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When I waken, and I'm achin', time for sleepin, yeah
When I'm sayin time to go and, I've been hurtin, yeah
When I'm layin, I'm still tryin, concentrating on dyin', yeah
You're right as rain, but you're all to blame
Agreed my crime's the same
My sins I'll claim, give you back shed pain
Go find a place for own shame
So you can deal with this thing unreal
No one made you feel any hurt, yeah
Body's movin, only provin, no one needs to move
Still believin, yet mistaken, all God's children, yeah
And I must say, I was stupid, selfishly she consumed, yeah
And you must change patterns all we trained
Or n'er regain peace you seek
Now you hear me, for the things I see
Yeah, I believe in inner peace, yeah
Throw out, blow up, hold in
Show fine, no signs, grow blind
When I'm sayin time to go and, I've been hurtin, yeah
When I'm layin, I'm still tryin, concentrating on dyin', yeah
You're right as rain, but you're all to blame
Agreed my crime's the same
My sins I'll claim, give you back shed pain
Go find a place for own shame
So you can deal with this thing unreal
No one made you feel any hurt, yeah
Body's movin, only provin, no one needs to move
Still believin, yet mistaken, all God's children, yeah
And I must say, I was stupid, selfishly she consumed, yeah
And you must change patterns all we trained
Or n'er regain peace you seek
Now you hear me, for the things I see
Yeah, I believe in inner peace, yeah
Throw out, blow up, hold in
Show fine, no signs, grow blind
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"Shame in You" as written by Sean H Kinney Layne T Staley
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"When I waken
and I'm achin',
time for sleepin', yeah"
This is probably how Layne felt after breaking off his engagement in 1994. I believe AIC recorded this album in early 1995 so it's possible he was still reeling from the breakup. It could also be about withdrawal from drugs. However, a heroin addict usually doesn't sleep off withdrawal symptoms. When somebody is "achin'" in an emotional sense (depressed) they usually sleep more than normal. Still, this line might be a double entendre, having two meanings, but yet doesn't contradict/muddle the meaning of the song. However, reading the proceeding verses will demonstrate that the lyrics start to address someone very close to Layne and not just a anonymous listener.
"When I'm sayin',
time to go and
I've been hurtin', yeah"
Here, he is probably admitting that his split from Demri hurts him. "Time to go" might mean that he has to "go" away from Demri. This verse could be a double entendre also, referencing the pain Layne is getting from going through heroin withdrawal. After all, just about every other song Layne wrote was about drug use. However, "time to go" doesn't really pertain to drug use.
"When I'm layin',
I'm still trying,
concentrating on dyin', yeah"
Possibly the emotions of being without her is making him think about killing himself (or the misery from being an addict). The former will make more sense than the latter as the song progresses.
"You're right as rain,
but you're wrong to blame,
agreed my crime's the same"
This must be pertaining to the reason why they ended the engagement/relationship. Whatever reason they had for separating (possibly drug addiction since they both were avid heroin users), they were both guilty of that behavior. It is a known fact that a single user in a relationship is bad, but if both people are users...that's even worse. He says 'agreed, my crime's the same" indicating that he agreed that he was guilty of what she accused him of, which, in turn, was an offense she was committing too (i.e. "my crime's the same"). HOWEVER, quite possibly, the "crime" that they both committed could been promiscuity. This is a possibility because Demri Parrot is portrayed on the internet as having been very popular in the Seattle grunge scene and also a bi-sexual. Layne Staley was, of course, a rock star after all. Layne probably didn't have any trouble finding interested women. So perhaps they were both guilty of promiscuity. This verse makes sense in the context of both: drug use or promiscuity. The drug use may have been a mechanism with which to deal with the promiscuity problem, compounding the problem.
