Both as a standalone and as part of the DSOTS album, you can take this lyric as read. As a matter of public record, Jourgensen's drug intake was legendary even in the 1980s. By the late 90s, in his own words, he was grappling with massive addiction issues and had lost almost everything: friends, spouse, money and had nearly died more than once. "Dark Side of the Spoon" is a both funny & sad title for an album made by a musical genius who was losing the plot; and this song is a message to his fans & friends saying he knows it. It's painful to listen to so I'm glad the "Keith Richards of industrial metals" wised up and cleaned up. Well done sir.
This is making me crazy
These black clouds following me
So I look for signs of light
But rarely I see them
I return to my shelter
And I crawl in a bottle
I'm losing my will for this
So over emotional
Black clouds
They rain down
But they can't kill the sun
Confession
Of depression
This life I'm second-guessing
Like ashes
To ashes
I always seem to fall down
I'm tired
Of running
It's time to face my demons
Confession
Of depression
This life I'm second-guessing
My emotions are storming
And tears fall just like rain
Pain strikes like lightning
Despair is becoming my friend
I return to my shelter
And I crawl in a bottle
I'm losing my will for this
So over emotional
Black clouds
They rain down
But they can't kill the sun
Confession
Of depression
This life I'm second-guessing
Like ashes
To ashes
I always seem to fall down
I'm tired
Of running
It's time to face my demons
Confession
Of depression
This life I'm second-guessing
Black clouds
They rain down
But they can't kill the sun
Inside
Still looking for signs of light
These black clouds keep following me
I return to my shelter
And I crawl in a bottle
Black clouds
They rain down
But they can't kill the sun
Confession
Of depression
This life I'm second-guessing
Like ashes
To ashes
I always seem to fall down
I'm pushing
Myself to
A point of self destruction
Confession
Of depression
This life I'm second-guessing
I'm tired
Of running
It's time to face my demons
Confession
Of depression
This life I'm second-guessing
Black clouds
They rain down
But they can't kill the son
Inside
These black clouds following me
So I look for signs of light
But rarely I see them
I return to my shelter
And I crawl in a bottle
I'm losing my will for this
So over emotional
Black clouds
They rain down
But they can't kill the sun
Confession
Of depression
This life I'm second-guessing
Like ashes
To ashes
I always seem to fall down
I'm tired
Of running
It's time to face my demons
Confession
Of depression
This life I'm second-guessing
My emotions are storming
And tears fall just like rain
Pain strikes like lightning
Despair is becoming my friend
I return to my shelter
And I crawl in a bottle
I'm losing my will for this
So over emotional
Black clouds
They rain down
But they can't kill the sun
Confession
Of depression
This life I'm second-guessing
Like ashes
To ashes
I always seem to fall down
I'm tired
Of running
It's time to face my demons
Confession
Of depression
This life I'm second-guessing
Black clouds
They rain down
But they can't kill the sun
Inside
Still looking for signs of light
These black clouds keep following me
I return to my shelter
And I crawl in a bottle
Black clouds
They rain down
But they can't kill the sun
Confession
Of depression
This life I'm second-guessing
Like ashes
To ashes
I always seem to fall down
I'm pushing
Myself to
A point of self destruction
Confession
Of depression
This life I'm second-guessing
I'm tired
Of running
It's time to face my demons
Confession
Of depression
This life I'm second-guessing
Black clouds
They rain down
But they can't kill the son
Inside
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Black Clouds Lyrics as written by Jacoby Shaddix David Buckner
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