Do you remember the corolla coupe of the 80s? ofcourse you dont but you should. It was an amazing little sports car, it was rear wheel drive with an inline 4 cylinder engine. To be more specific it came with the 4A-GE 1.6 liter engine, a legendary engine. This car is extremely popular with the racing/drifting crowds but it is extremely hard to find one, not to mention expensive. Finally Toyota got the news that RWD (rear wheel drive) is back and that the american market doesnt have a small RWD sports car. Unless you count the hyunday genenis coupe, which is a very capable car but it is a hyunday nonetheless. So it seems that toyoya will bring back the 80s corolla coupe, aka the AE86. Hurry up Toyota! About bloody time! Here is a link where you can see the car and read more.

http://editorial.autos.msn.com/article.aspx?cp-documentid=1094226

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Earlier today me and my brother starting debating what is the purpose of music. My nephew whenever he listens to just about any song he starts to dance. My brother started making fun of me because when i a baby/kid i never danced to any music. I told him that i never danced to songs because i was analizing the music. To which he replied Music is for dancing. And thus the debate began. He says the purpose of music is to dance. I say musics purpose is more than just dancing. Music is an art form, an expression, an emotion, the purpose of music is not necerarly to dance to it but to express a way of thinking or viewing of the world that differs from culture to culture. My bro insisted about dancing. When he was a baby/kiddo he danced to anything like my nephew so he wouldnt change his thinking even though in my humble opinion i won the debate. So i ask you, my reader, what is the purpose of music?

About 2 months ago i noticed a little spider on my shower window. I was going to kill it but i decided not to. As time went on the spider got bigger and i realized it was a black widow. Again i was going to kill it but i decided not to. Why not? well i dont know i just didnt. The black widow became my friend. I would go in the shower and say hi to it. I would splash water to it and she would hide in a hole next to the window. I even talked to her about my personal issues and about quantum physics. The day i talked about my personal stuff she hide right away. But the day i talked about quantum physics she did not. She probably likes quantum physics, even if they dont make sense. The black widow is really big now. Again im planning to kill it but i will probably wont have the will to do it. If i throw her outside she probably wont make it in the winter time. I dont even like spiders! What should i do? What would you do?

i dont know what to write about but i want to write. a friend said i was mean. am i mean? is not the first time someone tells me that. it bothers me when people say i mean but i honestly dont care. its how i am. im a mean motherfucker, specially when it comes to my friends. so my friend, sorry i was mean but its cuz i care about you ;). im eating an apple. i like apples. do you like apples?

So i watched paranormal activity even though i knew it was going to suck. I watched it because mostly everyone i know had been talking about it and i wanted to know whats all the hype about. Well just as i suspected from the first time i saw the movie trailer, this movie is not good. But its not its fault, its the peoples fault. They overhyped it. Any movie that costs less than $50,000 usd and makes it to the big leagues it deserves your applause. But when people overhype something you kinda expect something amazing and this movie is not amazing. Its ok, worth the rental fee if anything. And to me it is not collection material. watch it once and thats it. bye bye. appaerently there are 3 movie endings, i watched the original, but i think the hollywood ending is the um most shocking one. First time that hollywood makes a better ending than the original. The original ending is the most realistic one so depending on what you like you will agree or disagree with me. In conclusion paranormal activity is a decent movie but certainly not great. Kudos to everyone who made a decent film with such low budget. The acting of the 2 main character is superb and perhaps is the only good thing about the movie, their acting.

I wanted to write about this ages ago but i guess i been lazy lately and i didnt wanted to get all emotional about it. So i delayed the entry. One of the puppies that i was taken care of died about 3 days after she was born. I felt so sad because i couldnt help her. I remember thinking how crappy it must be to die before you develop your senses. Puppies when they are born they cannot see or hear or smell. It hit me later than even though she did not had those senses, she had the sense of touch, which perhaps is the most underrated of the senses. When she was sick she would curl up next to her mom because she was cold. I carried her around with me a few times and i could tell that even though she was dying that having her near me made her comfortable. Even though she never got to see, hear or smell, i think she was glad she was born and she got to feel the warmth of her mother. She got to experience life atleast for a few hours. I buried her next to my room, just outside my window. I named her Misty, she was all white like mist. RIP Misty.

