Nanda Devi.

by ronmascara on January 18, 2010 I gathered up some balls to ask Milagres (formerly The Secret Life of Sofia) what the lyrics for Nanda Devi were. Here's their reply: "Janie, Thanks very much for the nice note. Glad to hear you like Nanda Devi. Here are Kyle's lyrics for the song: Nanda Devi When you were born your eyes were closed And you were indistinguishable from the other babies. We argued over names And how could I've known you were fated to lie down on Nanda Devi? When you were old enough I began to teach you Which greenery you could eat to survive alone out In the wilderness, like me. The earth is the grandest Of living things, and with it we are linked inextricably. Nanda Devi. No one understood why I didn't feel at fault But I'd only introduced you to the glory of mountaintops. When the avalanche swept me off the face of a friend With someone's little kids we were like specks of dust In nature's beautiful broom, Nanda Devi, rejoining the river. -Eric" No way! I think this is kinda cool. I just posted the lyrics up with my ronmascara account. It's risky that both accounts run under the same password, but okay. I went to Leah's today. I loved it. At first, I felt a little uncomfortable at her place. I mean, it's so over-the-place. But then I got used to it and really loved it. I loved how there was a piano and a plaid couch and a very modern lamp and asian dishes. Things were so mixy-matchy and I really liked that somehow. After some time, it was like it all started settling down. We worked on the couple and Andrea got there late with ironed hair. Haha. We listened to music and her brother kept on popping into our conversations. His name's Thomas and I thought that was pretty funny. Even though he's supposed to be 18, he doesn't look it. I like his music style, though. The Killers, Coldplay, Linkin Park, the general stuff. We listened to Charlie by RHCP and Tulips in both versions. That song makes me every single time. Even if I'm thinking about a different boy everytime I listen to it. That song is the most amazing thing ever and I don't know why but if I could marry it, I would. It just never, ever gets old. I've liked it since seventh grade and it hasn't faded whatsoever. The magic's still there. There's been something with me and magic lately. Not HP magic. More, like, fairy magic. Mmm An Old Friend of the Christies by Oceansize is so good. Instrumental but it's such a well told story. Mybe it's that it has so many different hidden things that I find something new everytime I listen to it. We had pizza at Leah's. I honestly was prepared for something more exciting and weird, like beetle juice. lol. I read somewhere that Asians have that. But it's not actual beetle juice, it's just called that. Or Wontons or something goddamn Asian! I teased Leah a lot about the Miu-Miu thing. And I told them kinda a big secret about a crush I have. Not really a crush, it's just.. He thinks I'm pretty and we like the same music and when we say hi, it feels lusty. Haha! Ah maybe I'm just thinking things. I have to finish a paper for Cabrera, due tomorrow. Seeya No Comments

ronmascara

by ronmascara on December 22, 2009 Hehe. I got my old account clogged up so I created this new beauty. Let's start out by my username. I've developed this strange obsession with jellyfish. I was almost brought to tears when I discovered the username 'jellyfish' was not available. Jelllyfish is just as well, though. Anyway, DASH is amazing. I love love love it! We're on winter break right now. I'm leaving to California this Saturday. Cool. I really missed having one of these. It's so much fun and I can vividly keep track of things. Sorry all if it caused you annoyance before. Maybe you guys clogged it up on purpose. Whatever. I just recently came up with this GREAT joke. Funniest in a while, really. [The family is opening up the Christmas presents] Janie: Dad! You'll never guess what I got you! Dad: Give me a clue, Janie. Janie: It's for your guitar! Dad: Whoa! That's awesomeeee *opens up the present: A trashcan* lmao lol lol "there's some people i could name but it's not the time or place" The Frequency by Jets to Brazil. Anyway, me and Juan got together but broke up (I did) and then I met William. He's great! No Comments

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by ronmascara on August 14, 2009 Holy shit, I just got home from Sephora at Pembroke Gardens, but Holy shit. Ok, here it is. I was in the car listening to big105.9, which, by the way, plays a little harder, more classic rock like Guns N Roses, Bob Dylan, Aerosmith, Steve Miller Band, etc etc. Not even Metallica or The Red Hot Chili Peppers. 93rock's in charge of that. So, you get the picture. The staion my dad listens to. And I was jamming along to Welcome to the Jungle but then it ended. By now, I'm fueled up and ready for some more yelling and semi head-banging. But then something happened that shoked the fuck out of me. Green Day came up. tuh tuh tuh. -or however scary music sounds to you-. Green Day? Green Day sounds too young for 105.9. Maybe it's that they look like 19-year-olds or the type of music they play. But, for either reason, Green Day doesn't belong in big1059. Period. No Comments

sweet child o' mine.

