things are perking up.

i'd rather be asleep, dreaming and breathing.

they saved my life.

so did 1000 other bands.

so did he.

thank you

x

i can't quite figure out which id rather be...
asleep dreaming [could be a good dream or nightmare?!] and breathing.

or dead...away from any terror i will and have encountered, any problems i encounter, any people who hurt me, any fear i face.

At the moment [and i know this sounds EMMOOOO] but im so afraid of living, im not happy and no one does seem to care.

i used to laugh at emos for being so like that, but i totally see now, for a nobody like me, i can still suffer a great deal, and while it happens its very hard, i feel so alone and want to grow up to do my own thing. i couldn't tel anyone this, so i whine, which makes it seem pathetic.

and i don't know what to do!?

x.