Autumn Leaves

by LiamSteele on October 10, 2012

Autumn colours but everything's so grey

Just trying to make it through another lonely as day

Hoping to get a text, or if I'm lucky a call

Wondering what happens to the leaves after they fall

Will I get blown out of you life like a sad dead leaf

Or will you decide I'm worth it to keep

The leaves are beautiful while the colours last

But they always die and become a thing of the past

I don't want this to be a methaphor for us

Scared it could be, scared there won't be an "us" after one big gust

When things are good you make every second worth it

But the relationships dying and all I do is hurt it

When your ignoring me I don't know who I am

My old colours are withering but you bring them back again

I want to be who I am when you're around

But I feel like a leaf sitting on the ground

Surrounded by millions of others, plain as fuck

But still hoping you'll pick me up

And save me

But it's starting to feel like you hate me

I wish things could be like they were

Telling all my friends "One day I'll marry her"

I hope you'll decide to stay

I don't believe in god but I pray

That we'll be together one day

And that I won't find out where the leaves go when they blow away

But if you don't want what I do

I don't matter, I want what's best for you

Just know I'm gonna to die twice

Once when I pass and once when you forget about these poems I write

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I love you

by LiamSteele on October 05, 2012 Sitting by a silent phone,

Longingly sighing until the day we're reunited,

If waiting will kill me,

Then motherfuck that bullet I don't care I'll bite it,

Thinking about those moments,

Our eyes would meet from across the crowded room,

Feeling alone together,

Its a year later and I'm still smelling your perfume,

Still hugging you,

Locked forever in time pulling you close for an embrace,

I close my eyes I still see you,

And every lonely night I still dream of your beautiful face,

Looking at our old photos,

Once again resting my head on a tear stained pillowcase,

Thinking about you, us,

Got me a mess trying to make the best of a worst case,

Then again,

No matter what it could always be for the worse,

I have you,

And you sure do definetly make a blessing of a curse,

From across the province,

You make me fall in love with you again every day,

Even if we dont talk,

You still manage to make the sky seem less grey,

The sunrise to my twilight,

Your elegance lights up every room you're in,

And indeed my life,

I love you

I love you

I love you

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Waiting

by LiamSteele on September 21, 2012

I'm not good enough

But I'm trying to change that,

I'm trying to be who you deserve

Ever since it was on the bus that we sat,

Laughing and joking

It's all that I've wanted,

You sharing your tea

The busride was too short if you were on it,

It's these memories

That are set in stone,

Trapped in our minds

Until all that's left is dust and bone,

Now things are a little harder

But still beautiful,

Trying to capture our love

While we're still both youthful,

Talking on the phone every night

Staying up late no matter the sitation,

Waiting for christmas break

Holding my breath for summer vacation,

So until then

Ill keep you close to my heart,

Waiting for the day

We don't have to bare being apart

 

 

 

 

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My Entire World

by LiamSteele on September 18, 2012

My whole entire world 8 hours away,

I never get to see,

The one girl that knows me

But she always makes my day,

Way out of my league,

This girls an 11 out of 10,

Way too beautiful for me,

Dark brown eyes of intrigue,

Lips like petals on roses,

She fits perfect in my arms,

I cant push her away,

Right now I need her the closest,

Terrified of the worst that could happen,

Hoping for the best,

Ill wait 2 years for the best,

Feeling like it's Toronto I'm trapped in,

Every other girl just isnt her what can I say,

But I don't mind,

For now Ill just keep,

My whole entire world 8 hours away

 

 

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Lie To Me Again

by LiamSteele on January 01, 2012 Lie to me again Tell me what I want to hear Tell me I'm handsome Tell me I make you feel good when I'm near None of it's true I know that I'm fat and ugly But atleast I'm happy When you lie to me You look so beautiful When you decieve me You get a crooked little smile And say "believe me" When I tell you you're perfect You have to say something You tell me I'm not a fuck up You say I'm going to be something If I'm really so handsome Then why am I still alone If I'm so charming Then why am I so rejection-prone You say you care about me You just don't care enough I guess I'll never be a good boyfriend I'm just not made of the right stuff I wish it really was true I wish the things you told me were reality But I guess I'll make do And be happy with the lies you tell me So baby please Give me a hug and then Tell me I'm special to you Lie to me again No Comments

Acceptance

by LiamSteele on December 18, 2011

Accepting the fact that we'll never be together,

Realizing what that means,

I'll never be "him" or "the one",

You'll never look me in the eyes, and say "forever"

I'm sorry that I'm not good enough for you

I wish I could make you smile

I wish make you feel like you make me

If I could I would change it, but clearly there's nothing I can do

I'll never get to hold you,

Not hug, Hold,

There's a difference, it's true

Looking in your eyes, wishing I could taste your lips

Your freckles, your smile I love everything about you

But when your around,

I have to make sure the L word never slips

Don't mislabel it, don't mistake this

I'm not over you

I'm just trying to be realistic

And accepting you won't be my first kiss

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