by ronmascara on August 14, 2009 School starts in TEN days and I'm soooooo excited. Somewhat like the first day of 6th grade -kill me now-, but this is so much different. Because then I was excited that I was going "to be much older". Or some bullshit like that. But now, it's different. It's obviously a new place. People make such a big deal about it. "Back in my high school years, my hair was like WHAM, can you believe it?!" "High school makes the best years of your life" "I fooled around too much in high school" "my high school friends were so funny". Blah blah. I'm not that excited about that. HHAG. I don't even know what I'm excited about. My brain's forgetting things a lot easier than in my meat-eating days. Or is it just me? Anyway, I finished reading Animal Farm for DASH the day before yesterday. It made me cry somewhere towards the end. Boxer tried to get out of the slaughter van but strength had left him. He was ill and was supposed to go to the hospital, which the pigs promised, but he was obviously. AHH. I hate this. And I understand the book's about slavery, but how the hell? The beginning made me nod to every single sentence because I so thought it was about animal rights. But then Napoleon took over the farm and, at the end, -not spoiling anything, really. you could just see it coming- Clover couldn't tell the difference between man and pig. The End. And I started Speak last night. It's about how horrible high school is. lol, I really wouldn't make my incoming freshmen read this if I were the principal. It's mostly about how everything in highschool's intimidating except art. Bullshit. Art's intimidating, too. Faggots. -not to you, DASH. Just the book in general-. Like, this girl -Melinda- scores in art every single time without trying. WHAT? Art is hard. It's supposed to be. It's not really "a game". It's scientifical and it's philosophical. It doesn't have to be stressful and tense. But it's definitely not a game of tic-tac-toe. ARGH. It can be a game. But not the type of game the book describes it as. The girl picked out some Thanksgiving dinner bones and got a barbie head and sticked it in the middle of the pile of bones. hm? and then she put tape over the Barbie's lips. I kinda liked that, though. Even though it's very unoriginal. But it's eye-catching. "Pain." In my opinion, negative feelings are very easy to use to get people's attention. I think it's because "philosophy" is a natural thing for "geniuses" and they're very "deep in thought", therefore "serious", and "no time to laugh", which gives the impression they're "sad". So people get the feeling blues and gray are more interesting than pinks and reds. Maybe my theory -theory!- is wrong but people are definitely attracted to "sad" paintings easier. Maybe I don't like the Barbie sticked to the turkey bones because I really really really don't like that type of art (messy and unclean). I was checking some blogs earlier and I came accross some SCENE ART! whattttt? ugh. scene "art". And, just as I predicted, it was horrible. Hhooorible. I sure felt much, much better about my drawing. Which probalby has gone down over the days of now practice. But it's still there. OMG! I made some tofu buffalo wings some days ago and it was mind-blowin'. lol. And I made some chili con tofu yesterday made up by me and just creating as I went but that was really good too. I'm gonna go have it now, actually. And I took out my loving Chamo for a walk earlier too. I love him so much No Comments

O.O

by ronmascara on August 11, 2009 Maria got a D60. D60D60D60D60 (lol, i'm making that a habit of mine). She only takes pictures of herself. Which makes them bad. The composition is boring with herself centered and once I commented, "whoa, this is monocromatic! cool." and she replied, "I never noticed.." hm? a good photographer notices, alright. A good photographer intends to pain the image blue. And when she does shoot like a car, water, the floor (wtf. but she really did do that once), etc, she always ends up in the picture either as a reflection or a shadow. And I have a D60 also. Which might make you think I think my photographs are better than hers. And they probably are, when there are photographs. I never shoot anymore and I don't take it everywhere like I used to. People looked at me and they knew a big, huge part about me. "Wow, she likes photography -therefore art-." I don't like strangers to know that! Rub me the right way baby. I'm being hypocritical because you're probably a stranger and know my whole life and thoughts and feelings. It's like I'm a little girl just waiting to get raped. An open book that makes it all easy. Almost tells you instructions on how to get to my house, get to my school, tame my dogs, etc. I'm not, I just like having journals and maybe people find me interesting. I've been confused about things lately. Like thisss. "I'm not, I just like having journals and maybe people find me interesting. " "I don't like strangers to know that!" O. I had to tell Chris I was a lesbian so he'd just leave me alone. Maybe he didn't like me before but I really like to make sure. And I'm not a lesbian. I'm mean :( No Comments

sometimes

by ronmascara on August 09, 2009 "I moved out." "Where?" "With my gf" "O." Whatwhatwhatwhatwhatwhatwhatwhatwhatwhatwhatwhat I'm not jealous. I'm really not. It's just so strange. Lawrence. Living with a girl. Any girl. Including me. Right now. This young. Maybe I din't know the guy he really is, like with gf and all. Like the more mature guy. I doubt he's living with her allllone, but still.. Is this the same story as my mom's&dad's? Maybe even the common story? Ok, enough with the bullshit. ..Is she preggo? No Comments

