i never thought this could be me
i guess you never do until it's happening to you
like all the fun turns into shame
and all the "could have beens" rearrange
so little time so many crimes guilt like a chain chokes my will away
redemption never seemed so cruel
and all my gods never seemed so weak
wake up engage now derailed and enraged
it used to be so easy
get up i'm game now sick and i'm tame counting cost with lost
where is the hope they gave
don't think that i can't hear you laugh
i used to be a lot like you but now i'm only me
drink to pills to shots turns into shock
a habit and a pawn
for every hand goes round the pain gets so damned loud
the hammer hits and i'm down
trust no one
hey why should i they gave me the poison dressed like life
cheated smacked up and diseased cry to sleep and fight to eat
used to be a pro at this
now I've broken my own wrist
rotten teeth and life unsung you'll forget me when I'm gone
wake up engage now derailed and enraged
it used to be so easy
get up i'm game now sick and i'm tame counting cost with lost
i used to be a lot like you but now i'm only me



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    General Comment:One of the best BSF-songs indeed.

    I did an interview with Nathan once and he told me it's about someone he knows that just found out she was HIV-positive, and the effect it had on her social life and life in general.

    So the depression, and drug interpretations are also true, only the context is the sickness and the fact that it makes a paria out of you.

    grtz.
    Flag cpt eddieon May 31, 2007   Link
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    General Comment:One of the best Rock songs!!!! Fuck!!!! So good!
    Flag Chaosdaveon April 13, 2007   Link
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    General Comment:A slightly altered version of this song (starts of with 1920's style singing of some of the lyrics up until "and all the "could have beens" rearrange", then bursts into the actual song from the start) was used on a game "Legends of Wrestling". If placed into that context, then it seems like it's about someone who started off doing something competative, and at the start things were easy, but after a while became harder. See DanLmal187's explanation
    Flag MidnightRavenon June 10, 2005   Link
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    General Comment:This song reminds me a lot of my friend Steve. He's currently trying to stop using heroin after it inflicted a lot of damage on his life.
    Flag renegadeon April 12, 2004   Link
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    General Comment:i saw BSF in concert in lawrence with taproot, and i must admit, they were fucking great. this band proved to me that you dont have to agree with the message to know it's good music, and i repect the fact that they're willing to put themselves out there like that. kickass song...the guitar part rocks
    Flag downwithgravity9on July 07, 2003   Link
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    General Comment:the lyrics in this song are really poetic and it really is amazing. bsf is a fucking amazing band and this song just goes to show how meaningful and deep these guys really are. this song is about drugs and it is my favorite song ever(by bsf that is)
    Flag shit the bedon May 08, 2003   Link
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    General Comment:Sure, this song could be interpreted alot of ways... i like that drugs theory.. cuz i do alot of weed and i never really thought i would... Anyway, i see this as more of a depression song.. you never think your going to be in a huge depression, until u are actually in it, youve made a lot of mistakes in judgement... the god you believed in so strongly let you down and isnt there for you when u need him, you lost sight of all hope and turn to drugs and booze for help, but they only increase your pain..your losing friends because of different views... things that used to be so "cool" are just ridiculous and disgusting, you'd rather not follow the trend.. making you independant, but at the same time insignificant, hense the "you'll forget me when im gone"... this song has great meaning to me and i loop it for hours on end, along with Cursive - The Great Decay... ITS THE PEOPLE AROUND US THAT KICK US DOWN (shows you how "friendly" they really are to you)... i could go on and on about this song cuz it describes my life to the T... in the game of life, we are all rookies.. and its our actions and decisions that dictate our future... ive been swallowed deeply enough by my decisions that ive seen my future and can honestly tell you...

    YOU'LL FORGET ME WHEN IM GONE
    Flag Reinventing Hateon April 25, 2003   Link
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    General Comment:good thing i live near pomona so i wouldnt miss this one.
    Flag looznmuston April 20, 2003   Link
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    General Comment:best song by bsf, dude im SEEING THEM NEXT WEEK IN POMONA...and your not!
    Flag LaLhxc024on April 19, 2003   Link
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    General Comment:on the dvd that comes with the new boy sets fire cd, they have a live show on it and theres an option that you can pick and nathan explains the meanings of the songs that they play, its pretty bad ass. should check that out! i think he said rookie is about "looking at other people's lives, and realizing that what you have isnt so bad. and realzing there are so many other people out there who have it way worse than you do, and quit whining. and basically reach out to those who have it worse and to help them out." but still if you get the cd with the dvd, its great!!
    Flag looznmuston April 18, 2003   Link

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