"My sins I'll claim,
give you back shed pain,
go find a place for our shame"
Layne seemed to be taking onus for his problems, and in the context of this song, these problems were probably causing the breakup (along with Demri's problems of similar nature from the previous verse). Again, he could be referring to his/her drug addiction and how it was affecting their relationship or he could have been referring to his possible infidelity. Demri might have been shameful of her actions also ("OUR shame" is the correct lyric I believe, as "place for OWN shame" is simply incorrect English, although I could be wrong). "Our shame" is probably the shame both of them felt for being addicts or unfaithful. And if drugs were the reason that they split, and it was her attempt to stop using by breaking up with Layne, then she would have to find a way to deal with her "shame" if she were to stop using drugs. And Layne would have to do the same. The lyric "shed pain" (if "shed" is the actual lyric) might refer to the pain that Demri "shed" or got rid of through drug use. Of course if she stopped using, she would have to take ownership of the pain once again. OR, that "shame" could have been Layne's shame for not being faithful causing Demri much pain. And as was conjectured earlier, his "sins" could be cheating on her (while she did the same from the previous verse "my crime's the same") and by leaving him, her pain would go away. And the last line, "go find a place for our shame" would mean that they had to find a place to store the shame they felt for cheating on each other. This is a very tricky part to interpret and could go either way. The people under question here were two heroin addicts post-breakup, so it's almost certain this is about drugs or infidelity or both.
"So you can deal,
with this thing unreal,
no one made you feel any hurt,
yeah"
Again, "this thing" might be referring to either their drug addiction or the "unreal" feeling of having someone you love cheat on you. "Unreal" might be Layne claiming that his infidelity is not true or that he can't believe that she cheated on him...or maybe their drug addiction was so bad that it was unreal. The next line, "no one made you feel any hurt" leads me to believe that she is leaving for something that's not justified in Layne's eyes. I would assume he is disputing her hurt feelings, saying that nobody is responsible (except maybe herself if it's about drugs). If he cheated on her then he cannot possibly say "no one made you feel any hurt" because he would be the obvious culprit and he would know it. So, as Layne had professed before in various interviews, if one makes their bed, one has to lie in it. So this might be about her drug use and her self medicating her "hurt" with drugs. Another tricky verse that could go either way. (Also, this line is extremely personal which leads me to believe he is absolutely talking about Demri. In all of the previous lines such as "You're right as rain..." Layne could have been speaking to an anonymous audience, but this verse is far more personal. It is only conceivable that the whole song is directed at Demri. So every time Layne wrote "you" in this song, he was referring to Demri.)
"But is movin',
only provin',
no one needed to move?"
This could mean that once they moved away from each other (they had an apartment together) he wondered whether or not she missed him enough to convince herself that she should be with him again and should have never moved out in the first place. And the lyrics on the internet for this verse are definitely incorrect (to my ears anyway). These are the accurate lyrics.
"Still believin',
yet mistaken,
all God's children, yeah"
"Still believin' yet mistaken" might mean that he believed that they would get back together although he was mistaken because it was never going to happen. Or "mistaken" could mean that he made a mistake (i.e. cheating) but he still believes they would get back together. Or this could mean that Staley believes he/they can kick their drug habit together but it isn't possible. I assume "all God's children" means that in God's eyes he is still a good person (even though he was an addict or unfaithful).
"And I must say,
I was stupid,
selfishly she consumed, yeah"
This is the verse that absolutely confirms the song is about his relationship with Demri. This meaning is either metaphorical or in reference to Demri's consumption of drugs. If it's metaphorical then Layne is saying he is stupid for letting her consume his feelings. OR, he's saying that he was stupid not to see how addicted to drugs she was, consuming them for selfish reasons (i.e. to help her cope with her "shame").
"And you must change,
patterns all we trained,
or never regain peace you seek"
Although "trained' is the questionable lyric here, it does make sense. This was either about changing the habitual use of drugs so that Demri could find inner peace OR change the relationship dynamic that her and Layne established that may have been the cause of them splitting. They either had a pattern of using drugs together or fighting all of the time and using drugs to cope. But the reference to "we" definitely corroborates the fact that he is referring to both him and Demri.