si hiciera una lista de todos mis errores

by ronmascara on August 09, 2009 "you're all i ever wanted, we could do it real big, bigger than you ever done it" just breaks my heart. "every single time, i say, you the fuckin best." Lawrence called the other day while I was at bk with Mariah, Caro, and Gaby. I didn't answer but whatever. I texted later that night a hi but it was kinda late. 1:09 AM but what the fuck? really? I'll call him, I'll sneak out with him after school starts and I meet someone. Then I won't want him as bad and he won't manipulate me that easily. WHAT? What am I saying? It's like I'm fine with it until I really think about it. Just like Chris. I'd think it was all cool 'til 20 just popped into me and it felt strange. It felt like wtf, he's 20. 20 20 20 20. 6 years, Janie. Haidy & her crew left this morning and I sure will miss them. Terribly. Haidy was soo funny, even if they weren't deep. Jennifer got a PSP and I was kinda like whoa! lol, it looked real shiny and I know I got everything else but whatever. My backpack arrived like the day before yesterday. It's so pretty! Maybe not worth $42 but it's so pretty. I wanted the Bright Eyes badge but I couldn't find it. And Harry Potter'd be cool too. Gaby took this amazing picture of Caro and I. I'll post the link sometime, 'ight? k, byee. No Comments

what what what do you say!

by ronmascara on August 05, 2009 I love The LittleBigPlanet, it{s so cool. I have a buunny costume with bunny ears, bunny tail, white print, pink cat nose, black eyes, sharp lion teeth, and i wanted cool glasses but Jennifer took them and wtf I didn{t want to be like her. We're calling Nick and letting him know that we've made our desicion. And I have to go to barnes and Noble today and buy my books to read. I can't wait till I do anything that has to do with DASH. No Comments

halll

by ronmascara on July 31, 2009 Hi! Guess what. I got into DASH/! They called today while I was at Forever21 and my mom told me and I was soo excited! I went to Main St with Mariah, Gaby, and Katie and we had pizza (except me). We just sat in front of the hotel and talked and we played arcade. I didn't have time to get reday so I looked like a piece of shit that had just gone runnin.g I watched Coraline! Yeah, it was really good. About DASH.. It's not the same AS if I'd gotten in like first. Because it's like they'rwe giving me what's left. But whatever, of course I'm still extremely happy. What the hell do you think prom would be like at DASH? I know I've asked this before but, hey! Now I'll know. And I texted Anuez and he was like, "Yeah, I know," which made me think, "wtf." Butttt he probably got the job there and made the lady put me in or something. Which kinda makes it worseee! Hmph. Oh Lawrence called yesterday. The voicemail was kinda like, "Hey we haven't talked in a couple days and I just wanted to drop by and say hi and I miss you. Bye, love you." And then we talked because I called him back and it was like two minutes but half was long and awkward silences made by me. I really had a lot to say but I didn't want it out. I mean, the silence could explain so much more than I could with words. He ended our phone call with, "I'll call you tomorrow or in a couple days because I'm going to the movies and then to sleep." Then Chris R. tried giving me advice about it and that ticked me off because I really don't need it. I know what to do with my fucking life! Best I ever had reminds me of Lawrence sooo much. Because "and everytime I say, you the fuckin best you the fuckingg best." And it's the music his girlfriend got him into lately so. okay. Metallica is so much better. I mean, seriously, Lil' Wayne? Wtf. These are just theories, "not to be confused" No Comments

tomorrow, tomorrow-ohhhh!

by ronmascara on July 29, 2009 I just came home last night from Orlando and Tampa. We went to Busch Gardens, Magic Kingdom, Islands of Adventure & Universal, and Blizzard Beach. I tried listening to them talk but it was nothing interesting, just gossip. And besides, I didn't want to hear the death counts, the kidnapping stories, and things like that because it made me sad but I couldn't sleep right. Maybe it was because I had the stupid dress on or because I was sitting up. Whatever it was, I ended up with a backache. I need to have good friends next year. Like actually good and interesting people I can have actually good and interesting conversations with. I loved that about gaby, she was kinda like that. Or at least she pretended to, but it worked. My hairdresser cut my bangs tooo short! They're not like holy shit but I definitely wanted them longer. It was my fault 'cfause they looked longer because they were wet. And Jennifer's really cute & nice. She talks so fast! she doesn't eat like anything. She's so skinny. But another question arises Why are fat people so obsessed with KungFu Panda? I just know Nick and Lawrence and I haven't watched the movie but.. I don't know. Lawrence isn't fat anymore though. Drugs. Ahha Nick just tries to sound cool. No Comments