It was January, nineteen-sixty-three
When Johnny came home with a gift for me
He said I bought it for you because I love you
And I bought it for you 'cause it's your birthday, too
He was so very nice, he was so very kind
To think of me at this point in time
I used to think of him, he used think of me
He told me to close my eyes
My gift would be a great surprise
I saw tears were in his eyes
He never meant to hurt me
Oh, God, Johnny, don't point that gun at me
There's so many ways our lives have changed
But please, I beg, don't do this to me
Johnny, don't point that gun at me
Can I save my life at any price?
For God's sake won't you listen to me?

And though he was ashamed that he had took a life
Johnny came home with another wife
And I often remembered how it used to be
Before that special occasion, nineteen-sixty-three
There was too many ways that you could kill someone
Like in a love affair, when the love has gone
He used to think of her, she used to think of him
He told me to close my eyes
My gift would be a great surprise
I saw tears were in his eyes
He never meant to hurt me
Oh, God, Johnny, don't point that gun at me
There's so many ways our lives have changed
But please, I beg, don't do this to me
Johnny, you keep on using me
Can I change my life for any price?
Oh, Johnny, won't you listen to me?

He told me to close my eyes
My gift would be a great surprise
I saw hatred in his eyes
But he never meant to hurt me
Oh, God, Johnny, don't point that gun at me
There's so many ways our lives have changed
But please, I beg, don't do this to me
Johnny, you keep on using me
Can I change my life for any price?
Oh, Johnny, won't you listen to me?

I just want you to be mine
I don't want this world to shine
I don't want this bridge to burn
Oh, Johnny, do you miss me?
I just want to feel for you
I will always feel for you

I will always feel for you
I will always feel for you
I will always feel for you


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1963 Lyrics as written by Gillian Lesley Gilbert Bernard (gb 2) Sumner

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  • +5
    General Comment

    I agree with Dgitalgirl: New Order songs are written intentionally to have an unclear purpose or meaning. Sometimes the lines even contradict each other on the same song. In particular, this song seems to be the story of a man who tells his wife that he's dumping her for another woman. It makes the comparsion of a so violent breakup on a marriage with an actual murder, like if the act of announcing the new love was actually shooting your wife to death. In my opinion, it is.

    Alienoon November 27, 2004   Link
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    General Comment

    According to "A new order story" VHS, Bernard is intervied on the meaning of lyrics in N.O. songs. Bernard said that his lyrics really don't mean much and that he even tries to pull apart the song but ultimatelly there is no meaning. Although people like us assign meaning to it. Like this song 1963, I take each stanza and apply it to my life. For example: "There's too many ways that you can kill someone, like in a love affair" doesnt that sound like everyone's life? A love affair among other things ultimately killed Ian Curtis.

    Mode000on April 26, 2005   Link
  • +4
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    I always thought this song was from the point of view of a woman who was killed by her husband in 1963. The chorus is sung from her point of view when he is threatening her life. Other parts of the song are more narrative describing how the man later remarries. And, the truly tragic end of the song is apparently the dead wife lamenting from beyond the grave that she isn't with Johnny. She still loves him even after he killed her. LIke other victims she believe he never wanted to hurt her.

    fletc3heron November 16, 2008   Link
  • +2
    General Comment

    This song can have many meanings, there is no one real meaning behind most NewOrder songs. It is a great love tragedy song nontheless. Ian's death was the start of a musical journey that would not have taken place unless he sacrificed himself. The story of Joy Division's music and Ian himself is reflected in this song.

    Very powerful!

    Dgitalgirlon September 01, 2002   Link
  • +2
    General Comment

    The song IS about JFK. Sumner had this weird theory that JFK hired the mobster Jack Ruby to kill his wife, Jackie O. This so he could be with Marylin Monroe. However, the shooter misses and shoots JFK instead.

    Then Marilyn commits suicide, realizing what happened, and Ruby kills Oswald because his hitman business goes bust.

    Sumner never thought this all the way through though: Monroe committed suicide a year before JFK was assasinated. Otherwise an interesting theory, though.

    But the song is sung from Jackie O's perspective, begging Jack to spare her.

    The song's producer - Stephen Hague - has said that it's the only song about domestic violence you can dance to.

    DavidLG1971on September 04, 2007   Link
  • +2
    General Comment

    The date is inconsistent also (JFK was shot in November 1963), unless it is consistent when considered on a level that I can't even begin to understand. I prefer the relationship-breaking-up-tragically-resulting-in-a-domestic meaning (intense, deep; but what do you expect from Joy Division/New Order?) - bit like Suzanne Vega's Luka.

    Sir_Robaloton March 25, 2008   Link
  • +2
    General Comment

    guys, you're being a little to literal with the 'shooting'. Johnny did not kill his wife. It is a metaphor for the ending of their love affair.

    hence: There was too many ways that you could kill someone Like in a love affair, when the love is gone

    he broke off their love/marriage and this was like the end of her world/life.

    even at the end she says 'i dont want this bridge to burn' meaning she still misses him and doesnt want to lose contact with him still after all that time. she still feels for him.

    pimpfon May 28, 2009   Link
  • +2
    My Interpretation

    This is certainly not about JFK at all. 1963 and John(ny) are there to confuse you about that. This is clearly a gay/bisexual song, and don\'t let anybody tell you differently. Johnny is about to murder his gay lover because he has a wife now (which is likely not his first wife due to the word "another" in the lyrics). Perhaps his first wife found out about his homo/bisexuality, and that\'s what caused the initial divorce. Now he doesn\'t want the wife to know or to get divorced again, and perhaps Johnny is ashamed of that same-sex side of him, so he attempts to eliminate that part of him by eliminating his gay lover. There it is. Spot-ON.

    pd187540on December 13, 2021   Link
  • +2
    General Comment

    Lots of varying interpretations of this song! Not unusual for a New Order song, but somewhat unusual for a song that has a relatively straightforward narrative, for a New Order Song. I always interpreted this song to be about a different 'bizarre love triangle' where the narrator stole Johnny's wife and the two became estranged "I used to think of him, he used to think of me." Johnny surprises his friend by showing up at his house on his birthday "he was so very nice...to think of me at this point in time." But all is not forgiven as Johnny pulls a gun on him and then presumably shoots him. For me, this is supported by the lines in the following verse about the love affair where the love had gone and "she (the ex-wife) used to think of him, he used to think of her."

    I suppose the interpretation about the wife could work as well. It just seems odd to me that she would be surprised at Johnny giving her a gift on her birthday and thinking of her. But it's possible that she left him, they became estranged and he came back to kill her because he felt she metaphorically killed him by leaving him. The line of the song that is somewhat comical line to me in an otherwise horrifying context is "Though he was ashamed that he had took a life, Johnny came back with another wife"- Johnny's reaction is so offhanded to murder, like I feel bad about it, but time to move on!

    The ending of this song is so poignant with Peter Hook's gently strummed guitar line and the narrator expressing sorrow and lament, while at the same time finally feeling liberated of the torment of the moment and sense of guilt. The song structure is relatively simple for a NO song of this period (though beautifully effective), the compelling narrative definitely makes this song stand out.

    BillyBudd2on April 15, 2024   Link
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    wasn't j(ohnny)fk shot in 1963? just a thought..

    polynotreon April 04, 2003   Link

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