"Now you hear me,
for the things I see,
yeah I believe in inner peace, yeah"
In this verse, Layne might actually be speaking to the listener. There are interviews in which Layne has spoken out against drug use and how he doesn't want anybody to go down the road he traveled. This might be the only part of the song that makes sense in reference to drugs. He might be trying to convince the listener to stay away from drugs.
"Throw out,
blow up,
hold in,
show fine,
no signs,
grow blind"
All words pertaining to an argument, OR, drug use! "Throw out" probably means Layne or Demri throwing the other out of their apartment. "Blow up" meaning to yell or get mad. "Hold in" meaning to reserve oneself. "Show fine" meaning to pretend like nothing is wrong and not showing any "signs" of anger/resentment to avoid future confrontation. "Grow blind" might be a metaphor for pretending everything is fine for so long that one becomes oblivious to it. OR, these lyrics could be describing the use of whippets (inhalants). I believe there were several spray paint cans found in Layne's apartment when he was found deceased. It is easy to see that you make a whippet by taking a can of compressed NO2, "blow up" a balloon with it, inhale it, "hold in" your breath, and then everything, including a severe argument, might not be as bad. This would enable Layne to "show fine" with "no signs". But use of inhalants for an extended period can cause glaucoma and eventually blindness, hence "go blind".
To sum up, this song might be about how the conflict between Layne and Demri during their relationship led them deeper down the path of drug use to cope with the turmoil in their relationship. I believe this song chronicles the emotions felt by Layne Staley after breaking up with his fiancee Demri Parrot and the role drugs played in their relationship. To say this song is simply about drug use I believe is false. Some verses are far too personal to be construed as anything other than Staley's inner emotions about someone he cared about.
p.s. excuse my english, it's not my first language :)
p.s. FYI, I wouldn't have known english wasn't your first language if you didn't mention it.
thank you (:
I believe it is about excepting suffering and the fact that we are all living to eventually die (the first verse), self awareness and taking personal accountability for our own actions and how we react to those around us (verse 2), how counter productive it can be to confront others about problems in life when we should focus on ourselves and how we dealt with the situations (verse 3), and finally working to change ourselves to end any negative patterns and find inner peace (4th verse).
Otherwise we will "throw out" relationships and aspects of our lives we can't cope with, "blow up" because we can't handle the pressure of life, "hold in" our negative emotions to pretend we are ok to the people around us (show fine), lose our sense of direction in life (no signs), and eventually figuratively "grow blind" to everything around us.
I love Layne's ability to write lyrics that can be interpretted in so many ways. This song is definitely one of Layne's best lyrical accomplishments, if not his best.
"When I'm sayin time to go and, I've been hurtin, yeah" - Wanting to give in.
"When I'm layin, I'm still tryin, concentrating on dyin', yeah" - Trying to stay sober in spite of the unbearable pain.
"You're right as rain, but you're all to blame" - A shot at the press for cashing in on Layne's problem.
"No one made you feel any hurt, yeah" - It doesn't hurt you, it hurts me.
"Body's movin, only provin, no one needs to move" - Giving in, only to show that nobody should do addictive drugs in the first place.
"Still believin, yet mistaken, all God's children, yeah" - Some kind of religious statement. Either he believes but with some doubt in his heart that God will help him, or it's about someone else's belief. A difficult verse to sum up.
"And I must say, I was stupid, selfishly she consumed, yeah" - A shot at the consumer who buys into the rumors and won't respect Layne's privacy.
also "we're all gods children" means we all for the most part believe in a god no matter who that god is.
but what confuses me is when he specifically mentions " she"
(selfishly she consumed)
... maybe he was just high and got off topic when he wrote this song and we're all looking to deep into it when we can never know for sure what he means.