Child that will be born adults with no sense of guilt fallen
I who has no name why am I here I don't even understand, but
I don't know that I only have a few months to live...

I want to love I want to be born inside this mother's body, staring
since the time I waited for conciousness two months on I sensed something fast
yet I could do nothing that cord of ours will be...

I, incomplete, my body pierced through with hooked pain
mother's screaming voice, ringing in my ears, will not cease white coated adults scooped me up
in eyes overflowing with coldheartedness bloody, without a right hand, I am reflected
just as I was, in black vinyl I am wrapped, engulfed
while my conciousness is gradually fading, I consider quietly
if I, caged, am loved as I am, that is good it cannot be forgiven

it's better that I, unloveable, died as I am
in quiet I shall sleep without giving my first cry
just once, I want to feel a mother's love
maybe this is love thank you
a door that never opens was closing tight
but I am surely your future, and so...
la la la...

my body burned, consumed until my bones become nothing burned, destroyed
goodbye



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Mazohyst Of Decadence (English) song meanings
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    General Comment:Most of you are concerned because you are looking at the song from your western point of view. (btw, I like the 'western' point of view). In the west, the issue of abortion is such an issue because we have a default position that killing human life is bad. This roots of this thinking are based upon our judeo-christian heritage, whether or not you claim to value that perspective today.

    In japan, the thinking is very, very different. I'd recommend a book for any interested called Liquid Life. For the Japanese, there is absolutely no question that a fetus is a human life. They just don't have the hang up about killing humans that we do, because they don't share our background. Sure, in Buddhism, no life should be taken, but there are so many schools of buddhism that have different opinions about when it is ok to take plant, animal, or human life. Only the Pure land sect has a strong stance against abortion. the others, only had a strong stance in the pre-war and war years for nationalistic reasons. What Buddhism does seem to agree on is not forcing rules on others...even if they are right and good (i.e. valuing human life). This is why at many Japanese shrines, you will see offerings to Jizo (who protects children, travellers, and those in the underworld) made by mothers who aborted who want to assuage their guilt. in the end, I think there is a very shinto mentality at play, or life just being forces fighting against other forces in nature. So you have to appreciate the lyrics in the Japanese context. They universally see it as life, but for the most part, don't care about taking it.

    Yes, this raises some interesting questions about Japanese morality in my mind. For instance, why was the pill outlawed in japan for so long? Because the abortion industry was making so much money and lobbied against it... even though those involved felt it was human life, money was more important. To be fair, we might find some similar logic at play in the west, but perhaps not on such a massive scale. It is interesting to note, that most laws concerning 'moral' behavior, i.e. trying to reduce child pornography and child prostitution for example, were imposed directly or indirectly on Japan by the West, with it's Christian influenced culture.

    On a philosophical level, it should encourage us all to wonder - what is good and right? And how do we know it? Is it the opinion of one, a group, clearly understood by observing nature, or defined for us from outside by holy writ?
    Flagged Krutoymushon July 25, 2012   Link
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    General Comment:I just lost most of the respect I had for this band. I'm pro-choice, and no guy singing an emotionally blackmailing song is going to change it.
    Flag CherryCuddleron July 19, 2011   Link
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    General Comment:I think the song is a mixture of abortion and miscarriage. In the video the mother did give birth to the incomplete baby... That's why she's bleeding. Though I'm not totally sure.
    Flag narcxyon June 30, 2011   Link
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    General Comment:Yes, this is about an abortion.
    Watch the video, if you want.
    And it's not hard to gather it from the lyrics, either.
    Flag AMidwintersDeathon January 07, 2010   Link
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    General Comment:To me, this is Diru's most disturbing song and video.It's a more subtle type of horror than they've used before, which makes even more creepy.It's sill a great song,though,and I still listen to it,every once in a while,even if it hurts.
    Flag AGirlNotFromIpanemaon December 12, 2009   Link
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    General Comment:Reading the translation of this song makes me extremely sad.. . Kyo (my twin brother, I sweeaaarrr!) is a complete genius. I've been a fan since 2000, but the older music that was strictly marketed in Japan remain as my favorite....
    Flag ch0lita623on May 09, 2009   Link
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    General Comment:Being a liberal most definitely doesn't mean that you approve of abortion, it just means you don't want the fucking government in you uterus.
    Flag fizzle365on September 12, 2008   Link
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    General Comment:"mazohyst=masochist.
    it's only spelled differently, for fuck's sake. at least try to learn your own language."

    surely if it's spelled WRONG, it wouldn't matter if we could speak english.
    Flag michaelx3on May 24, 2008   Link
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    General Comment:What a tragic, yet beautiful, song about abortion.
    When you think about it, Kyo wrote the song out like a play, which would explain the changes in tones.
    Flag Shibooon April 02, 2008   Link
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    General Comment:I think I read somewhere that this song is about the "casual" stance in Japan about abortion--is this true? The casual stance, I mean.

    Anyway, I'm pro-choice but this song still gives me the chills. It almost makes me question my stance--not that I'd jump on the anti-choice/pro-life/whatever you want to call it bandwagon just from hearing this song, but it makes me want to take the position of just "be more careful" instead of resorting to a medical procedure of a tricky, gray moral ground. That's kind of how I see the song. Clearly Kyo is expressing a *very* graphic description of his views and opinions, but I still interpret it as this outcry against a woman who would thoughtlessly commit to abortion--I don't think *all* women who have abortions are like this, mind you, just that I've heard of some scenarios where women just treat it like you get a tooth pulled or a tonsil removed. It has much more depth than that. Much, much more.

    And so does the song, so! Kudos to Diru for it.
    Flag alrauneon March 08, 2008   Link

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