Having pets suck! okay having pets does not suck but sometimes its just so sad. like when they die or when they have puppies and you raise the puppies only to see them go. Today i said bye to the 3 last remaining puppies. Goodbye Raigomaru, goodbye Momo, goodbye Gurpegi, goodbye Rolfie, and goodbye Patches :)

So today i had to drive somewhere at 3am. i dont remember when was the last time i drove at those hours but it was very long ago. Its a beautiful sight, empty streets just for you. Ofcourse once i got to the highway there was some traffic but the city streets were practically empty. All the lights were green, there we no cops hidden with radar guns, there were no ricers trying to race me, there were no turtles slowing me down, there was no one besides myself. Going 100mph using the whole road just for me. It was beautiful, it was perfect.

So the 2016 olympics went to Rio de Janeiro. I thought Chicago had a better chance but i guess Obamas words dont work all the time. Rio is probably the best choice though so it is not a surprise. Madrid is boring im glad they didnt win. And Tokio would have been nice because they are so high tech but China just had the past olympics and that took them out. Ultimately the olympics went to the country that offered the most culture wise and that is why Rio won. I hope im still alive by then so i can go dance some samba!

Roman Polanski is a total pussy. He ran away decades ago and now he wants to run away again. Yeah the dude is a great director but that doesnt makes him immune to the law that every one is accountable for. Yeah its true that the American justice should have get him years ago, they probably didnt because they feared the "outrage" it would stir amongst the hollywood crowd and the european faggots like the swiss people and the french people (those who defend him only). Now that they do have him i hope he goes to jail like he deserves for his actions. it shouldnt matter how long ago that was. everyone is responsible for their actions. Roman Polanski, step up to the plate and be a man for once.

This is not a journal entry, this is a test. A manipulation of numbers to a secret race between me and someone else. The Race to the 1000 view. I'm sorry to say this but if you reading this i just used you... to some extent. Thank you nonetheless :)

Is driving a right or a priviledge? most people say driving is a priviledege, but then again most people are retards. the majority of them will do anything the goverment asks them to do because they are brainwashed people. driving is a right, and there is not a single thing that you or anyone can do to stop me from driving without a license or insurance. i drive because i can and because i want to. sure you can get me in jail for 30 days and fine me 500 dollars but that is if i get caught, big IFFFFFFF...

if you dont have a driver license or insurance and you want to drive, dont fear the lame laws imposed by our stupid arrogant goverment, go ahead and drive but do it carefully knowing that a single mistake can cost your life or the life of another human being. i have never been in accident and i have never gotten a ticket. i drive better than most people, most people who probably have drivers licenses.

a drivers license all it does is gives you an illusion of superiority over those who dont have one, and an insurance policy gives you a false illusion of security. therefore people on the road get distracted and crash. but its okay! i have license and i have insurance, they think. if you drive on the edge, knowing that if you get pulled over or if you crash someone you will be in trouble then you will rarely make any mistakes. maybe one day i will make a mistake or get pulled over. when that day comes i might get license after that but i will never change my mind; driving is a right and if you think driving is a priviledge, then fuck you moron.

I had a very nice dream that i will share with you because it makes me question something to which i want your answer. I dreamt that i was in college or something and some girl went to talk about us helping children somehow, i forgot. During the speech she would look at me alot. Was she looking at me because i kept looking at her or was she looking at me because she wanted to look at me? I was moved by her speech and to get involved. When she was done with her lecture she left and then somehow i saw her walking down the street and i went to talk to her. I asked her how could i help the organization she was involved in. And she told me the usual, " well there is a local club here and you gotta call the leader, let me give you a paper with their information" blah blah... The girl whos name i dont know was about 5'3, redhead with short straight hair, slim about 110 pounds, B cup lol, and caucasian, and very smart...Oh and blue eyes! Are you her? When she was done telling me how to help the children i asked her where she was going, she said "the airport". The airport was nearby so i asked her if i could walk with her. She said "sure" but that eventually some friends of her were going to pick her up. We walked for a bit and there was an akwardness to it. We didnt say much. Did she noticed i liked her? Did she liked me or thought i was a dangerous individual? As we walked i asked her if she was okay because she seemed nervous. She said she was fine. Then her stupid friends came driving a VW bus... covertible! Fucking hippies... there was two of them... And she said "oh they are here, so call them and join and save the children, bye now" and that was it... I was extremely sad for some reason. I wanted to cry, I was never going to see the short hair redhead. As i walked down the street going back from where i had come from i would look back and relive the little time i spent with her. I kept thinking how could i feel so sad for someone who i just met? then i saw her coming back! I was confused, was my mind playing a trick on me? Was i looking at something real? wtf! Once she got about a meter away from me i asked her "what are you doing here?" and she said "i was nervous when we were walking, i didnt wanted to get to like you so i kept quiet but i liked you since the moment i saw you in the classroom" !!!! isnt that an "awww" moment? well to me it is... so in my dream as soon as she said that i dont know, it overload the dream system and i ended up waking up saying awwwww :D how pathetic! the dream was about to get good and i couldnt handle a cliche romantic scene it overload my hear and mind and i dont know. sigh*

