So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
What's the difference of never knowing at all?
When every step I take is always too small
Maybe it's just something I can't admit but lately
I feel like I don't give a shit
Motivation's such an aggravation
Accusations, don't know how to take them
Inspirations, getting hard to fake it
Concentration, never hard to break it
Situation, never what you want it to be
What's the point of never making mistakes?
Self-indulgence is such a hard habit to break
It's all just a waste of time in the end
I don't care so why should I even pretend
Motivation's such an aggravation
Accusations, don't know how to take them
Inspirations, getting hard to fake it
Concentration, never hard to break it
Situation, never what you wanted
Nothing's new (everything's the same)
It keeps on dragging me down (it's getting kind of lame)
I'm falling further behind (there's nothing to explain)
No matter what you say
Nothing's gonna change my mind
Can't depend on doubt until the end
It seems like leaving friends has become this years trend
And though I can't pretend, afraid to be this way
It's not the same but who's to blame
For all those stupid things I never said?
Motivation's such an aggravation
Accusations, don't know how to take them
Inspirations, getting hard to fake it
Concentration, never hard to break it
Motivation's such an aggravation
Accusations, don't know how to take them
Inspirations, getting hard to fake it
Concentration
Situation, never what you wanted to be
Never what you want it to be
Never what you want it to be
When every step I take is always too small
Maybe it's just something I can't admit but lately
I feel like I don't give a shit
Motivation's such an aggravation
Accusations, don't know how to take them
Inspirations, getting hard to fake it
Concentration, never hard to break it
Situation, never what you want it to be
What's the point of never making mistakes?
Self-indulgence is such a hard habit to break
It's all just a waste of time in the end
I don't care so why should I even pretend
Motivation's such an aggravation
Accusations, don't know how to take them
Inspirations, getting hard to fake it
Concentration, never hard to break it
Situation, never what you wanted
Nothing's new (everything's the same)
It keeps on dragging me down (it's getting kind of lame)
I'm falling further behind (there's nothing to explain)
No matter what you say
Nothing's gonna change my mind
Can't depend on doubt until the end
It seems like leaving friends has become this years trend
And though I can't pretend, afraid to be this way
It's not the same but who's to blame
For all those stupid things I never said?
Motivation's such an aggravation
Accusations, don't know how to take them
Inspirations, getting hard to fake it
Concentration, never hard to break it
Motivation's such an aggravation
Accusations, don't know how to take them
Inspirations, getting hard to fake it
Concentration
Situation, never what you wanted to be
Never what you want it to be
Never what you want it to be
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The clip from this video looks cool