This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I've decided tonight
I'm staying alive
Just kicking and screaming
I'm, I'm staying alive
Blood boiling and streaming
There are things
Far to dark to comprehend
Sleep on it one more night
My sad old friend
Alive
I'm staying alive
Alive
I'm staying alive
Kicking and screaming
Blood boiling and streaming
Staying alive
Doo do doo do doo do doo do
The worst is over
I'm staying alive
Just kicking and screaming
I'm, I'm staying alive
Blood boiling and streaming
There are things
Far to dark to comprehend
Sleep on it one more night
My sad old friend
Alive
I'm staying alive
Alive
I'm staying alive
Kicking and screaming
Blood boiling and streaming
Staying alive
Doo do doo do doo do doo do
The worst is over
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i was seriously debating killing myself, and i decided to listen to this song and i can honestly say it is one of the reason i decided not to. i listened to this song like 20 times in a row and it is one of the reasons i am sitting here writing this comment.
does this song evoke as much raw emotion from anyone else the way it does me? i have goosebumps and tears in my eyes.....tim is great. but this band as a whole is breathtaking.
This song is the reason I registered on SongMeanings.
I, tonight, in fact, broke up with my boyfriend. Just a mere 3 hours ago. Our relationship had lasted over a year. After he left, I immediately turned on this song. Everything in this song was perfect for the way I was feeling:
"I've decided tonight, I'm staying alive." "There are things far too dark to comprehend." "The worst is over."
I'd be lying if I said this wasn't the most amazing song ever created. Instrumentally and lyrically, it is the perfect song ever written.
I have never felt this way about a song before. Every time I hear it, it gives me the chills.
i'm 45, english and a pussy maybe.. cos this track is IT. ps i also signed up to this website in order to comment on this awesome band.
Perfect.
this song sounds like the good.
this song is simple but so true. you come to the point where you just have to decide to push through. it never hurts to be optimistic.
word BFD
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this song is beautiful.