so my question to you is this, have you ever dreamt with strangers? i dream with strangers all the time for some reason. i dont like it. because this girl who i just dreamt ill probably never see her again. i dont even know who she is or her name! im happy because i had an interesting dream but annoyed at the same time. atleast answer my question!

Cash for clunkers, what a scheme it is. As usual the taxpayers are getting ripped by a "program" that our great innovating goverment came up with. The truth about such program is that it doesnt help the economy, sure it might help the auto industry but at what cost? and why the hell do they destroy the engines of working cars? hey i got a clunker on my yard but the car is not working can i get cash for clunkers? no! why? because the engine has to be working. right... why do they want me to turn in a working car when they supposedly will destroy the engine? they also destroy the transmission. where is the alleged help for the enviroment when you are destroying working parts? and yes yes they will melt the metals but doesnt that creates pollution too? the goverment is run by a bunch of short sighted idiots that only come up with quick fixes to shut up the average american that knows nothing about what really goes down with the federal reserve and the economy.

do you read newsweek? ofcourse you dont. and thats a good thing because they suck. saying that the ressecion is over? yeah right tell that to the 10% unemployed people in the country. yes the economy is getting better but why? the stimulus package! only about 1/3 of that money has been put to use the rest will get "lost" probably and in the mean time we have just put the greatest debt in our shoulders. might as well start learning chinese.

The swine flu aka h1n1 did not kill a single person here. atleast not a "healthy person". Those that died had other "conditions" like one dude from utah he was very fat and had diabetes i think. and it also has kill pregnant women, people who are at "risk" like old people kiddos and preggos. Anyway its amazing how stupid americans are. and i dont refer to all just about 200 million or so. And here is a great example, the swine flu virus was created by the americans years ago. No one got sick because they had the virus safe. Then someone makes a phone call and says lets make some money and tara! they released the virus in mexico it spread it killed a few 100s and people are panicking. It has a low mortality rate so why get scare about it? why even accept to take a vaccine that who knows what side effects it has. Yes im aware the virus has the power to mutate and this next winter it might kill 1000s of people. I hope not, if it gets as bad as they say then the goverment will probably mandate the vaccine for everyone.. which is a total violation of our rights. The goverment had the vaccine years ago and now they are just ripping the profits with scare tactics and god help us if the virus mutates this winter. mandatory vaccine? people are so scare and gullible that they will all say me me me first!



http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/32191589/ns/health-swine_flu

yesterday i parted ways with a piece of metal. but it was more than metal, it was a car. yeah we guys love cars alright. well most guys anyway. Rocky is a 4x4 vehicle that was made by Daihatsu. Daihatsu is a japanese car company that does fairly well in japan. Daihatsu came to america in 1988 to 1992 in which time it sold around 50,000 charades and rockys. Not the greatest numbers and that is why they stop selling their cars here.Somehow i landed myself a rocky, its a very special vehcile. think of it as a geo tracker or an isuzu amigo. its very cute, small, reliable, and a head turner... not because its a hot vehicle but because is quite rare. i had to sell my rocky and chances are that i will never own one again. oh well thats life. cars dont have life, it is our memories with them that creates an illusion. an illusion is good enough to fool the mind, and maybe just maybe the heart as well. farewell rocky :)

Usually i wait a year or so to begin to judge a presidents performance at the office. But i just cant wait anymore. Most americans are unaware of all the things obamas does very quietly without anyone on the mainstream media saying a word. Obama made a lot of promises, that he would do this and that and he hasnt done anything. The things he has done are the total opposite of what he said he would. He resign the patrioct act, he hasnt bring the troops back, and worse yet he did not clean washington. He filled washington with his wallstreet buddies. Its a shame you quickly sold out to corporations, or maybe that was your plan, to lie to every single american who believed in you and then just do what you had planned. are we americans supposed to just sit and take it because you are black? give me a break. and start working for the american people and not the puppet masters! you got plenty of time to reedem yourself but right now you look just as bad or perhaps even worse than the last president.

