaphorically to refer to spiritual development one reaches after one has confronted their Jungian Shadow archetype, and once one knows what they've been hiding in their shadow psyche they can grow, change, progress, increase awareness, evolve.
This song is inextricably linked to Jung and I needed to address the claim that the song is solely about Buddhism and has nothing to do with Jung as the similarities to Buddhism are an indicator of the similarities between Jung and Buddhism. It does not indicate the song is specifically about Buddhism, though the path to spiritual development in order to attain the next evolutionary step of 46 and 2 is relevant to Buddhism and other Eastern spiritual practices.