So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
I need you more than you can know
And if I hurt myself it's just for show
I found a better way to curb the pain
You put a trigger here inside my brain
Mother I need her
I'm falling apart
Mother I need her
And it's only the start
I may be nothing now but I will rise
I'll have more followers than Jesus Christ
Mother I need her
I'm falling apart
Mother I need her
And it's only the start
Through all the smashing and crashing cars
I love the ground you walk with all my heart
Mother I need her
I'm falling apart
Mother I need her
And it's only the start
And if I hurt myself it's just for show
I found a better way to curb the pain
You put a trigger here inside my brain
Mother I need her
I'm falling apart
Mother I need her
And it's only the start
I may be nothing now but I will rise
I'll have more followers than Jesus Christ
Mother I need her
I'm falling apart
Mother I need her
And it's only the start
Through all the smashing and crashing cars
I love the ground you walk with all my heart
Mother I need her
I'm falling apart
Mother I need her
And it's only the start
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"When I was writing some of the songs of the album I was very much aware of this contradiction between being an artist, being a musician, trying to be creative and write songs and, then, at the point you finish an album, the music is finished, the creative side is finished, you then have to go out and sell and market and promote. And that's like a completely different experience. It's not a very creative process. It's quite - in some ways - a cynical process going on having to sell your music. But you have to do it. I mean, if a modern musician is going to survive as a musician, you have to - in a sense - 'prostitute yourself' to try and sell your music and your art. And I was very much aware of that contradiction. If you think about that too much, it can drive you crazy, you know. It's an absurd thing to be doing. That kind of led me thinking about when I was a teenager, when I was just starting out and I was interested in being a musician. And I think a lot of teenage kids have this dream of being pop stars, of being a professional musician. This 'stupid dream' of being famous and 'life is a ball and everything is wonderful'. And, of course, actually the reality is that being a professional musician is a very hard work. It can be very heartbreaking, there's a lot of disappointment, there's a lot of hard work, there's a lot of traveling." -Steven Wilson
Please where did you get this snippet of text? I'd like to read more..