On June 6 1984 a video game was created by a Russian named Alexey Pajitnov. the name of the game im talking about is Tetris, who hasnt play Tetris? its such a wonderful simple puzzle game that has passed the test of time. it doesnt matter on what platform you play it still is a very entertaining and addicting (for some) video game. i never get tired of playing it, from my cell phone to the computer to the classic old gameboy. this puzzle game single handedly created a new genre of games and countless copycats and many different types of Tetris. your birthday has passed Tetris but better late than never, happy birthday Tetris :)!!!! 25 years and counting.

what the fuck is wrong with the goverment? who authorized selling the analog signals to private companies? its all about the money. they used the 9/11 tragedy again to rip us off. i mean whats next? are they gonna sell oxygen in bottles? oh no wait they already do that! digital tv is no better than analog. yes it looks better ooooh wow but it has a few issues. for once, the quality of the image relies alot on good weather. and the sound is actually lower. im not even sure it sounds better. all i know is that when im watching something in analog it sounds way higher than when i switch to digital, the sound goes loweer and i gotta turn up the volume. so what if they can show more channels? the channels are crap, you got the all day weather channel (so you can know when its gonna rain and the image will start to break) you got the lame news channel and you got the channel where they sell you junk on tv. who needs those channels? we already had enough channels before. i decided not to switch to digital. fuck the tv, im sick of it. you stole a few years of my youth but your reign of ignorance is done! so people, read or write a book, go out have fun, stop watching these tvs and lets say to the goverment and the digital assholes that yes digital might be better but it was the day that we said enough is enough. :)

Most of you probably already know by now that GM (general motors) has file for bankrupcy. This does not means that the detriot giant will dissapear forever, it does mean that it will change dramatatically. Unfortunately the goverment will own up to 70% of the company. This means that the goverment will most likely make horrible cars. Yeah GM has been screwing up since the late 70s and the disasterous 80s and ofcourse the 90s. But early on this decade they started to make good cars, like the cadillac cts, or the chevy malibu, or the corvette z06 or the hot new camaro. GM has declared banrupcy not because in the last years they were making junk but because of poor management of invesments over the last years and the downturn of the economy. Now that the GM will change who knows what will happen, will the camaro be cut? the corvette? will we only see hybrids? dont get me wrong i care about the enviroment and i like mr obama but atleast on this issue, i think he is screwing up a bit. what will happen if GM starts to make fuel effiecient ugly cars? no one will buy them. what will obama say if no one buys GM cars? buy american cars americans! ??

i hope it all goes well for GM and for anyone who is a car lover. GM is not only an icon of america but an icon of the automobile industry. to see it file for banrupcy is sad. lets all hope that GM will rise someday again (without the goverment owning any part of the company).

Lucky Star and Obama have absolutely nothing in common, i just figured that i would write one journal entry instead of two. Thus is decided to talk about the two things that have been bugging me the most the past few days.

Lucky Star is an awesome anime created by anime underground. If you like anime and you have watched many other animes (more than 5) then i recommend that you watch lucky star. It might not be the best anime ever and you might not like it, since is only for "otakus" but trust me when i say that it is very unique and funny. i mean assuming you get the jokes...

Yeah that is just another anime recomendation. Moving on to important matters i will talk now about obama! omg obama! obama! could people quit that shit? i like mr obama, he will be a great president im sure. but he is not a savior and he is not totally amazing. people stop the obama-mania please. let the dude work in peace. everything he does is being shown on tv. which is good but boring. Bush was the crappiest president ever but he was funny. obama is a real president. as soon as he got to the white house the dude got to work. frigging awesome. thumbs up for mr obama and lucky star. ciao

have you ever felt that you can't say bye to someone or something? no matter how hard to you try you just can't. well i don't like goodbyes and i cannot say bye to you my dear friend. i hope we both stop talking to each other slowly without neither of us realizing that we are drifting, till one day we simply don't feel the need or urge to talk to each other. since i can't say goodbye to you, this is my goodbye, call it a coward way, a meaningless way, a goodbye that will never serve its purpose, but to me this goodbye is as real as the internet itself; as real as the offline world, as real as you and me, as real as our 7 year friendship. :) goodbye lkm.
i wish you the best.

