Holding back the years
Thinking of the fear I've had so long
When somebody hears
Listen to the fear that's gone
Strangled by the wishes of pater
Hoping for the arms of mater
Get to me the sooner or later, oh

Holding back the years
Chance for me to escape from all I know
Holding back the tears
'Cause nothing here has grown
I've wasted all my tears
Wasted all those years
Nothing had the chance to be good
Nothing ever could, yeah, oh

I'll keep holding on
I'll keep holding on
I'll keep holding on
I'll keep holding on, so tight

Alright, oh now

Well, I've wasted all my tears
Wasted all of those years
And nothing had the chance to be good
'Cause nothing ever could, oh yeah
Oh

I'll keep holding on
I'll keep holding on
I'll keep holding on
I'll keep holding on

Holding
Holding
Holding
Holding, la-la-la, la, la-la

I said, ooh, yeah

That's all I have today
It's all I have to say


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Holding Back The Years Lyrics as written by Neil Moss Mick Hucknall

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  • +9
    General Comment

    Apparently it is said that Mick wrote the main lyrics referencing the fact his mother (mater) left the family and he was brought up by his father (pater), and his longing to just want to be in his mothers arms. He was 3 when she left and 17 when he wrote the lyrics body. The title came later, but it has such a special meaning for so many kids. This has been a favorite of mine since it was released, but bitter childhood memories make it hard to listen to without remembering and those feelings welling up.

    Logicalmanukon July 25, 2015   Link
  • +5
    General Comment

    if you look at the words "pater" and "mater" they mean mother and father in latin these are often used facetiously, so Mick is indirectly refering to his mother and father in the lines:

    "Strangled by the wishes of pater, Hoping for the arm of mater"

    you can think of a number of reasons for these lines but to me it suggests there is conflict. why he say pater and not dad or mater and not mother seems to me he wants to keep this not so obvious but then again it could be that his family used pater and mater like some people call their parents "mama and papa" in general it is a sad song but with hope, as the final line says:

    "I'll keep holding on. So tight."

    with the "fear" lines i feel he has kept something quiet to himself but it goes when he tells some one maybe in a song or through conversation. like they say a problem (or fear) shared is a problem halved hence the lines:

    "When somebody hears, Listen to the fear that's gone."

    masonsdon April 17, 2006   Link
  • +5
    General Comment

    'Holding back the years'lyric, in my opinion is about not wanting to go back there in memory but it still keeps coming up to be dealt with. We all want to hold back on remembering bad things in our lives.

    The singer has been abused, by a domineering father. Wishes his mother was there to be the refuge, the love, the balancer. Obviously even though as an adult there is no more abuse, the fear is still deep inside which affects his life as an adult. This person has spent a long time holding it all in and trying to deal with it on their own. Crying has been a waste of time, it never changed anything, so wasted tears, wasted years. Provided the person can hold on, emotionally, then it'll be ok.

    Cosmosgirlon December 03, 2010   Link
  • +4
    General Comment

    I believe that the Lyric "Holding Back the Years" is about a period of time in the past and presently not taking action in his life in making it better due to fear of self worth, accomplishment and success. I think this is a song about a person that was mentally abused by his parents where the parents did not wish their child to succeed in life, leaving the now adult with fears of success and really living a happy life due to the abuse.

    "Chance for me to escape from all I know" meaning he needs to get away from the destructive thoughts and fears he learned from the negative upbringing.

    Gmaddox322on July 20, 2010   Link
  • +3
    General Comment

    I always visualise Delboy in Only Fools And Horses (UK TV comedy programme) as this song is playing at Rodney/Cassandra's and he's all alone after they've gone ... sad song

    Sirius1on August 31, 2005   Link
  • +3
    General Comment

    I can never listen to this without tearing up. I don't know what it is...

    giasintaon August 07, 2011   Link
  • +3
    My Interpretation

    The song is about his mother who abandoned him and his father when he was 3 years old. "Strangled by the wishes of pater, hoping for the arm of mater" refers to his father's wish that his wife was still there. The whole song is about the devestation he and his father went through when Mick's mother left.

    jared13043on March 08, 2016   Link
  • +2
    General Comment

    I thought someone would know? its about mick's mother deserting him and he was raised by his father.

    jump up!on February 25, 2009   Link
  • +2
    General Comment

    Mick Hucknall is a bit of a different sort isn't he?

    emuInAmuumuuon May 27, 2012   Link
  • +1
    General Comment

    esta cancion significa para mi, el recorrido en la vida de un hombre que se aferra a los recuerdos y a lo vivido, a pesar de sentir que muchas cosas no salieron tan bien como el pensaba, a pesar de las carencias, a pesar de las lagrimas y el dolor, sigue aferrandose a la vida.

    constanza20on March 18, 2006   Link

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