So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
I'm cold, I'm ugly
I'm always confused by everything
I can stare into a thousand eyes
But every smile hides a bold-faced lie
It itches, it seethes, it festers and breathes
My heroes are dead, they died in my head
Thin out the herd, squeeze out the pain
Something inside me has opened up again
Thoughts of me exemplified
All the little flaws I have denied
Forget today, forget whatever happened
Everyday I see a little more of overall deficiencies
I'm nothing short of being one complete catastrophe
What the hell did I do to deserve all of this?
What the hell did I do to deserve all of this?
I save all the bullets from ignorant minds
Your insults get stuck in my teeth as they grind
Way past good taste, on our way to bad omens
I decrease, while my symptoms increase
God what the fuck is wrong?
You act like you knew it all along
Your timing sucks, your silence is a blessing
All I ever wanted out of you was
Something you could never be
Now take a real good look at
What you've fucking done to me
What the hell did I do to deserve all of this?
What the hell did I do to deserve all of this?
(I haven't got time for living)
(I haven't got time for living)
Gimme any reason why I'd need you (boy)
Gimme any reason why I'd need you
Gimme any reason why I'd need you (boy)
Gimme any reason not to fuck you up
Gimme any reason why I'd need you (bitch)
Gimme any reason why I'd need you
Gimme any reason why I'd need you (bitch)
Gimme any reason not to fuck you up
I see you in me, I see you in me
I see you in me, I see you in me
I see you in me, I see you in me
I see you in me, I see you in me
I keep my scars from prying eyes
Incapable of ever knowing why
Somebody breathe, I've got to have an answer
Why am I so fascinated by
Bigger pictures, better things?
But I don't care what you think
You'll never understand me
What the hell did I do to deserve all of this?
What the hell did I do to deserve all of this?
What the hell did I do to deserve all of this?
What the hell did I do to deserve all of this?
Fuck (dilute, dilute)
I'm always confused by everything
I can stare into a thousand eyes
But every smile hides a bold-faced lie
It itches, it seethes, it festers and breathes
My heroes are dead, they died in my head
Thin out the herd, squeeze out the pain
Something inside me has opened up again
Thoughts of me exemplified
All the little flaws I have denied
Forget today, forget whatever happened
Everyday I see a little more of overall deficiencies
I'm nothing short of being one complete catastrophe
What the hell did I do to deserve all of this?
What the hell did I do to deserve all of this?
I save all the bullets from ignorant minds
Your insults get stuck in my teeth as they grind
Way past good taste, on our way to bad omens
I decrease, while my symptoms increase
God what the fuck is wrong?
You act like you knew it all along
Your timing sucks, your silence is a blessing
All I ever wanted out of you was
Something you could never be
Now take a real good look at
What you've fucking done to me
What the hell did I do to deserve all of this?
What the hell did I do to deserve all of this?
(I haven't got time for living)
(I haven't got time for living)
Gimme any reason why I'd need you (boy)
Gimme any reason why I'd need you
Gimme any reason why I'd need you (boy)
Gimme any reason not to fuck you up
Gimme any reason why I'd need you (bitch)
Gimme any reason why I'd need you
Gimme any reason why I'd need you (bitch)
Gimme any reason not to fuck you up
I see you in me, I see you in me
I see you in me, I see you in me
I see you in me, I see you in me
I see you in me, I see you in me
I keep my scars from prying eyes
Incapable of ever knowing why
Somebody breathe, I've got to have an answer
Why am I so fascinated by
Bigger pictures, better things?
But I don't care what you think
You'll never understand me
What the hell did I do to deserve all of this?
What the hell did I do to deserve all of this?
What the hell did I do to deserve all of this?
What the hell did I do to deserve all of this?
Fuck (dilute, dilute)
Lyrics submitted by thewhitepony33, edited by BlackAlien
Diluted Lyrics as written by Corey Taylor Christopher Fehn
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I don't know, but this song, to me, is about being tired of life. And whata hell did i do to deserve this shit world.
@I.D.i.O.T I can see how you got to that line of thought, I interpret it differently, but each to their own:)