Ages ago there was a song title cotton eye joe, back then i honestly did not understood the lyrics and i didn't care. I thought of the song as euro junk... back then there was tons of it. anyway i recently found the song on my computer, how it got here i don't know but that is not important. what is important is that i finally learned what the song was saying... cotton eye joe... and it turns out this song has mode depth than most crap than is on the radio now. don't get me wrong, if you hate or dislike this song i totally understand why but reading about cotton eye joe made me realized that this song is not as bad as most people think. here are two links that i hope that anyone who reads this checks them out. the 1st link is about cotton eye joe and yeah.. just click on it! and the 2nd link is an amazing cheerleader/dancers performance dancing to the song. click on it too!

http://www.themediadesk.com/newfiles2/joe.htm


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G0sKJjZJP8Q

I was wondering tonight why do i add lyrics on here? i have not added as much as other people but i have added a few. most of these lyrics are by unknown artists but they count just as good as famous artists. so i kept thinking why do i add lyrics? is it because i really like the artists or is it because i want to leave some sort of trait or proof that i was here, that i was alive, that i am alive. i mean one day i will die and someone might like "flemita" and she or he will look for the lyrics of that band and will see that i added them and she or he might wonder who was this awakenpunk... and their curiosity will lead the way and will determine just how much they learn from me. or you... assuming you are one of the ones that adds lyrics on here. anyway just another random thought by a random average joe ;)

flemita- is a band from argentina and their sound is basically punk, garage punkrock. and they sing in spanish and well their music sounds very raw. i do reccomend them only if and only if you know spanish and like punkrock.

I was reading an article yesterday that was critizicing the website "www.mydeathspace.com" for ovious reasons. Before reading that i had never gone to that website before. I knew it existed but i never wenton it. The article had a link to it and so i clicked on it. Without trying to sound mean or like an asshole most of the people there i didn't care about not one bit. Sure some deaths were tragic and others sad but i kept reading page after page of dead people (mostly young people) and nothing touched me... till i met Autumn Rose Steinhebel. I won't go into details but basically she had diabeties and that lead to acute liver failure and she died because she never got a liver donor. She was only 15 years old.

This touched me on a personal level because i have always been kind of against donating your organs but after reading what happened to her, and after reading a little about this young girl, i truly feel like i should donate my organs... when my time comes... I'm not trying to make you donate your organs if you are against it. I was against it till a few minutes ago but she changed my life when it comes to that subject.

To wrap things up, is mydeathspace.com a bad website? Yes, without question. But maybe like the creator of it said, its there to teach people that you can die whenever and so that young people learn about death and consequences like driving drunk and doing drugs etc. That website along with Autumn Rose Steinhebel (pretty name) changed me, and when i die i will donate my organs that will hopefully save a life.

No i'm not going to kill myself, i consider myself anti suicide. i wrote death note because death note is an anime series. yup, another anime recommendation! and i don't know if anyone reads this or if anyone who might read this likes anime or not...someone has to tell you, the reader, that death note is amazing and you better go watch it now! what would you do with a notebook that had the power to kill people just by writing their name on it? would you use it for good or for bad? would you use it to eliminate evil? anyway watch it or else you will regret when god shows it to you in heaven, assuming you will go to heaven. or by the devil when you go to hell.. assuming both places exist. just watch it! Not as good as berserk for me but for the majority of people it is probably better than berserk. kk byeee

Recently i finished watching the Anime series Berserk (1998). And i was totally blown away. It truely is a Masterpiece and highly recomend it to anyone who likes Anime. But beware, Berserk will leave you disturbed, sad, and with more questions than answers. questions about what? about everything, life death dreams! Go watch it now!

So i watched the fight, the fight that was supposed to save boxing. It was by far a HUGE dissapointment. We sports lovers are lucky there is so much stuff going on right now otherwise this would be a sad day in sports history. De la Hoya tried but was pathetic, and Mayweather didnt try at all. He is all talk, he said he was going to destroy de la hoya etc. Both were a dissapointment and that is why boxing is on verge of dying as a legitimate sport. To some it did many years ago, but if it continues with this cheap entertainment bullshit hype crap... It will die completely one day.

no peace~

So yeah i just added Julieta Venegas to my favorites. I checked the fans listed and there is only girls! So i think to myself, hm i'm going to be the only guy listed as her fan. Wow awkward. But whatever i'm not gay so i don't care if i am her only fan on this site. I'm sure she has tons of male fans anyway. kk just passing by, bye!

so yeah yesterday i felt like applauding what the songmeanings crew are doing but today i feel like bugging them. how so? simple! i will write on this crap forever, by doing so i'm hoping i saturate their servers or something. i say we all write on the songmeanings journal!

has any of you wonder when will this sell out? songmeanings is a great site yet it doesn't have the popularity it deserves. and also they are missing out on some serious cash. i do think they must get some money but certainly not as much as they would if say they were charging us for being a member. anyway i'm proud to belong to this community and if one day they decide its time to charge i will understand their choice.

if anyone ever reads this crap please say something!!! its like the classic thought of does anyone ever notices me? i like writing on here but i dont do it much... i wonder if the people from songmeanings read this crap... if you do well good i guess.. anyway i should go rest.

