Just one more time
For the sake of sanity
Tell me why
Explain the gravity
That drove you to this
That brought you to this place
That pushed you down
Into the soil's embrace

Give me the chance
I was denied
To sit and talk with you
For one last time

CHORUS
Did I disappoint you?
Did I let you down?
Did I stand on the shore
And watch you as you drowned?
Can you forgive me?
I never knew
The pain you carried
Deep inside of you.

I can't forget
Having to see
The words that knocked the wind
Right out of me
It's not enough
I've come undone
Trying to find sense
Where there is none

Just give me peace
You owe me that
To help ward off the fears
I must combat

(Chorus)

And so I ask
For one more chance
To understand
This senseless circumstance
Help me to see
This through your eyes
The reasons I've been trying
To surmise

Though you are gone
I am still your son
And while your pain is over
Mine has just begun

(Chorus)


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    This song made me cry the first time I heard it. The words are so powerful and yet so beautiful. This is one of my favorite songs by Assemblage 23. I can really relate to the words.

    oblivion77on May 03, 2002   Link
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    Who couldn't cry at the raw emotion Tom Shear lets loose in this song. This song is about his father, God Rest His Soul, who had killed himself. This, in my opinion, is the pinnacle of song-writing for Tom. He's such a talented writer, and even though I am so sorry he had to witness such a harsh experience that no one should ever had to go through, it impresses me that he could make such beautiful music using what had happened. Thank you, Tom, for this. You have no idea how many people you've affected

    o0Sid0oon August 27, 2002   Link
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    this is an incredible song. i always end up listening to it when i'm down and it makes me want to cry.

    stmpynodeon April 02, 2003   Link
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    The first two lines are missing. They are spoken. "Do you believe in the nobility of suicide?" "No." This is a powerful song that should be required listening for any parent thinking of taking their life...

    WyldeChildeon June 23, 2003   Link
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    This song reminds me of my ex boyfriend. Words similar to those of Tom's were spoken by him when he came to visit me at the hospital. I cry everytime I hear this song. But I love it so much. It's very touching. And it makes me think alot about things. Thank you Tom for writing this beautiful work of art.

    NaziHaloon June 24, 2003   Link
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    First song I heard by A23. Rocked to it many times. A great comfprt. Explains a lot about Tom, in its own way.

    enchiridionon June 09, 2004   Link
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    The "first two lines of the song" that WyldeChilde is refering to is actually a sounclip from a movie. (Can't remember which one though.) Tom doesn't say/sing those words.

    Learitheon May 18, 2005   Link
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    I recently saw A23 in concert, and there are no words to describe what it was like to see Tom perform this song live. I still get chills when I think about him up there on the stage, putting his heart and soul into this beautiful song about his father. My favorite part of the song is Though you are gone I am still your son And while your pain is over Mine has just begun. There was so much real emotion on his face when he sang that part, so much pain, so many questions, so many regrets, so much heartbreak. I was so moved by his performance, I started to cry.
    If you ever have an opportunity to see Tom live, go. It's SO worth it.

    the_music_nazion May 23, 2005   Link
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    My boyfriend played this song for me because he thinks he's a disappointment, it's funny.... Oh but I really love this song. At first I thought it was about some girl and I wasn't too interested but then I actually listened to it and now I see it's about suicide... and yeah... the meaning of this song is not up for debate really. It is what it is...

    Kaicille Erison January 09, 2006   Link
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    "Though you are gone I am still your son And while your pain is over Mine has just begun "

    beautiful..

    skuton April 08, 2006   Link

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