Somewhere In Between

For me, this song is basically about dealing with a problem. It could be any type of problem.

Personally, whenever I think of this song, I think of my previous relationship. I remember saying to myself 5 months ago that I will get over him and even today, I have not managed to do it. I am still halfway in and halfway out. I am still unsure and uncertain about whether letting go would be the right decision though, I should move on, considering the fact that he really does not care a bit about me anymore. He has moved on just fine and is enjoying life while I am dealing with sleepless nights. Everytime when someone mentions his name or I hear a song which reminds me of him, I just go blank for sometime and his face suddenly appears out of nowhere in my mind. Its quite irritating how something inconsequential could renew my memories of him and I just stand there dazed, trying to regain my composure. Sometimes, usually at nights, when I go to bed, I have sufficient time to introspect on life and my train of thought always reaches our time together. In my mind, I go through everything once more and its quite agonizing and pleasing at the same time. Sometimes, the sadness crashes down on me with such a might that I can't do anything but just cry. The crying has gradually ceased somewhat but I still find myself thinking of him. I really do not think the love I feel for him has diminished over time. If anything, it has increased day by day upto an excruciating degree. I am just so tired and exhausted of walking on ashes and running after something which was lost long ago. Every night, I pacify myself by repeating over and over that I will heal and am still healing. Then, when I retrospect, I find that NOTHING has changed. Its like he has an irrevocable influence over me, which I thoroughly detest. This song captures my pain beautifully. I truly do not think I could heal completely or cease loving him. It might dull with the passage of time but it won't vanish, sadly.