GT4 or Gran Turismo 4 came out a few weeks ago and to be honest I wasn't impressed at all. Yes, it looks better but the game felt weak overall. I hate those persons that give this game 10s and perfect reviews because either they are very brainwashable people or they have low standards. The game has more cars but alot of those cars are cars that only Japanese poeple care about. Who the fuck wants 15 versions of the skyline? that's ridiculous, its a great car but c'mon! The picture mode i thought was okay if you are into taking pics but it wasn't innovative, it wasn't even interesting. This game was inflated by the media and morons who like anything that GT makes. In my humble opinion GT4 is a solid game, maybe a 9 but only cuz in my scale there is no 8.5 hehe. Despite all of what I've typed I gotta say this game is the best simulator outhere. I say you rent it 1st then decide.

I just learned about the smartchild IM-BOT from aol. Appereantly this smartchild has been for some time now but as always i get the news late. I couldn't helped to talk to it. The conversation was nothing more than painful. The only good thing this thing does is to answer you fast but it can't answer phylosophical questions and most importantly it can't think for itself. I was hoping its creators would've done something artifitially smart but this IMbot is nothing more than a stupid idea from some wanna-be programmers. The sponsor crap is the result of capitalism, always trying to sell you something...

I am a very creative person, atleast in the ideas category, making ideas a reality is a whole new category. Anywho, my question is quite simple but some people find it complex and confusing. My question is; In a video game is all violence equal? I post this question not because i hope to get answers, its just something to think about for anyone who might stumbled upon it. Something new, disturbing for some, is on your way... that is if you are a video gamer.

A few weeks back I was adviced not to watch the village because it wasn't worth the time. When my friend told me that, the movie was still in theaters. I am anti-social so i hardly go to movie theaters. The village just got out on dvd a couple of days ago and i rented to see why most of my friends were trashing the poor movie. How bad could it be? i asked myself. Well, it turns out that I did liked it. I don't know why some of my friends didn't liked it. Sure the movie isn't great but it is good and people that say that "it was a waste of time" have no idea what they are talking about. I guess everyone thought the movie was going to be scary and since it is not that scary alot of them felt let down by it.

In conclusion, this movie has its good points and bad ones just like all. The best thing of the movie is the love story in it. Bryce Dallas Howard acts amazing and by far she was the best actor/actress of the movie. My friend was wrong in my opinion, just like any of your friends can be wrong about something else. It is better to find out things on your own and draw your own conclusions.

I seriously doubt anyone read this, therefore, I'm going to use it as a log web journal... hopefully it has no limit on the amount of entries. So its been a while since i wrote in here. Mostly I've been debating with myself delicate issues that for privacy matters I won't discuss here. But I can give a brief explanation. I am *beep years old and I have a lots of talent but I'm still trying to figure out how to exploit them to the max. Not to mention that feeling lonely doesn't helps much when you are on a quest. A quest for truth. Many poeple argue that we live in the best era possible but ovbiously these people are in some extent selfish and perhaps ignorant. There are so many wrongs in this world that make me question if this is the best era to live in. But anyway back to me, this is all about me and my universe. We all are a universe in its own, so complex that it is nearly impossible to decypher and understand each other. Perhaps that explains our agressiveness and self-desctrution ways as a species. So in other words and to make this brief, I am depressed and I am a pessimist. Although I know I'm not clynically depressed and sometimes I think of myself as a realistic person rather than a pessimistic one. So there you go, my biggest issues right now lie within my mind, a mental illness and a state of mind. This is over for now.

Although this more of a test than a real entry, I assume I can always write down something more relevant than the typical 1 2, 1 2, testing. Finally songmneanings is working again. I remember when I became a member I was number 82,??? something and now it's almost 100,000 members. I'm really happy this is up again, but the question remains... for how long? Hopefully it will work for a year or two without long and painful breaking periods. However I think the day will come when it will get just too big for it to be free. Whatever happens, happens.